181 180. Reliance.txt




 All the black liquid, which has escaped freezing, wriggles as if it were to explode - and laughs.
 It is a crazy obsession that moves the Palinkron's body.
 A scene that can only be thought of as such unfolds in front of my eyes.

''--Ahaha, hahahahahahahahahaha!

 Halfway through, Palinclone had abandoned his defenses.
 It didn't move its black blade or activate its magic, but came forward while being slashed and chopped.

 Like a moth being sucked into the light, the face of a frenzied Noh mask approached me.

 Limb after limb, cut after cut, can no longer hold its proper shape.
 Still, Palinkron reached out, turning the still-frozen part into an arm.
 The repercussions of unleashing a big move in succession were great. The gap is exploited and I am grabbed by the arm.

''Finally, I've caught you! 
Get off of me! Palinkulon!

 He tries to shake it off as quickly as he can, but the palinclone changes the shape of his arms and entangles him like a mollusk.
 It doesn't look like he's ever going to let go.
 No, I can tell that he's not just going to let go, he's going to go in like this.

''Haha, this is the only place we have a chance to win! I'm going to unleash the boy's unique skills!

 With those words, the magic power of the palinkron crept in.
 I tried to mobilize all the magic in my body to get rid of it, but the thought of the "thief of the dark" was heavy.

 It's not just that he is trying to get magic power into it.
 Palinclone is trying to use the 'World Consecration Formation' to make himself the 'price', cut down on his life and activate the final dark magic.
 He felt the bottom line of Palinclone, who had abandoned his defenses and abandoned himself.

''All of me, I'm betting now! Deliver it! --magic 'mind variant (variable), release (burst)'!

 Mental magic is activated.
 Along with the illusion of being scratched into your body with a poker, your vision instantly darkens. The battlefield was dark to begin with, but this darkness is something else. A black curtain also hangs over the information obtained from the Dimension. It was the same effect as the state abnormality 'darkness' that I received from Tida in the past.

 Of course, that's not all.
 A wide variety of state abnormalities are triggered.

 You will be suffocated like poison, your throat will be tight like silence and your body will be numb like paralysis. And although the body is trembling with fear, the body is hot with elation.
 My vision flickers. My thoughts waver.
 I can no longer understand language and I don't know how to 'perceive' the world. Priorities in my head are shuffled and I feel like I'm forgetting what's important to me.

 Even the strength you've finally gained is about to be swallowed up by the darkness.

Ugh!
'Even though it's picking up, the boy has an opening to die for! I'm going to cause that runaway once again, yeah!

 Naturally, the skill '??' crawls up on you.
 But I'll get rid of it soon enough. If the ? is activated now, you may lose the will to fight the Palinkulon.
 Therefore, I was going to fight while holding the state defect - but I wasn't sure if that was really a good idea.

 Even though Palinkron was no longer dying, it could still be an act. Fighting with a large amount of status abnormalities, he might fall behind. The skill '??' When he was full of holding down the '??', he might be able to exploit the gap in his mind again. If only once, should I activate it?
 As I hesitated to make a choice, Hailey's words came back to me.

 -- "You'll find your sister.
 -- "Use all your skills.
 -- "We just need to move on.

 It's almost as if he was anticipating this situation.

 I can't get my thoughts together. I can't stop the rush of emotions.
 So, I--!

'Uhhhh! Heili believed in me! Then I'm, I'm, I'm a--!

 --responded to the trust, and I believed in Hailey, too.

 I hoped and shouted, thinking that doing so would be her mourning.
 With a roar, I summoned up my courage and unsealed the skill I had been evading.
 Not automatically, but voluntarily, '??' I activate the "??

--The skill '??' went out of control.
   In exchange for some emotion, it stabilizes the spirit.
   A +1.00 correction is added to the confusion--

-What?

 My heart stops, as if time has stopped.
 The lake of emotions that had been raging so wildly ceased to move slightly.

 Your thoughts become clearer and your vision, which had been narrowing, expands.
 The skill '??' I can see that my mind has been optimized to prevent me from dying.
 It was truly a state that should be called an adjustment.

 However, without a moment's pause, Palinkron's magic power resumes its erosion.

"Haha, I knew that was coming! But my magic isn't over yet! I'll drop you beyond that in a heartbeat!

 The skill '??' Palinclone, who had read the activation of the '?', folded up with the spirit magic he had prepared in advance.

''Beyond (...) ......?''

 I react to Palinkron's words.
 The skill '??' I don't feel that something has changed dramatically with the activation of the '? It's true that my will to fight has waned. I'm not sure if it's meaningful to fight Palinkron anymore - but it's not fatal either. I don't feel that it's worthy of Hailey's conviction.

 Perhaps what Heili calls 'all the skills' -.

"-Magic 'Variable, release (burst)'

 The magic of Palinclone's life causes a wave of spiritual magic to wash over him like a murky stream. Your emotions begin to rage again, as if a boulder had been thrown into the lake.
 My well-organized thoughts are being jumbled up into a mess.

 As soon as the arm was grabbed, it was no longer possible to avoid using the skill '? It's not possible to avoid the continuous use of the "?
 All sorts of abnormalities are eating away at you and you can't think about anything.
 But I wasn't afraid of them, strangely enough.
 Because I can't think about anything, I can clearly feel the light in the darkness.

 The 'all skills' that Haili says - perhaps some of them are skills '? I had a hunch that this includes "Refund" which is the endpoint of ?

--State: confusion 8.87--

 All the anomalies in the 'State' column have been converted to confusion. In a few moments, the confusion will reach 10.00.
 Even so, I don't fearfully activate the skill in succession at will.

''Activate! If you're going to take it, take it all, yeah--!

--The skill "? has gone out of control.
   Stabilize your mind in exchange for some emotion.
   You will receive a +1.00 correction to your confusion--
--The skill "? has gone out of control.
   Stabilize your mind in exchange for some emotion.
   You will receive a +1.00 correction to your confusion--

 The value of the confusion.

--State: confusion 10.87--

 Over 10.00.
 Then, sometime the 'display' crosses the field of view.

-- Confusion has reached 10.00 and the skill '??' The limit of the skill '??' has been exceeded.
   The accumulated confusion is 'refunded' as the original emotion--.

 Everything will be paid back (・・・・・・・・・).

 Everything that has been added to the interest will be returned. The accumulated bad feelings and memories - despair, loneliness, frustration, humiliation, stress, discomfort, fear, pollution - and the 'love interest' will return.
 It was a set of emotions that was beyond lethal, enough to necrosis the mind.

'Ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh--!

 Unlike before, I was defensive. I was more than a little hopeful that I should be able to endure it the second time.
 But the "refund" of the skill "? I'm not going to be able to get a good deal more than just a few minutes.
 I'm going to be forced to wail.

--The Skill '??' went out of control.
   In exchange for some emotion, I stabilize my mind.
   A +1.00 correction is added to the confusion--.
--The skill "? has gone out of control.
   Stabilize your mind in exchange for some emotion.
   You will receive a +1.00 correction to your confusion--
--The skill "? has gone out of control.
   Stabilize your mind in exchange for some emotion.
   You will receive a +1.00 correction to your confusion--

 Naturally, in order to suppress those emotions, the skill '??' is activated again. will be activated.
 If this continues, the 'refund' loop will begin.
 It's a one-way street to death through a chain of despair.
 The inevitable beginning of collapse - but now I have something I didn't have before. I have a way to fight it.

 Next (...).
 It's the only place (・・・・・・).
 If I want to use my next skill, there is no better place to do it than here.
 Now, there's no such thing as too fast a turnover.

 --releasing the 'parallel thinking' you've been holding back completely!

 In the depths of an emotional sea of hell, he resurrects his 'monstrous' thinking abilities.
 He then uses his full capacity to process his emotions.
 The first time he was 'reimbursed', he escaped the loop by Palinclone's mental magic. I cried out pitifully and clung to the Palinclone for help.
 However, the Palinclone is no longer helping me.
 The person who paid for that rescue is me.
 You'll have to use your own strength to overcome the "? ?" loop by my own power.

 I felt like I'd gone over the edge and the nerves in my brain were sparking.
 Blood dribbled out of my nose.
 Still, I didn't leave my emotions to the skill "?? I don't leave my emotions to the "??" and go to process them with my mind.

 I'll never give it to anyone again.
 This is "my property".

 Even if it's a bad feeling, this is born from my heart.
 It is the proof that I am me.
 How can I allow them to be conveniently adjusted and erased?

 In order to swallow it all and turn it into flesh and blood, I move forward.
 Now is the time to turn our pride into the real thing and become strong in the true sense of the word.
 That is the 'path' that Heili showed me.

Ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh--!

 -- but that 'path' is not going to be so easy.

 The despair runs deep and the effects on the body accelerate. 
 Beyond the suffocation, the breathing stops. Every cell is in despair and tries to stop living. Dizziness and chills hit me at the same time, and my legs tremble. I don't have a single wound, but I writhe with phantom pain.
 The same pain as at the end of the Nativity returns.

 Painful.
 Suffering to the point of death--!

 I know I have to be strong. I know I need to be strong.
 But my mind is weak and I feel like I'm going to break.

 Trans-human 'parallel thinking' has strengthened my ability to think dozens of times over. But even with that power, I can't sort through my emotions.
 I still lacked "something" for "everything Heili says". I've got a hunch.
 You need to find that "something".
 But what is that "something"?

 All the while, the suffering accelerates.
 Suffering. Suffering. The torment.
 I'm going out of my mind with agony. I feel like I'm going to cut my throat right now!

 Unable to bear it, I poke my knee in the air.

'-Yeah, you did it? ...... Okay, or, we won! You've outbid your brother Kanami!

 I heard Palinkron's voice.
 His consciousness is almost broken and his voice feels very far away.

 It should be so close, but the voice is so far away.
 Death is the only thing that feels close, and the world feels far away. 

The only thing left to do is to finish it--
"--I don't want you to do it! Palinkulon!

 As Palinkron points his black blade at me, Ryner steps in between.

 The two of them then begin to fight over my body.
 The black liquid leaps and bounds, and Ryner tries to use his two swords to block it. But Palinclone's discarded attack is caustic. Ryner can't avoid the attachment of the black liquid.

'Hine's brother! Don't interrupt me, don't you--!
Hey, "Rowen" - no, override me, "Rufbringer"!

 The magic sword, not the treasure sword, shines.
 The purple mist flashed as it was eroded by the black liquid.
 Unlike me, Reiner seems to have a strong mind. I'm not going to give in to a mental attack so easily.

 The battle between the two of us was competitive.

 But I can't intervene in it. Even now, because of the 'refund', my body is still twitching. If I move my body, that alone will cause extreme pain.
 The only thing I can do now is to continue to watch this battle.

It's just a stupid time, Christ!

 There's no way I'm allowed to --
 Reiner called me. Unlike his comrades, he doesn't care what we do. He wants me to stand up, even if it kills me.
 I'm not the one who decides how this ends," he shouts, "but me.

"It's not over yet! You're retiring after dressing up like that! You can't let them see you in such a pathetic state! To 'her'!

 I turned my eyes toward the direction of the liner voice. But even though I only moved my eyeballs a few millimeters, the pain was so intense that it felt as if my eyes had been squashed.

 The pain makes me feel like I'm going to fall over.
 But then a voice rebukes me for not allowing it.

Get up, Christ! You're a man, man!

 It was as if he had been shouted into my ear, an illusion.
 Even if it doesn't dispel the intense pain in my body, it's enough to make me find the meaning of being strong.

 Stand up because you're a man - maybe that very simple and clear reason is what I need right now.
 I've been thinking so much about the small stuff that I've almost forgotten the obvious.

 I put my strength back into my body and stand up, wobbling. I fight the pain, trying not to be ashamed of being a man.
 Then, in the midst of the uncanny, intense pain, I resume my thoughts.

 Hailey told me to use all my skills.
 I'm pretty sure she said that with some kind of conviction. At the time of her death, she had definitely found 'something' that I didn't understand.
 Believing that, I released the skill "?" and the skill "Parallel Thinking". and the skill 'Parallel Thinking' were released. I've used all the skills available to me. --I'm not going to be able to get a good deal more than that. It's not all of them yet. It's not enough to fulfill Haili's will.
 Then what's left?
 What do you want me to do?

 The only things that are here are the Palinclones, the liners, and the darkness and light. All that's left is--.

'Christ! If you're short on magic, you can use (・・・・) the World's Vengeance Army (・・・・・)! Just like Mr. Heili and Mr. Palinkron! You can do it! No, I thought this was originally for you (・・・・・・・・・) 'magic circle (...)' (・・・・・・・・)!

 In the middle of my thoughts, I hear Ryner's voice.

 'World Devotional Camp' by me?
 That means that it uses the same skill 'spellcasting' as Palinkron.
 Certainly, there is a possibility that I can interfere with this 'magic circle'. If my memory of that thousand years ago is correct, this 'spellcraft' is mine. It's worth trying out this new skill.

 I'm going to activate the dimensional magic Dimension. Then, imitating Haili, I'm going to dissolve my body and let that magic power enter the World Meditation Squadron. First, he tries to understand everything about the World Bombardment.

 However, he soon regrets it.
 A chill went through my entire body.

 It was that large and dark. Palinclone had said that the 'World Consecration Camp' was connected to the 'deepest part'. Just as he said, a world that could be called the abyss of the world was spreading out underneath the World Defence Force camp that was stretched out on the ground.

 It was filled with the truth, memory and power of the world.
 It's not a space that can be endured by most people. The reason I am able to enter this space now is because my body is getting closer to the "monster".
 This vast space, which makes me feel that I am beyond the universe, eats at my heart just by being there.

 Beyond the pain, my body starts to freeze.
 Beyond the coldness, I lose my senses.

 It was impossible for me to understand this in my current state. Even if I was in perfect physical condition, it was doubtful that I could even grasp a part of this space.

 I almost gave up on the use of the World Service Squad.

 --I'm not going to be able to get it right.

 I felt a shiver coming from the depths of the World's Migration camp.

----

 There is no such thing as air in that space. Therefore, there is no way that the air is trembling.
 And yet, I thought it was a "voice".
 Because there was nothing else in the world, I could feel that voice clearly.

 For some reason, my body was trying to answer on its own.
 It could no longer be called a reflection. The 'soul' responded as if it was natural.
 A lot of information (pieces) connected with the clickety-clack and formed one answer.

 Remember what Haili said. 
 What else did Haili say?
 As I recall--

 -- "Did you call 'her' just to look for it?

 "She"?
 Who is it? I know who it is. I've already noticed.
 But it's not as if 'she' can hear me.

 Knowing that I can't reach there forever, I've given in to the Palinkron.
 There's no way she would answer me, even if I called her.
 There is no .......

 But - believe in it.
 Believe in that light - the 'path' that opens up the darkness.
 The rest of Heili's words are true.

 -- "If 'she' is coming this way, I'm sure she will answer the call.
 -- "All we have to do is call them.

 Call ......?

 My breath catches in my throat.
 My heart beats faster at the answer I've arrived at, at the name I've arrived at.
 After all, the bad feelings that are raging right now include excessive feelings for others, such as "love". I'm not just in love with Rustyala, I'm also in love with my sister, who was lost due to the skill "? I'm not going to be able to say that I'm not going to be able to do that. So it's inevitable that a hot thing rises from the back of my throat.

 And with that passionate feeling, I'm going to spin my old name.

Hi, "Yotaki (...)"--?

 Call its name.

 Just like that, the world of the "World Consecration Camp" trembled.
 It trembled and trembled - that vibration came back as a certain 'voice'

 -- "--Dare, le--? --

 Oh, oh, .......
 That voice is .......

 A warm voice.
 A voice that fills my hungry heart.
 A voice that I've been seeking for a long, long time.

 There is no mistaking it.

 --I heard Yotaki's voice.

 And I understand what Heili meant.
 So, I--!

Yotakii... 

 I shouted, trying to reach every corner of the world.
 Instead of picking her up, I called her name.

 There was no longer any room in my heart at all.
 There was not much strength left in my body.
 The pain is so intense that my senses are nearly broken, and I'm on the verge of losing consciousness.
 You're going to be able to find out if you're going to be able to get a refund with the skill "? I'm not going to be able to get a refund.

 But even so, I'm going to scream.
 I'm going to call out the name of that which is important to me with all my might!

"Yotaki! I'm here! If you can hear me, answer me! I'm here!

 He strengthens his "connection" with the World Inquisitorial Corps and searches the vast world.
 Just like in the past, I search and search and search everywhere - and keep searching.
 And the voice that comes back.

 -- "--Ni, isa, n--? --

 I had my ears done.
 I had to concentrate all my attention to see where it was coming from.
 So I could see.
 I'm aware.
 I figured it out.
 I knew where the voice was coming from.

 No doubt.
 The voice came from within me (・・・・・・・・・・).
 The voice emanated from within me and reverberated through the "World Consecration Camp". A small voice that could probably only be heard here (...). So much so that the voice was weak and thin.

''--Yotaki! I'm here too (・・・・・・・)! I'm here! Yotakii-ii-ii-ii--!

 The world distorts in response to that cry.
 Consciousness shifts away from the battle between Palinkron and Ryner.
 I become detached from the concept of time.

 And then, after a thousand years of time, I remember.

 Yes, I remember.
 I remember.

 This is not someone's memory. It is not the memory of "blood" either.
 I remember the memory of the certain "I".

 -- 'Yes (...), that's the correct answer (・・・・). Boy, that's the answer.'

 And then I hear another voice.
 I missed that voice, too, and there was no mistaking it.
 It was Heili's voice.

 But that voice wasn't coming from inside me, it was coming from the end of The World Consecration Camp.
 I understand again.
 I knew that Heili was still alive in the World Offering Camp and was still showing me the way.

 It was exactly the moment when all the pieces fit together.
 This situation is the answer to the 'path' indicated by Haili's will.

 -- 'Here, you can know everything. Let's pump up the 'memory'. Let's look at the 'memory' that the boy wants to know, not the 'memory' that Palinkron has chosen. That will bring us to the truth.

 This time it's not the magic of the id, nor the traps of Palinkron.

 It is the memory that I pulled from the deepest part of the world by my own power.
 You'll be able to get the memories that confirm the truth that has been fluttering around.

 And I know the reason why Yotaki is here--