445 441. Life in the mirror.txt






 Me and Helmina-san from the past.
 Immediately after I saw the two of them enter the Seventh Magical Research Institute, I heard the sound of the pages being rolled up again.

 Like looking through a kaleidoscope, my vision became blurred with a variety of light.
 It's exactly the same as in "Allied Nations" earlier.
 In this "Fania" as well, all kinds of timelines overlap and pass away at the same time in all kinds of places.

 The streets of Fania spread out before my eyes, and I could see the construction work to introduce the "Magical Stone Line" developed by Hermina-san - and then I saw the people of Fania celebrating its completion.
 A ceremony to transfer the bishop of Fania from the "Altfel religion" to the "Levantine religion" is being held throughout the city - and, on the other hand, in a humble ward, a priest is successfully performing a "level-up" spell.
 The city's vitality gradually increases as the trade route to Fuzzyaz is connected - and the city's marketplace is crowded with traveling merchants from distant lands.

 The history of my hometown flows like water, and it's hard to keep up with my eyes.
 But the common denominator is clear.
 At the edge of all the scenes, there was always the past me, my mouth relaxed.

 I hadn't been 'back home' in three years, and I looked like I was really enjoying myself.
 I dyed my hair black in disguise and followed my lord, Helmina-san, as his assistant to inspect the city.

 What was a happy miscalculation here was that the knowledge I accumulated while wandering the continent came in handy everywhere.
 For example, Helmina said in the forge, "If we adopt this new technology, we will surely get this much profit. It's already been proven many times," he said with a stern opinion typical of a former researcher, and I, his assistant, immediately used the historical failures of various places as evidence, saying, "Helmina-san. Not all places go according to the theory on the table," he interjects.

 After that, we all twisted our heads together to find a solution that worked both scientifically and practically.
 It was a good balance.
 Amazingly, it worked.

 --More importantly, it was my 'happiness'.

 Helmina-san and I, who shared the same gaze, worked together to put the knowledge and research we learned to good use for everyone. Without a doubt, it was a time that I had longed for since I was a child.

 It's not just about work.
 Sometimes I even enjoyed reading quietly in my nostalgic basement, reading books from other countries that I had acquired through abuse of authority. That cleaning girl was there, too, and the three of us from three years ago were all in the room. And they would use the results of their research and studies that the three of them had accumulated together in this new era.
 Whenever a large, vicious monster approached the city, I would secretly go out to deal with it. Even the power of that 'demonization' experiment didn't go to waste in this time.

 It was really fun.
 All of the hardships we've gone through to date have paid off, so it's only natural.

 If this fun isn't 'happiness', I don't know what is.
 I'm not going to be able to say that I'm not happy with the people I love, but there is nothing in this world that makes me happier than spending time with the people I love.

 --And, through the mirror of Kanami, the one who steals the reason for the dimension, I chew on the happiness of the past.

 I liked the religious complaints, but I naturally came to think that Helmina was my 'only destiny'.
 I want us both to continue doing this work together until I become a grandma and grandpa one day.
 I want to spend the rest of my life with her and go into the same grave.
 If possible, it would be nice to have the same family name then...

I was very fond of Helmina.
Yes. Helmina liked you, too. However, her idea of 'happiness' was a little different than yours. ...... Let's read some more of Ms. Helmina's side of the story.

 The book's reader added that to me as I accidentally spilled my feelings.

 -- "The One Who Steals the Reason of Dimension" Kanami rolls up the pages.

 Then, even though I hadn't moved an inch, my vision switched.
 From the "City" to the depths of the "Research Institute" underground. The stage is shifting as if it were falling through an insubstantial building into an abyss.

 Beyond that, the place where all of Fania's debts are buried is waiting for you.
 The lowest level of the Seventh Magician's Research Institute.

 --The 'Goddess Storage Room' in the fourth year of the new calendar.

 At that time, the room had still been thoroughly cleaned and there was no blood paste on the floor and walls.

 There, the cleaners with wooden brooms were quietly working to clean the room.
 Ms. Hermina dipped her hand into the pool of blood in the center and hummed a poorly executed humming sound.
 At first glance, it looks like madness, but it turns out to be 'writing' into a pool of blood using 'witchcraft', as I understand it. At any rate, the knowledge that was 'written' in the blood was to be deciphered by me later on.

You seem to be enjoying yourself, Helmina-sama. You're in a better mood than ever before.

 While moving the wooden broom, the cleaner threw in some normal small talk.
 I had noticed, but this girl doesn't talk like a madman when she and Helmina-san are alone. On the contrary, she had a deep enough intellect to be that Helmina-san's assistant.

''Yes, it's fun ....... Because there are so many things that happened that were unthinkable five years ago, and all of them were connected .......
'Yes. The current Fania is in a situation that would have been unthinkable five years ago. I didn't expect that besides the 'Flame God' and the 'Dark God', so many other gods would appear ....... On the contrary, even the Apostles of the Inscription White Church descended ....... Everything is unplanned, unimaginable, and supremely exciting.
Right?

 Really, we talk like normal people.
 We laugh at each other like old friends.
 It's like we're sisters.

 I can confirm that the janitor's crazy talk, as an example, was a survival strategy to survive in The Research Institute, because it's Helmina's story without me.
 But it also meant that I was a stranger to the girls, not a family member, which made me feel a little lonely.
 Their story continues as I am surrounded by a sense of desolation a thousand years later.

'...... Truly, the last five years have been full of life. And at last, the many studies of the Neysha family, which had been disparate, had become one great line of research, reaching into the depths. The results of that work--.
 The Apostle Diprakra praised us.
 He said that the descendants of the Neisha family are geniuses and that we need their 'blood power' to help us.
 Apostle Legacie-sama relied on us.
 He said that it would be impossible to create an artificial 'stealer of reason' without me.
 The Apostle Sith promised me that it would not be possible without me.
 Our lives will surely become the foundation for saving the world.
 The very first verse of the Inscription White Faith, chapter one, 'You are the one who is here'!
 Yes, you and I were meant to be! Haha, hahaha--!

 Helmina-san's cheeks flushed and chirped and chirped and chirped and churned pools of blood as she spoke.

 --She was the very image of a fanatic who was fascinated by the apostle.

 He knew that he could recite the Scripture.
 I also knew that the Inscription White Church was special to the Neisha family.
 But Helmina, a born-again scientist, had thought that her faith was limited to being in the last pew.

 But she was wrong.
 But she was wrong. Why was even the teachings of the Inscription White Faith packed into the blood pool in this 'God's Body Vault'? Even if Helmina herself, who was touching the pool of blood, did not intend to do so, she had been thinking too much while working on her 'writing' and every single verse of it had been engraved in her blood.

'Surely everything the Neysha family has done to date has been to deliver to those three apostles: ....... And now, finally, those who have sacrificed until today can sleep in peace ....... I can finish my role and go to the same hell as our great ancestors: ......

 Helmina's eyes are somewhat distant as she fondles the pool of blood.
 Out of the corner of her eye, she must be thinking of her predecessors in Fania's research.
 She smiles as if she is being pulled by the dead, and the cleaner calls out to her to stop her.

'I will miss you, Helmina-sama, when you are gone. When you're gone, I'll be all alone.'
No, sir. I don't miss a single thing. Because you have listened to me all these years, and now you are me. No, all of my research results to date have been me. In a thousand years' time, if magic is spread through the "5-step, 1,000-year plan" - that world is just me! I will be the cornerstone of saving the world, and everyone else will be me! Oh, isn't it really great: ......!
...... Right. If you think about it, you might not be lonely.

 That janitor looked so overwhelmed by the conversation that he had to nod his head.
 However, he never gave up on understanding the other party and continued to communicate with his own Lord.

'But wouldn't it be okay for me, too, if I were Helmina-sama, for me to be the 'one who steals the reason for the blood'? They should have kept me long enough to pretend I'm crazy (...) to keep me close for times like these.
'It can't be done. ...... 'Helmina Neysha going to hell' is the key to completing the man-made 'Stealing the Blood Reason'. The most important 'price' is for all of the Neysha family to go to hell and disappear as an eradication, which is the most important 'price'. ...... And simply, the sins that the Neysha family has committed are too many. I'm not going to allow myself to survive without a fight. I also have to take on my own experiments that I have done until today ...... and my voice will not stop (・・・・・・・).

 While muttering that gravely, Helmina-san moves her gaze.
 What lies ahead, me and Kanami, a thousand years later, also read and see.

 --I'm not going to be able to get a good look at it, but I'm going to be able to get a good look at it.

 It's a ghost that is invisible to the janitor, but visible to Helmina," said Helmina Neysha, who sees the dead who have been sacrificed beyond her bloody vision. She understands that she is a 'ghost' when she sees the dead who have sacrificed their lives in the past.

 Ms. Helmina could not only see them, but she could also hear them.
 She occasionally spoke to the writhing ghosts, nodding and communicating with them.

 Is it 'compensation'?
 Or is it a 'curse'?
 Either way, what was clear was--.

 All along, Helmina's world had been sinking in bright red blood and that it was hell itself.

 And I couldn't see it.
 So even though I was with the person I loved, I couldn't see the world with him.
 And with the story without me, I would finally know.

'Dear Helmina. There are many other families of researchers who are experimenting on human bodies. There is no need to feel so guilty, in my opinion.

 The cleaner chooses his words and tries to calm the Lord, whose eyes are wandering with the red of madness.
 However, Helmina makes a bowl with both hands, scooping up the blood and staring at the water's surface.

''Hmph--, your father, your grandfather, your great-grandfather, your great-great-grandfather, your great-great-great-grandfather, and even your ancestors all those years ago, the Neysha family were all very good and worst scientists...'' .... So many times when I was a kid I was threatened.

 The blood that was scooped up must have been written in the records of Fania's research, just like a professional book.
 To this day, the numbers of the 'demons' who were sacrificed in this Fania are accurate.
 Counting the killings and experiments, Helmina traced back her own family tree.

''If I stop researching, all the deaths of my ancestors etched in this blood will be in vain. Therefore, I have always been afraid of your father and mother's voice telling me that even if I go to hell, I must fulfill the role of the Neisha family. But now I understand. It wasn't a threat, it was a kindness. -- these voices of the departed that cling to my ears only stop at being the same victims (・・・・・・・・) (・・・・・・・・・・). All along, people have been telling me that going to hell is the only salvation for a researcher born into the Neisha family!
'............. Is the voice that has been tormenting Lady Helmina all these years finally going to disappear?
'Yes. Being a cornerstone of research saves me. And that was the 'happiness' of a researcher born into the Naysha family.

 The cleaners, who have known each other for a long time, will know that their own Lord is not lying to them.
 From his fanaticism towards the apostles earlier, we can also see that he cares more about his contribution to the world than his own life. However, that doesn't mean he can't take it so easily.

 Seeing the bewildered cleaners, sanity returns to Helmina-san's eyes slightly.

...... Of course, I hope that you will find 'happiness' as well. If possible, I want you to enjoy your life to the end as the other me.
'Me too ......? Until the end, enjoy and live: ......
'Maybe it's because it's the last. It's a bit out of character, isn't it? I've even told you the history of the house, like Mr. Fafner.
'Fafner ....... Do you not tell that Fafner anything? He still doesn't know you're going to die.

 As if he had thought of something, the cleaner mentioned my name.
 However, Helmina's answer was not lost on me when she heard it.

''Yes, I've told her, right? Everything that matters.
'What? Ah, ah, ......

 The cleaners' confusion grows. But he manages to chew out the Lord's words well and understands that he is no longer concerned with his own life and death.

'I have properly finished telling Mr. Fafner the basics of the Neysha family's research. Without a doubt, he will be the best scholar in the world and a gem of a man who will go down in Fania's history. It's a shame, but he's already surpassed me as both a researcher and a politician. I guess that's what they call 'innate differences'. If you know the basics, the rest will go as far ahead on its own. That's why I was able to make up my mind to experiment with the 'theft of reason'.
...... Surely he will stop if he finds out that you are going to experiment with your own body to become 'the one who steals reason'. If you're not good at it, he likes you enough to go after you after it.
'Chasing me? How can you do that when he's already ahead of me?

 The conversation is not engaging.
 No matter what the topic, Helmina keeps answering in a research-centric manner, so the conversation keeps shifting.
 Compromising that this is no longer an option, the cleaner asks.

'You don't like him, do you?'
'I love it.' -- because his return marked the end of my role. It was a real thrill to see my once beloved apprentice return as an adult. Because it's a ghost mix, a ghost mix! 'Soul Fiends' that are rarer than the higher level Fiends! The culmination of tens of thousands of 'demons' sacrificed, thousands of 'demons' failing to conform, and finally the culmination of the Neysha family being born alone! And now he's back, with a body of knowledge that surpasses even mine! When you told me that I would be the hope for all 'demons', I was convinced! The Neisha family didn't just connect to Lady Tiara and the Apostles! That I was connected to so many people, even when I couldn't see them!

 Helmina isn't lying, and she's using the same language we are.
 But she can't converse well, and the cleaners' reactions are slowly slowing down.
 All the while, Helmina-san continues to report happily to the ghosts of the Neisha family.

'Ah, ancestors ....... Truly, Fafner, you are wonderful. If only he were here, there is no doubt that the world doesn't need me anymore. Unlike us who are weak, he's strong, he can even be the cornerstone to save the world. I am deeply, deeply grateful for the fate of someone as smart, resilient, and 'strong' as he is, who has become a long-lived species. ......
'Dear Helmina, he will follow you. Even if that path is not the right one (・・・・・・・・), because I like it (・・・・・), I will follow it.
...... Huh? It doesn't fit, but ......, why?

 Helmina-san was wondering from the bottom of her heart.
 Looking into her eyes, the cleaner couldn't find her next words in the middle - the only door in the 'Goddess Storage Room' is opened roughly.
 A man appears from there and throws out an alternative word.

'It's no use continuing to talk. That's what a vessel with a crack in it is.
...... ro, Mr. Lomis?

 A short, dark brown man with short dark brown hair, dressed in the white robes of the Research Institute.
 Romis Neysha, once a lord, interrupted his hiding to show his appearance to Helmina Neysha.

 The appearance of Romis, a man of a cautious and cautious nature, means that the time has come.
 This scene (page) is "-- Romis, who could not give up the power of the 'miracle', returns to Fania. In order to become a lord once again, he takes his relative Helmina into his hands," and my face, reading a story from a thousand years ago, gets twisted.

 And in the lowest level of the "God's Body Vault", I can hear the earth shaking.
 It's not the screams of the experimental bodies.
 All over the top of the floor, there were many diverse disturbances occurring at the same time.

 An event as large as the 'First Change of Lords Incident' three years ago was about to happen here now. The noise must have reached Helmina-san's ears, but she welcomed the appearance of her family as if nothing had happened.

'Welcome home, Lady Romis. ...... It looks like you've shaken off that betraying 'curse' on your own. Now you can rest easy about the rest. If Romis-sama and Fafner-kun both take advantage of me, who has become the 'one who steals the truth of blood', Fania will be safe in the future.

 Romis's sudden appearance did not surprise Helmina at all.
 Rather, the cleaner, who knew he was hiding out beforehand, widened her eyes in astonishment.

''Heh, Helmina-sama? Did you know in the past that Master Romis was hiding in this Seventh Magical Research Institute?
For a while? No, I didn't know that, did I? But I had faith that he would come back. I promised Romis-sama that I would take care of Fania's absence. I thought the time would come when I would hand everything over to a true lord who had overcome the 'curse'.

 Helmina's day job is as a researcher, and that's what we knew originally.
 Everyone looked at her and smiled bitterly, saying that she was not really happy with the current situation and wanted to devote herself to research.

 That's true. However, no one could see through to the heat of the moment.
 The only person who was able to break through the pretense (...) that was masking his insane preoccupation was ......, perhaps that saintly tiara.

 Then, looking at his successor and predecessor, Lord Hermina Neisha, Romis announced his plans with a frown.

''I'm ready for a change of lordship. It's because I was made to prepare for it just as you "Stealers of Reason" wanted. Thanks to ......, we're in a less than perfect situation.
'Thank you, Lord Romis. This is your second usurpation of a lord, isn't it?

 Helmina almost laughs and tries to remind him of the first time he usurped the lord.
 Romis says, "Five years ago, I met the Apostles when I was sent to investigate the 'Fire God', and there, my only childhood friend was turned into the Dark God. There, he is reminded of the scene where his only 'childhood friend' is turned into the Dark God," he says, and he is slightly hostile.

You're just like Tida. I'm not going to be the same as you, I'm going to be the same as you, I'm going to be the same as you. ...... shameful.
That wooden idol will build up and one day become a way to reach heaven. ...... Dear Romis, I'll be waiting for you in hell first.

 Helmina's theatrical reply was clearly laced with the teachings of the Inscription White Church.
 Romis turned bitter, giving up quickly when he couldn't get through to her and switching his conversation partner.

''Right now, my handful of things are moving up there. The change of lords will be quick with the help of the 'North'. However, the problem is the artificial 'blood-stealing thing' transformation. The only materials used here are impurities, unlike the "thing that steals the logic of light" which is made from scratch. ...... You can help yourself, too, and you're a failure.

 It was the cleaner who had talked to her, I didn't expect her to be the one who had talked to him.

 She stiffened at the order.
 It's not that she can't communicate due to language problems. Right now, there are only people here from the Neysha family who know how to pretend they are crazy (...), so they can speak freely without using the 'madman's manual'.

 However, when it comes to assisting the suicide of the Lord who has been with her for many years, even if it's her, she can't answer immediately.
 But relentlessly, Romis tries to make up her mind.

'...... It's urgent, I know. But the time has come. With the return of Fafner Helvilleshain to his 'home', the study of the Neysha family is over. If the noblemen who are connected to the 'North' push me up to become their lord, Helmina will definitely be beheaded. Before that, I need to finish it off in a way that everyone can agree on. ...... You know what I mean by everyone, right? This is exactly how this guy wanted it to end in the first place, and that's what he's wanted for years.

 The cleaners understand this because they have been together for many years.
 In the first place, it was Helmina Neysha who brought Tida and Romis to the "Apostle" five years ago with the hope of researching the "Flame God" in the region.
 Three years ago, it was also Helmina Neesha who brought Tida, who had been transformed into the Dark God, to the city of Fania because the Flame God's research had stagnated.
 It's not just that I'm not a fan of the newcomers, I'm also a fan of the newcomers.

 --Everything about Fania to this day began with her wish.

 I want to be a 'real' researcher.
 The voices of the dead are hard to hear, so she wants to fall into the hell that awaits her family as soon as possible.

 For her wish, everyone and everything was swept away.
 All of them, including Romis, who is here now, and the janitor, were used.

 In the face of that truth, the cleaners had no choice but to make up their minds.
 She didn't want to let Helmina-san escape, hide her, or save her now.
 The only way out, protection, and salvation is to make her a 'blood stealer' anymore, the only way out, protection, and salvation.

'Yes ....... If that's what makes you 'happy', Helmina-sama.

 Satisfied, the cleaner nodded.
 Romis nodded back, and preparations for the change of lordship were immediately underway.

 All the while, Helmina-san continued to dip her hands in the pool of blood. There she saw things she couldn't see, heard voices she couldn't hear, and talked to people she hadn't even spoken to.

 --After this, Helmina Neisha's heart is removed.

 The suicidal person himself was cooperative, and coupled with Romis' coolness, the procedure was completed without delay.
 And thus, unbeknownst to me, it was all over.

 When I found out that there was a lot of noise about Helmina-san's experiments against humanity and corruption in the streets of Fania, I was surrounded by 'blood puppets' holding torches. Because I believed the nobles who had been in the know with the 'North', I was easily captured.

 However, at first I was solicited to say that Master Lomis, who had reclaimed Fania from the evil lord, was paying a high price for my excellence. But I was so enraged that I refused to listen at all.
 As a result, I ended up in that room with the tendons of my hands and feet cut and everything taken from me.

 In the 'God's Body Storage Room', which had been smeared with blood in one night, I reunited with the transformed Helmina-san--

"....my fluid, my rodents, my pleasure.
'Ahhhh, ......, ahhhh, ahhhh, ahhhh--'

 Tainted by despair, I break down in tears.
 I wail in wailing, not knowing that this is what Helmina herself wanted.

 I can no longer trust anyone, and I begin to see only 'my world'.
 Just like Helmina-san, I reach out to the pool of blood.

"Helmina-san ......, also ......, please ....... Please .......
"I'm going to ■■■■ flesh and blood, and I'm going to count it.

 I had always believed it to be a moan for salvation.
 But the truth was different.

 Helmina-san was trying to tell me that she was 'happy'.
 She wanted me to use the sacrifice of this "blood thief" as a foundation and use it to move forward.

 And yet, I became an agent, even though I didn't want or fit in with anyone else (・・・・・・・・・).
 I even start pretending (...) to be "the one who steals the reason for blood" because I want to know how Helmina-san felt when she died without speaking.

 I made the most 'unfortunate' choice for Helmina-san.

 I know that outcome better than anyone else.
 Now, I feel it more keenly than anyone else, so--

It's all right, Kanami-san.

 A thousand years later, I admitted, watching the back of that stupid past me.
 And then I would mutter my thoughts on the story.

''The 'unfinished business' is, I understand ....... And that me and Helmina-san's 'happiness' was out of sync, properly .......

 -- "The One Who Steals the Reason of Dimension" Kanami's hands stop rolling up the pages.

 With a snap.
 At the same time, the world, which had been reflecting the past, also stopped.
 The air in the "Shintai Vault" has stopped, and the echoing voices have also stopped.
 The flow of blood, the flow of time, and everything else in the past world stopped.

 If you wish, Kanami, the one who steals the reason for the dimension, will respond to it to the fullest extent.
 I will never do anything I don't want to, and I will never force you to do anything I don't want to.
 But in that stopped world--

Welcome home.

 The voice of a third party, not Kanami or me, came from behind me.

 I turned around.
 There, I saw the cleaner from the past standing still, watching over me from the past.

 Only, there was another one next to him.
 One 'blood doll' was watching over me from a thousand years later.

 A terrifying figure that looked as if it had been stripped of all of its skin.
 At first glance, it's hard to tell the difference between it and the other "blood dolls".
 But I could tell.

 We were friends who were trapped in the same hell and had the same longing.
 That's why I understood that the "blood doll" was that scavenger.