82 joy and relief and jealousy and gratitude




 Watching the boy in front of her with a smile on his face, Henriette let out a small breath, unnoticed.
 There was joy, relief - and jealousy in it.
 It's because she had seen Allen to the end in her previous life and will do the same in this life.

 Because Henriette's impression of the boy was that he did not smile.
 Or, more accurately, ...... has stopped laughing.

 The relationship between Henriette and Allen is reasonably long.
 Allen ended up being a hero in that world for about a decade, and Henriette was involved from the beginning to the end.
 The role of a hero to Allen, empowering him, watching over him, spreading the word of God, sometimes giving him advice ...... and so on until the end, when he was killed.

 In terms of time that Henriette has lived, it is only a blink of an eye, but in terms of intensity, it's probably the best.
 I'm sure it's not inferior to the rest of my life except for that.

 Anyway, most of the time Henriette was only watching ...... but she kept on watching.

 I'm going to be able to see that Allen does what someone asks him to do, and that he does his heroic duty.
 To save people without anyone else's help.
 Shunned by those who feared his power, ostracized and ostracized by those who were afraid of his power, and nearly killed many times. ...... And yet, he helped the innocent people.

 I'm sure you'll be able to find out more about it.

 You will be able to get a good idea of what you're looking for.
 I should say that she kept it up that well ......, but still, Allen's behavior never changed at all.

 You will find that the only thing that has changed ...... is that you continue to help people the same way.
 The only thing that has changed is that the smile on your face has become a manufactured one.

 I'm sure that Allen himself was not aware of that.
 If he had, he would have stopped dead in his tracks.

 Allen was indeed a hero.
 It was none other than Henriette who gave him that role and power, and in terms of pure power alone he was undoubtedly the strongest being in that world.

 But the one who wielded that power was really no hero or anything but a boy.

 I'm sure you'll be able to find out more about that.
 No, ...... realized, I should say, that she was aware of that.

 At first, Henriette was misunderstood, too.
 That Allen had such a strong and unbreakable heart that he deserved to be given the power and role of a hero.

 But that was not the case.
 To begin with, I was fundamentally mistaken.

 Allen wasn't helping people because of his role or anything like that.
 He was only helping people in need because he was there to help them because he was strong enough to do something about it.

 It was just doing what is natural.
 He was just doing what was natural.

 And that is why he deserved to be a hero more than anyone else.
 Because he was just an ordinary boy who could do the ordinary things that many people could not do, even though they knew it.

 But the heartless words of those who helped him hurt him deeply.
 There was nothing in the world that could hurt the body of the strongest boy, but the looks of fear and words of exclusion from people were too much to rob him of his smile.

 Still, he was just an ordinary boy, so he continued to help people, even under a false mask.
 Because if he hadn't, he wouldn't have been able to bear it.

 He wasn't saving people.
 He kept reaching out to people for his own sake because he didn't want to be remorseful. ...... And so, in the end, he saved the world.

 You can find such an ordinary, ordinary, definitely nothing more than a hero.
 That was a boy named Allen.

 And even though she knew all of this, because she was an apostle, Henriette couldn't do anything about it.
 If she had wanted to, she could have dealt with those who rejected him.

 But he didn't do it, and he couldn't.
 That's because Allen didn't want to do it.

 If only she had wanted to, she could have let them suffer to the extent that she would rather die. ...... When she said that, all she could do was look at him with a helpless expression on her face.
 I'm sure you'll be able to find out more about this in the future.

 In the end, I couldn't even bring a smile back on her face until the very end ...... and then she was smiling at me.
 It's a good thing that you're not happy about it.
 It's a good thing that I was able to reincarnate in this world and not feel relieved.

 But that's why you're jealous.
 Because that's not what Henriette could have done.

 You thank them for saving him, and at the same time you feel uncontrollable frustration.

Henriette? Do you hear me?
"Hmm? Oh, I'm sorry. I was just thinking.
"Is there anything on your mind when you're thinking about ......?

 Then Allen turned his eyes straight to me.

 Perhaps if you nod here, Allen will help you without any hesitation.
 Just like back then, nothing has changed.

 But unfortunately, that's not what Henriette had in mind.
 With a bitter smile--

But, well, that's my hero.
"Huh? What?
I said that's not what I meant. It's just that you say so many nostalgic things that I was just thinking about the past.
"Ah ......, I see? But I guess you can't blame them, right? It would have been a long time ago to talk to you, after all.

 While saying this, Allen shrugged his shoulders ...... If it had been right after his reincarnation in this world, I'm sure Allen would have tried to tell a different story.

 The events of the past life are certainly easy to understand and common to both of them, but they are never easy to talk about.
 This is because, to Allen, it should also evoke bitter memories.

 But now Allen doesn't seem to be doing that, which means he's getting over it.
 Whether he or she is aware of it is another story. ...... It's probably because of them that Allen is able to talk about the old days so calmly and calmly, which is something to be thankful for.

 It's a good thing to be able to have a good time with them.



...... that's why you're no good. It's a good idea to talk about something that will make women happy.
It's a good thing you're saying that: ...... I don't even know what kind of stories women in this world enjoy being told, to begin with.
"How do you not know that ...... is still a former duke's heir?
"No, I don't think that has anything to do with ......?
But actually it's none of my business. A legitimate son of a duke's family would naturally come to you even if you left him alone. But that's just it. He's a man, so that's what he's supposed to do.
How inexcusable. ......

 And yet a smile is on his lips as he laments.
 It was the same for Henriette, and it was just an idle joke.

 But back then, I couldn't even do this.
 If you think about it, ...... well, in the end, the feeling of gratitude is stronger than the feeling of gratitude.

 You can't get rid of your jealousy, but if there is something only they could do, there is something only you can do.
 It's a good idea to be able to have a conversation about the old days of your past life.
 Because of the power of his apostolic powers, he is still limited ...... someday.

 I wish I could really do something for this former hero, while thinking about it.
 For today's sake, we talked about the old days again.