Calm your mind.
　I close my vision and indulge in meditation.
　For the past two months, since Hitaki and Tiara disappeared.
　I've been - Fafner Helvilshain has been reevaluating and sorting through his past.

　I've been blessed from birth.
　By the time I can remember, the people around me had high expectations for me, and I knew early on that I was going to carry the future of the city on my shoulders.

　His parents were influential nobles of the Fania territory.
　At a time when half of the children born had some kind of disease, there was no physical abnormality whatsoever.
　I'm not proud of it, but I think they were also born with a mass of 'qualities' and could choose their future as much as they wanted. At the time, I thought to myself that the term "chosen one" suited me better than anyone else.

　Why did I become the agent of the 'one who steals the truth of blood'?
　How did I end up aspiring to be a 'theologian' in the first place, and how did I end up working as a 'senior official' on that day?

　Old memories have been snatched away.
　It's probably because I was summoned a thousand years later through an unfinished 'labyrinth'.
　Nevertheless, that remembrance was an absolutely necessary measure. You can't avoid being seen as the past, so you have to find your own "roots" first.

　--I'm not going to be able to say that I'm not going to be able to do anything about it.

　At first, it was just a matter of socializing with other powerful aristocrats.
　However, I soon began to actively go to the mansions on my own.

　The reason for this is simple: the books I wanted to read were only available in the Neisha family.
　I was intellectually curious and interested in all kinds of learning in proportion to my "qualities".
　I was less than ten years old when I started learning languages, literature, theology, philosophy, and aesthetics, and I was able to surpass the amount of knowledge of the adults at that time because I was able to freely enter and exit the Neisha family from an early age.

　I remember that road trip.
　Along with the house's attendants, I walked through the gates of the Neysha family compound every day.
　We were led down that long corridor to our private rooms.

　Along the way, they would pass important people from that era.
　Two childhood friends with matching short dark brown hair, always walking shoulder to shoulder.
　They were Lomis Neysha and Tida Langs, both around twenty years old.

　A few years later, they would become the Lords of Fania and the "Stealers of the Darkness," but they had no connection to me as a child.
　I guess I had only heard a beautiful story from the rumors in the wind that when Tida, a disposable member of a branch family, was in danger, Romis had done his best to save her. It's a good idea to have a best friend of the same age who is trustworthy and speaks well with you, I thought fluently at the time - these two were sent to investigate the "flame god" a year later, where they met the "apostles".

　Only one of their childhood friends is discovered and is changed into the Dark God.
　As a result, Romis is exposed to the 'curse' of fire and darkness, deprived of his memories of the mansion, made to not trust even his best friend, and forced to go through a very long and lonely path .......

　I don't feel sorry for you.
　I'm not going to be able to get a good idea of what I'm talking about.
　I'm going to have to say that I've always resented that action. No matter what Lomis's circumstances, they can't erase the fact that he was a bad guy. Lomis was a really, really bad guy. He was a villain who deserved to go to hell. Otherwise, the victimized "demons" wouldn't know where to turn for their resentment. I carried the souls of many 'demons' on my back, and I must never forgive that guy. ......

　--Chapter 14, Verse 1: 'There is no such thing as a pure end for anyone. But no one has an unholy end either.'

　That won't matter much.

　Right now, the representative of the 'House of Neisha' that is important to me is not Romis, but Helmina.
　The woman who would later become 'the one who steals the reason for blood', Helmina Neysha, was a truly beautiful person.

　From the moment I met her, she had a bad look in her eyes, a bad temperament, and a characteristic gesture.
　Still, I think she was attractive enough to spill the word "beautiful".
　My relatives and acquaintances laughed at me for having bad taste and for being deceitful, but my feelings never wavered until the end. That's one of the few things I'm proud of.

　If I had to describe Helmina Neisha in one word, it would be 'smart'.
　At the time, she was an apprentice doctor, running around the city studying medicine.
　And even more so, she spent her sleeping hours compiling the knowledge and experiences she learned after work into a book. Only in the disease of the prevalent "demonic poisoning" did the books she wrote go far beyond professional books, I think. In other words, she was more than a doctor, she was a 'researcher'.

　Truly, she was smart and brilliant. That's why it was always a mystery how Romis, who was disturbed by the 'curse', was able to survive when he tried to usurp the position of a lord.

　In order to become the lord himself, Romis pulled the power of the 'Flame God' sama to cause a great purge on the Neysha family, in order to become the lord himself. He betrayed his father and mother and sent them to their deaths, and exiled his excellent relatives without mercy.
　With the 'curse', I can't trust anyone but myself anymore. There are only fools in the Fania territory. This was supposed to be his new way of life, but ......, only the excellent Helmina-san survived.

　Even though she was a necessary person for the completion of the "Blood Power", it was a naive decision that was uncharacteristic of Romis.
　In fact, a few years later, Lomis lost his position as lord to Helmina.

　-- Now, a thousand years later, I can think about it calmly.

　I haven't gained any new information in this era, and there's no such thing as solid evidence.
　It's just that the story I saw on the stage a thousand years ago has been viewed slightly differently in a thousand years.

　All along in the story of Fania in Year 0 of the New Year, I thought the protagonist was Kanami and the villain was Romis Neisha.
　But the protagonist and the villain were not really the same.
　Perhaps, but the real mastermind behind the "Flame God" and the "Dark God" that led to their destruction was--

　--Deuteronomy 12:2 'Keep the time that is limited. Your sloth will harm everyone.'

　This, too, is not so important now, I suppose.

　It wasn't the battles and tragedies that laid the foundation of my life.
　It was even earlier than that.
　The knowledge that I learned from Helmina in my childhood is what made Fafner Helvirshine what it is today.

　As a child, I believed from the bottom of my heart that there was no one wiser than Helmina.
　That's why I followed her from place to place, learning her skills and knowledge.

　I can see now that my intentions were very correct.
　The Neisha family was the most noble family in Fania and had many books that had been passed down for generations. Furthermore, it was a rule that the few traveling merchants would always stop by the Neysha family and gather all the knowledge and skills from the outside. Helmina had a caring nature, and even just watching that apprentice doctor at work was all knowledge that was hard to gain in the ordinary way.

　-- but there was one part of that visitation that she couldn't follow behind.

　That's the back of the "Magisterial Research Institute".
　I was given a position as a "senior official" and was allowed access to various rooms. However, I couldn't go with them to the depths of the basement, where important experiments were being conducted.

　I wasn't happy about it.
　I had to wait until I was a little older, and not because I was treated like a child.
　It was because Helmina had a girl about my age with her as we headed deeper into the bowels of the institute.

　She was a girl with long, dark brownish hair that hung down and dull glowing eyes of the same color.
　There was no doubt that she was a 'low-level employee' or something like that from her simple white clothing.
　But looking at her as if she was following Helmina-san's assistant, I felt unequal. I've been told that she was only a janitor, but visibly, Ms. Helmina trusted the girl and seemed to be able to teach her various knowledge directly to her. I was trying to protest the fact that a girl my age was being patronized and I was trying to protest--.

"-But I am 'a candle in the abyss only.
What?　...... Huh?　No, I just want to hear the name.
So, 'in your nonsense and rudeness' mistake. Please, please do me a favor.
............

　I well remember not being able to talk to the cleaning girl at all.
　I had heard that it was not uncommon for such things to happen as the disease of the "demon poison" progressed. However, this was the first time I was actually faced with it, and as a young boy I was confused and could only tolerate the favoritism.

　However, that did not make me back off easily.
　Several times, I tried to communicate with that girl - but each time I met her, the symptoms got worse and worse, and eventually I couldn't even introduce myself.

　No, .......
　I think I had heard her name once, somewhere.
　But I can't remember the name ...... for some reason. This was a time when people basically didn't introduce themselves unless they were noblemen. I'm not impressed. Cheryl, as I recall?　No, Michelle, right?　I think there was a sheh attached to it somewhere. I thought of that She-something cleaner as an 'unfortunate' guy at the time, but I also thought of her as my first friend of my age.

　She was also the first person who made me face the disease of the "demon poison".
　To be honest, I had always been someone else's problem. I guess I was born into a wealthy family and a strong body. I was indifferent to the fact that it was none of my business, but after reflecting on the fact that it was the conceit of the haves - no, I thought I was reflecting on it while I was conceited, and I began to look at the 'unfortunate' people as well.

　And I know that the city of Fania is being preserved at the very last minute.
　It's not just the girl who can't speak the language, even the aristocratic-born Helmina needed help. After all, every day a patient showed up and made her promise to save him or her that she would save him someday, and she was forced to take care of his death over and over again.
　It was terribly painful, 'unhappy' and painful for the child to watch from the side .......

　Naturally, I began to wonder how I could help Helmina.
　I wanted to help her, so I learned about the profession of a 'theologian'.
　The word 'theologian' comes to mind with the word 'theologian' and the laboratory that Helmina has.

　Compared to a nobleman's mansion, it's not a pretty room.
　However, it was located in a place where both 'upper-level staff' and 'lower-level staff' could stay.
　In that shallow basement room, the cleaners cleaned and served themselves.
　Helmina was sitting at her desk, silently writing down the results of her research.
　I was in a corner with my back to the wall, reading a book.
　The three of us were always together, and we could spend our quiet time there.

　I found a book among the books that Helmina had scattered around the laboratory.
　That may have been my beginning and my "regrets" - now I think about it.

　When I was a young boy, I had a habit of mumbling to myself about the contents of books as I read them.
　This is the same habit of talking to myself, so my voice echoed in the quiet room.

''Heh, 'winged race' you say? Is this the God who really existed a thousand years ago?　You split the ocean with one fingertip ....... Also, just by stroking the soil, a fruit tree grows and cures all sicknesses with a divine light ......?　It's like 'magic' ......, hehe ......

　The book I found was the oldest religious book in Fania.
　It was The Scripture of the Inscription White Church.

　I was hooked on that book.
　But what attracted me as a young boy was not the depth of the teachings of the "Inscription White Church" or the beauty of its commandments, but simply the overwhelming power of the gods that appeared in the book.
　It was simply the overwhelming power of the "gods" that appeared in the book that tickled my fancy as a child.

　But it was an ideal first step in learning, and I soon began to look up the 'local indigenous gods' that were linked to the oldest 'Inscription White Teaching'. The more I read, the more new 'gods' came out, the more I couldn't stop rolling up the book.

The more I read, the more new 'gods' I found, the more I couldn't stop rolling up my hands.　There are these land gods sleeping in Fania. There's also "Fertility God" and "Sun God" and ...... and many more. But I think the first one is the winged race.　I'm definitely strong, I'm playing with the 'rules' of the world.

　I went through a lot of 'scriptures'.
　Fortunately, many of the books in Helmina's room were ideal for studying theology, as they were not Fannian.
　But I read along at a good clip - and in the middle of the book, there was one thing that stuck out to me.

'But if there are so many gods ....... Any one of them could be ...... for us. If you can do something about the dark clouds in this world--

　If only one pillar of God would come down and give that 'miracle' a great deal of credit.
　Just that much and everyone would be saved.
　All the cleaners and Helmina here.
　It's not just Fania, but all the people in the world who are suffering from the 'demon poison'...

　They listened to my soliloquy.
　The 'low-level staff' cleaner who stopped cleaning with a flash.
　Likewise, Helmina stopped writing with a flash.

　It was an adult, Helmina, who answered my soliloquy.
　She never makes fun of my childish talk about wanting to meet God, but instead faces me squarely.

God doesn't appear so easily," she said. God's role is to watch us get through our 'trials', so ...... is the first thing he says, right?　Let's see, I think it's chapter 1, verse 7: "Trials are the result of hope and good fortune, and they will surely leave you with proof that you have moved on to tomorrow. They always leave you with proof that you have moved on to tomorrow.
............ Oh, that's exactly what it says. That's the way it is, Helmina!　...... but do you just watch over them?　God,
'Yes. Doesn't it make you feel like you can do your best tomorrow if you think God is watching over you?

　That's the most important spirit in theology.
　Mr. Helmina told me that gently at the very beginning, but I, a young man, only pouted.

'No, sir. I don't think so at all. All I can think of is complaining about why you won't help me.
...... But if God helps you easily with 'magic', it will be hard the next time you're in trouble, won't it?　God may not help us every time. But if we go through 'trials' we can get through many hardships on our own.
It would be easier ...... and easier if God used 'magic' all the time without doing that (・・・・).
'That's right. That's right. ...... But I believe that by overcoming the 'trials', the 'magic' will not only belong to God one day, that's how I see it. It would be great if everyone could use the magic, wouldn't it?　You don't have to worry about anything else.
Oh, we use "magic"?　...... That's right, if you can really learn to use 'magic', that would be a great story. But it's totally unrealistic!　There's no such thing as 'magic' for ordinary people like us!

　I really wasn't cut out for 'the one who steals reason'.
　It was probably because of this kind of personality that I never once caught the eye of 'The Apostle'.

　And Helmina-san always patiently endured my rude and rude mannerisms and politely admonished me.

'It may not be possible in our generation. But if we work ...... a little bit harder in our next generation, and then the next, and the next, and then the next, one day ......, in a thousand years or so, we might really be able to use it, right?　If we keep working hard to overcome our trials, our descendants will be able to use magic and live a very happy and prosperous life. Isn't that very hopeful and very fortunate?

　That's what Helmina likes to do.
　She told me to do what I can do now, one step at a time, and I think she was doing a good job of relating the practical path to the conversation.

　But of course, I can't convince myself of that, and I continue to keep my mouth agape.

　.............
　Looking back, at this point, Helmina had already spoken of a thousand years.
　It was probably a time when she had decided that she couldn't reach it while she was alive and had begun to think about the 'Five Stage Thousand Year Plan' that would be completed after her 'death'.

　Originally, that plan was supposed to be much more realistic than hoping for God to appear.
　In truth, it was supposed to be the most correct thing for everyone to do a little bit of work.

'Yeah ......, in a thousand years?　It's too late then. It's not slow at all!　If you don't save 'our world' and not 'the world of our descendants', then it doesn't mean anything!　It's not a hundred years from now or a thousand years from now that we need saving, but now!　Now, we're here and we want you to save us!　So why is ......?　Why ......--

　I raised my voice. But I soon realized that I was being selfish, so I also suppressed it.

　Seeing this, Helmina didn't dismiss me as 'young' or 'stupid', but continued to be friendly and helpful.

'Really, I wonder why. ...... Like you now, "Why? There are many people who are struggling with the idea. For those people, most gods have a person called a delegate. Sometimes they bring down to earth a person who can represent the teachings on their behalf by means of a seance or possession. --Let me borrow a few of those books, please.

　It was in that consultation.
　An entity that will continue to haunt me from now until I die, and even after I die.

We call it 'The Great Savior (Magna Messiah)' in the Neisha family.

　Mr. Hermina gets up from his seat, approaches me, and without hesitation takes The Scripture of the Inscription White Church from a stack of books. She turns the pages as if she is reminiscing about a distant memory and shows me a line with the words "The Great Savior (Magna Messiah)" written on it.

　From the speed with which he finds the page, he must have read the Scripture of the Inscription White Church many times.
　Maybe he had memorized it all by heart.
　That's why I was able to easily deflect a verse in our conversation earlier.

'Ma, The Great Messiah (Magna Messiah) ......?　You're not an 'apostle' or a 'saint'. How strong is that person?　
I'm not talking about being strong or anything like that because I'm a person who goes around preaching God's teachings: ...... and I can get God's help and do all kinds of 'miracles' and help people.
'If you're not God, how can you do the same thing as God?　You can help us--?

　As soon as I heard that explanation, the young me said, "I see," and then, "That's him! And exciting.
　All of the gods in the book were majestic and substandard in appearance. Some of them were so precious that you would faint just by looking at them, others were bigger and hotter than the sun, and in many cases, they were in a pattern where they would become important just by descending.

　To be honest, they were all difficult to imagine.
　However, when it comes to agents, it's a different story.
　In fact, I was finally able to get a clear image of what I was going to be like.
　It was the image of the 'Great Savior (Magna Messiah)' who would suddenly appear in the land of Fania and cure everyone's sickness with his divine light...

But I think it's better to overcome the 'trials' than to wait for the 'Great Savior (Magna Messiah)'. By accumulating knowledge and experience and connecting our thoughts together, many people will be born who will be able to become the 'Great Saviour (Magna Messiah)' in a distant generation. ...... It's much nicer that way. Because isn't it kind of sad that we have to rely on just one awesome person ......?

　For some reason, Helmina was talking about The Great Savior (Magna Messiah) in a very uneasy way. Naturally, I was too young to share that impression of pity.

'Everyone's going to be the 'Great Messiah (Magna Messiah)', eh ....... To begin with, is this "Magna Messiah" something you can become by trying to become?　I feel like these things are just something you're born with.
You can be. Everyone will reach their aspirations one day if they keep working hard. ...... we have reached, ...... right?

　So Helmina spoke to the cleaner.
　The girl, who had been quiet all along, smiled softly and nodded slowly. I felt like there was a secret connection there that only the same s*x could make.
　I felt a little jealous and picked up the edges of the words in a wild way, trying to figure out what they meant.

'Have you ever gotten it?　Did you ever have someone as awesome as Helmina, but you admire them?
'Of course there are a lot of them. Like, for example, the person who wrote that book. And the author of that book, too: ......!

　As if to say that she's done a good job of listening, Helmina claps her hands and points to the books in this room one after another.

'And this book!　I have admired since I was a kid the people who have connected knowledge and experience to ...... our generation. They are all so awesome, and it's not easy to understand them, and they are very far away at first. ...... As I try to be like them, I'm trying to be like them, and then I start to understand them a little bit more. -- you start to feel like you're becoming (・・・・・).
'No, I don't doubt that you can be a scholar, Helmina. But it's a bit of a stretch for anyone to be (...) 'The Great Messiah (Magna Messiah)' (...)..." ......
'It might be ....... But as you imagine it and pretend it is, you get a little bit closer to the 'real thing'. That's what I want to believe. ...... And it doesn't even have to be our generation.

　Ms. Helmina passed on my rebuttal and said "we" again, laughing with the cleaner. I didn't understand what Helmina-san was saying, but the two of them communicated with each other eye to eye, even if they didn't have words.

　I could sense a kind of connection in their appearance that I didn't have.
　Also, I felt a little alienated.
　It was too much for the young me to sulk.

'I think I'd be quicker to find the Great Messiah (Magna Messiah) rather than trying to be steady, though. ...... because there are so many books on religion, you know?　So many different people believed in such a full God. Then it's not surprising that at least one savior would come out in this world of dark clouds. I'm sure he'll come out, I'm sure he'll come out--

　As a result of my sulking, I really was a child and hated steady scientific development in full support of The Great Messiah (Magna Messiah).

　It was a spur-of-the-moment thing to say, but I meant it.
　After all, the slow and steady path was never really suited to me.
　Just thinking about it a thousand years from now makes my head hurt.
　To be honest, I didn't care about my children's future, let alone the next one.

　What's important to me is the present.
　I'd like to take a look at Helmina, who is there right now ...... and, by the way, the janitor there.
　I'm going to have to say that the world we're living in right now is useless unless it's saved.

　I'm sure I'm not being weird that much.
　It's not the smiles of our descendants that I want to see, whether they are there or not, but the smiles of the two people who are there now.

　Maybe that's why I chose theology.
　I finished digging up those memories from the word 'theologian'.

　Looking back on it calmly, I don't think there was any particular reason for it.
　I was just drawn to the comfort of listening to theology and let it drift away.
　I'm sure that he wanted to help out in other fields because he could never keep up with Helmina's medical technology and research on 'demonic poisons'. To put it simply, it might be most correct to say that they lost out to the trends of the time.

　So much so that those dark days were really clogged up with a lot of things.
　So the only thing we could manage anymore was 'God' or 'miracles' or some other easy and straightforward path.

　Ah yes, .......
　If there was a reason, it was because it was easy: .......

　It was the most comfortable. I chose theology because it was all the rage at the time and it seemed like the easiest path to take. I was a little girl then, and I was definitely going to have it easy.

　-- even in hellish times and places, it would be a little easier.

　That's one of the powers of my chosen theology.
　It was probably what Helmina and the cleaners needed most - but I didn't realize it until I died, and I couldn't give it to anyone else.
　Because before I grew up and realized it, 'God' would really appear in front of me.

　The biggest bad luck - or is it luck?　Fortunately or unfortunately, one of the many religious books in Helmina-san's room happened to be the 'real thing'.
　The god of the inscription white religion, 'Noi El Lieberrul', sent out an 'Apostle' with a really light heart, and even summoned a 'Gentile' on the condition that he would save the world - and then he would wander over.

　Aikawa Kanami, the 'God of Light' who cures all sicknesses with the power of light, appears and I'm the one to guide the way.


Welcome. Is it a special case that you called me?


　The dark-haired, dark-eyed "Gentile" and the "Princess" from Hoosier's.
　I met the beings I've been waiting for and easily.

　But I'm going to be mistaken for someone else.
　The real 'Great Savior (Magna Messiah)' is not Kanami, but Tiara (・・・・). Rather, I didn't realize the fact that Kanami was a 'curse' for a long time until I was defeated by the 'Rustyala Hoosiers' who were happily laughing in a world a thousand years later.