114 Day 113.4, evening.txt






 After the semifinals, I immediately separated from Rustiala and the others.
 Compared to the time of "Kanami," I remember the memories of "Christ," and Rustiala and the others follow my instructions without much explanation.

 Ignoring my body's need for rest, I exit through the exit on the opposite side of the corridor from Rastiara. Then I go through the corridor and reach the waiting room. The Reaper was waiting for me there.

''Brother, congratulations. You finally got your truth back.

 The Reaper congratulates me with an innocent smile.
 But I can't be happy about it.

 As I regain my memory, the experience of my former failures keeps ringing alarm bells.
 I can sense the truth behind her blessing.
 The emotions conveyed by the 'connection' tell me that she is incompatible with the Reaper.
 --the girl in front of me turns out to be a difficult foe, comparable to the Palinclone of one day.

'Oh. Thanks, Reaper. It was a bit of a painful memory, but I'm glad I got it back. Thanks to the help of the Reaper.
Thank God. Now you won't have to do your brother a favor.

 The Reaper smiles happily.
 But don't be fooled by his juvenile appearance and endearing smile.

 I can't make a definitive statement, but I can make a guess.
 Perhaps the emotions aren't the only thing the Reaper can get from the 'connection'.
 And no one is saying that there is only one 'connection'.

 By making so many connections, a leaper has the potential to learn experience and emotion from many people at the same time. If there is no upper limit to the number of 'connections', then the target is all the citizens of Lauravian Country. In other words, in just a few days, she might be able to gain hundreds of years of experience.
 There are many acquaintances of Palinkron in Lauravia. The Reaper learned from reading Palinkron's power and memories from the 'connections' of many people. -- such a verse.

 This is probably why the Reaper shows an attitude that is not appropriate for his age.

''Now I won't make a mistake in my wish. That night of the dragon slaying, the Reaper pushed me to this point. Thank you so much.''
'Nope, I'm not doing anything. I'm full of me, you know.

 The Reaper is not doing anything - it looks like he's not doing anything.
 He's really just pushing me around.

 I thought the way he did it was really similar to Palinkron.
 Maybe it's not just the 'connection'.

 I heard yesterday that the Reaper said that he helped Rastiara find someone.

 When was that?
 Could it be that the Reaper noticed something wrong with everyone's body, including his own, from day one? 

 That day, the Reaper flew around the country without sleeping to collect magic power and information.
 That's when he must have met Rastiara and the others.

 And who were they looking for?
 The one Rustyala was looking for should be Palinkron.
 Since she had already found me, the object of protection, she must have wanted to check on the enemy next.

 Reaper helped Rustyala search for people with his dimensional magic 《Dimension》.
 As a result, the Rail mansion was cleared and Palinkron fled the country. It was possible that Reaper was present at the battle. --meaning it's very possible that he came in contact with Palinkron.

'So what's going to happen to my brother now that he's recovered his memory?

 -- that's all it takes to get rid of the anxiety.

 The Reaper's wish is 'to protect Rowen'.
 I can tell from the 'connection' that that desire is not a lie.

 That's why the Reaper and I will never be incompatible.
 Perhaps, she has always neglected me, who has the power to erase Rowen.

 Hence, the Reaper has always acted with the sole purpose of getting rid of me from the Confederacy. She continued to imprint on me the idea that I couldn't do anything until my memories were restored. He encouraged Snow to become independent and helped me recover my memories by putting the Reapers themselves on the back burner. Finally, he whispered to Rowen that he didn't need me and even brought up my sister's safety.

 All of this was to keep my estranged self away from Rowen.

'I'm going to meet with Snow and talk to her now.

 I cut to the chase, carefully watching the reaper's reaction.

'You're Snow sister, or ....... But are you sure? Your brother wanted you to solve the Walker family's problems on your own, didn't he, Sister Snow?
'Yeah, yeah ....... But it's terrible to leave without saying anything, isn't it? We should at least talk about it at the end.
"Leave-- ...... Yeah. Maybe we should at least talk at the end. Your brother has to go after that Palinkron guy without a care in the world.
'Yeah. ...... but how do you know about Palinkron? Who told you about it?
'...... It's Mr. Rail. I was there when Rowen heard about Kanami's past from Mr. Rail. That's how I know that this Palinkron guy is the one who sealed my memories.
Okay. So you know a lot about my past.

 I don't think too much and talk as emotionlessly as possible.
 Probably the same with leapers. Because when we let our emotions run high, the 'connection' causes it to get through to the other person.

 The 'I (Kanami)' gained experience leading up to the Nativity.
 The 'Reaper' who gained hundreds of years of experience.
 The two who were innocent and innocent when they met at the 30th layer are no more.
 We are both full of lies and contradictions.

 Nevertheless, we continue to talk with each other without changing our expressions.

'But are you feeling well? There's no need to be so quick, I've already recovered my memory, so why not take a few days off?
'No, I want to go after the Palinkron right away. So I'm coming now.
'I see. If you want to go after a guy named Palinkron, ......, I don't blame you. ......
Reaper, I'm out of magic, so why don't you use the Dimension to find Snow?
......, okay. --Let's see, now you're on a medical ship in the west area.
Thank you. ...... Let's hurry up.

 The Reaper thought about it for a bit and then looked for Snow.
 I know where I am and quickly walk away.

 The Reaper follows behind me.
 I don't even have to look behind me to know.
 The Reaper is watching my every move.
 His sharp gaze continues to pierce my back.

 Nevertheless, I continue to walk cautiously and calmly, building up my magic power as I head to the west area.
 Then, I board the medical ship. Using my title as the Guildmaster of the 'Epic Seeker', I head to the sickbay where Snow is waiting.

 The Reaper made him wait on the deck of the ship.
 He forced himself to convince Snow that he wanted to talk to her alone. However, if the 《Dimension》 is strongly deployed, I'll know everything about what's inside. I can't lose my peace of mind.

 I made up my mind that I couldn't fail to persuade Snow, so I walked on.
 And then, in front of Snow's hospital room - that's where I meet Teri from Epic Seeker again.

'Kanami-kun ......?'

 He must have been accompanying Snow to take care of her.
 Although my memories have returned, that still doesn't mean that the memories of my time in Epic Seeker have disappeared. I speak to her with mixed feelings.

'Teri-san: ......'
...... Oh, thank God! You're here!

 Teyri's dark face lights up.
 I guess he was surprised that I showed up here.
 It looks like he's half delighted and half surprised.

'Yes. I thought I'd have a last word with Snow: .......
...... Yeah. I knew it was the last one, right?
Yes, sir.

 I don't know if it will be the last.
 But as long as the Reaper is nearby, we'll talk in that direction.

'Kanami-kun, please ....... You have to understand Snow ....... She was desperate, too. She was fighting hard in her own way ......!

 Teyliri sided with Snow.
 She looked like a sister protecting her sister.

 I think Teyri is thinking that she may not get a chance to talk to me anymore. She does her best to talk about Snow's past.

"...... There were three times in the past when Snow got serious, even when he was 'dragonized'. But each one of those times had the worst possible outcome. The first time he destroyed his home, the second time he killed the 'hero' he admired, and the third time his best friend who ran away with him died. And this is the fourth time. I'm sure Snow thinks I've made a mistake again ...... and that I've lost something important. ......

 I knew it dimly.
 Snow's life is a life of failure.
 I gave up on everything because I made a mistake and a mistake and a mistake.

 If I had made a few mistakes, I would have been the same.

'Please, Kanami-kun. You're a 'hero', aren't you, Kanami-kun? Save Snow. ...... If Snow isn't saved here, no one will be rewarded ....... No one ......
'Sorry, ....... I can't do that. I'm not a 'hero'.

 I clearly deny it.
 When Teyri-san heard that, she looked very disappointed and turned her face down.

 Teyri-san knows that I don't like 'heroes'. Still, he wants me to be Snow's 'hero'.

'If you're ......, then what are you, Kanami, Snow's what?'
I'm ...... and I'm going to talk to you as Snow's 'partner' .......

 If I'm not mistaken, me and Snow would have been partners in the beginning.
 If Snow hadn't clung to me back then, I wouldn't have seen her as a 'hero' either. That relationship is the ideal, and I call myself a partner.

 When my memory returns, I really want to be a partner with Snow.

 I open the door to the hospital room where Snow is waiting for me, leaving Teri-san behind with a small nod, "Yes, partner .......

 I walk into the room.

'Snow--'

 It was a pure white room.
 A luxurious white bed and furniture all in white.
 Large, white curtains flickered in the window.

 Snow looked out of the window while her hair was being stroked by the curtains.
 She was gazing dazzlingly at the endless blue sky.

 Very dazzlingly.