118 Episode 71 Narsena's Regret.txt




 I was momentarily speechless at Narsena's question, as if I hadn't imagined it.
 However, whether or not Narsena was helpful, it was unnecessary to answer that question.

 As if she saw through my inner thoughts, Narsena laughed.

'...... No, you shouldn't ask like this. There's no way you're going to say your brother is useless.

 But what came to Narsena's face as she told him this was a dejected mood that didn't match her words.

''Your brother is kind,''

I'm not going to say that I'm useful for that alone.

 I reflexively said that to Narsena who told me that.

''I'm not going to say anything lame about this kind of thing just out of mercy. I'm only saying this because I really think that Narcena has helped me until now. Don't get me wrong about that properly.

Thank you to .......

 At my words, Narsena smiles happily.
 But that was all.

''I'm really glad to hear you say that to your brother. Besides, I do believe I'm stronger than the other adventurers too.

 With each word, the smile disappeared from Narsena's face.
 While noticing this, Narsena eventually told her with an expression that looked like she was about to cry.

''I don't have the confidence to nod that way, even though ...... could stand beside your brother and fight,''

Not true!

 Quickly I deny what Narcena said.
 That Narsena's words were the only thing I couldn't admit.

''I couldn't defeat Fenrir this time, either. If Narsena hadn't come, I would have been defeated by Fenrir like that. Even Mr. Ronaldo said that not only me, but also Narsena did a great job this time.

 Yes, even with Fenrir, I could only buy myself some time on my own.
 It was all because of Narsena's help that I was able to win.
 But as she gazed at me with this appeal, Narsena's eyes were filled with the same sadness.

''I'm sorry, brother. I can't take those words. ...... Because if I had been able to stall the ogre, your brother would not have been driven into a corner and then fallen down.

......!

 The deep regret in those words leaves me speechless for a moment.

 But it was only for a moment.

No, that's not true.

 I quickly regained my self and denied Narsena's words.
 It's true that I couldn't help but be injured by Ogre's arrival at that time.
 However, to be honest, I have no confidence that I could have stopped Ogre at that time, and I have no intention of blaming Narsena.
 And as for Ogre, I can think of it as being offset by the fact that I defeated Fenrir.
 And as for my fall afterwards, it was only the misfortune of the weak effect of Heal and my mistake in insisting on winning the game until the last minute.

Narcena was definitely doing her best. I made the wrong choice and fell, but Narcena is not to blame for anything.

That's very kind of you, my brother.

 ......, but Narsena only smiled sadly at my words.

 I'm sure you'll be able to find a way to make the most of your time with us.

'Wait, Narsena. It's not really comforting or anything: ......

 But Narsena doesn't listen to my words.
 Narsena interrupted me and said, "You don't have to try so hard to comfort me, brother.

I'm not saying you have to try so desperately to comfort me, brother. I understand.''

 It was a voice laced with an unconcealed tremble.
 Narsena tells her while trying desperately to hide the tears that have gathered in her eyes with a smile.

''At least I'm not capable of standing beside your brother.

Not true!

No. Because your brother is already strong enough without me.

 I'm not sure what to say, but her words were so calm and yet filled with regret that I couldn't help but choke on them.

 ...... I didn't know how in the world to soothe the regret of the Narsena.

 It's not a matter of whether or not you've got the right person or not.
 But that feeling is not going to help Narsena.
 You're going to be able to find out the best way to get the most out of this.
 I knew that, but I couldn't say anything.

Please don't look at me like that. I don't mean to blame you.

 Narsena tells me in a trembling voice.

It's all my fault for not being able to use it at all.

 ...... No, there's no way Narsena is useless.
 As I shouted inwardly, I thought about how to get through to Narsena.
 You'll be able to find out how to make Narsena understand my thoughts.

 I'm not sure if she knows what I'm thinking, but she continues with a powerless smile.

It's a good thing that you've been trying to do this all along, but you're selfishly proud that you have limited use for it. ...... I almost made an irreversible mistake like this.

 In the middle of her words, sobs mingle with the words.
 Spilling uncontrollable tears, Narcena tells her.

'...... I'm so sorry.'

No, I am...

 I tried to say something to that apology, but still I didn't know what to say.
 I don't know how to get through to Narsena right now, and I can't say any more words.

 I'm completely silent, and Narsena spins her words desperately, though she's at a loss for words.

'Let me just ask you one more thing.

 Narcena turns her tear-soaked eyes to us and asks.

'Do you need me for your brother ......?'

 Now I understood completely.
 That the question Narsena really wanted to ask was this.
 And.

 I finally understood what I should tell Narsena.

I'm not going to be able to get it right. Oh, I see.

 I can't help but laugh at myself for not realizing how simple it was.
 I didn't realize that I was missing the point.
 What I really need to do is not to assuage Narsena's regret.

 It's to tell her how much I need her.

"Onii-san?

 Narsena can't hide her surprise at my sudden burst of laughter.
 As I watch them, I decide to tell them a story.
 I decide that now is the time.

'I'm sorry for laughing all of a sudden. But there is something I want to talk to you about for a bit. Do you mind if I talk to you?

 When I ask Narsena to tell me that she has no malice, while patting her head, Narsena nods her head silently and silently.
 To such a Narsena, I begin.
 I've been thinking about revealing this to Narsena for a long time now - the story I was going to tell her when I confessed to her.