The Emperor rarely laughs.
　People who know the Emperor will tilt their heads when I say that.

　Your father would probably tilt his head, and so would Sir Auguste. Maybe Patriarch Lucarius is aware of this. ......

　Perhaps only I or ...... His Majesty's mother are aware of this.

　His Majesty rarely laughs.
　She is neither angry nor sad.

　So what is that smile of His Majesty's?
　You might wonder.

　Well, it is true that His Majesty is often in a good mood, smiling and laughing.
　I can easily picture it, too.
　That's how often he smiles.

　But ......
　That's just a smile.

　His Majesty's heart is not wavering in any way.
　It's just a mask called a "smile," and in reality, it's no different from a blank expression.

　His Majesty's facial expressions, words and actions often do not match his emotions.
　For example, His Majesty was once angry with the mercenary captain Darios - General Darios.

　That's when he told the general to become his subordinate.
　His Majesty was certainly scared at that time.

　But ...... you weren't actually angry or in a bad mood at that time in any way.
　On the contrary, at that time, he was much happier to have a good subordinate.

　That's the way His Majesty is.
　He never divulges his emotions and expresses very different emotions in order to deceive those around him.

　More ......
　I have known him for a long time.
　I've known him for a long time, so I can tell if he has a fake expression or a real one.

　For example, ...... looks in a good mood when he is eating a delicious meal.
　If I tell you that I love you ...... when we are skin to skin, you will still look happy.
　When I ate a poisoned melon, ...... he was angry, though his expression did not show it.

　But I can't help it if I'm told that even that was an act.

　But I still love you, and I do love you.
　Even if it was an "act" that made you happy when I said "I love you," ......
　I'm not going to say that I don't love you.

　And even if you don't like me, even if you don't like me, I love you and I will continue to love you.

　But ...... perhaps I am an odd one.

　As I mentioned earlier, His Majesty's mother is probably aware of this.

　That's why she's not happy with you. ......
　She seems to think you are creepy and afraid of her.

　But at the same time, like Hadrian IV, he is conscious of the fact that he gave birth to the child with pain in his belly.
　Occasionally, there is a hint of guilt.
　It's not my place to say (write?) this, as I have never had a child. It's a bit embarrassing for me to say (write?) this, but I think she may want to make peace with me.

　But that doesn't mean I'm going to appeal to His Majesty to improve the relationship.
　That is a matter between His Majesty and His Majesty's mother, not a matter that I should interfere with.

　More importantly, His Majesty does not want to improve relations.
　Her mother is probably not important to her.

　I'm sure that she is only aware of the fact that I borrowed her womb for a while. ......

　And I don't think it's a good idea to feel this way about her. ......　
　It seems to me that His Majesty is looking to me and my mother for the love that he did not get from your mother.

　If that's the case, I've benefited from it.



　Speaking of affection, Your Majesty was definitely not a virgin.
　She was obviously very good at it.
　I was a virgin. ...... Isn't that a little unfair?

　But the question is, where did you lose your virginity?　I've always been with you.
　I was always with him, but I never saw him with another woman. ...... Eunuchs and servants said they didn't know.

　The eunuchs and maidservants say that I'm the first time His Majesty has ever been with a woman.
　...... Is it true?

　However, they have no reason to lie to you.
　The disadvantages of lying to me, the future empress, are great, so you should be able to trust ...... me.

　Incidentally, His Majesty seems to be keen on a servant named Ciphany these days.
　We were laying skin to skin in the backyard of the palace.

　Why would she do that there of all places?　I feel a mixture of dismay and a little jealousy.
　Even though I was prepared for it, it doesn't feel good to know that the person you love is also in love with another woman.

　But even though it's ...... impossible for me to take care of His Majesty by myself.
　I've only been with Her Majesty, but I can tell you that she's extraordinary in many ways.

　Besides, the system of side chambers is actually for the protection of women.
　If monogamy had been used ...... and I had been unable to bear children, I would have been condemned and might have had to get a divorce.
　For emperors and empresses, s*xual intercourse is not only an act of love, but also a highly political act of succession.

　But with polygamy, ...... worst case scenario, someone else can carry the baby.
　The responsibility for me is distributed.

　But, well, ...... the system was instituted by our forefathers, aka the bald debtors, the seducers, so protecting women is probably a consequence.

　I'm sure the whole "protecting women" thing is just a consequence. ...... Are you sure you have the blood of our fathers in your veins?
　If so, will he go bald?　Hmmm ......


　I'm not sure what to make of this.
　His Majesty trusts your father, and I'm sure he needs you.



　Also, ......
　His Majesty thinks about things more than we think.

　Even seemingly meaningless actions have hidden meanings somewhere in them.


　Perhaps the purge is a prelude to ...... some kind of major political undertaking.

　In fact, His Majesty has been sending letters to some people lately.
　It seems that His Majesty is going to go out and have a meeting with someone himself soon.

　The only people that the King would go to in person would be King Fars or High Priestess Medium. ......
　How am I supposed to know what His Majesty is thinking?





　Well ......
　Recently, I've been wondering about one thing.
　Didn't you really want to be an emperor? That is.

　He said he was going on a trip. ......
　Would a person who is thinking of going on a trip really leave a bone ash porcelain to be made?
　The coffee was also very well prepared.

　You have more self-esteem, vanity, ambition, and possessiveness than most people.
　You want to go on a trip?

　Of course not.

　I believed it at the time, but ...... in hindsight, it's just too unnatural.

　A person who does not want to engage in politics or war would not be so scheming and so eager to invade enemy territory.

　His Majesty had intended to ascend to the throne from the beginning.

　Then why did he run away?
　The answer is simple.

　He was probably trying to test us.
　How much do I ......, your father, Sir Auguste, Patriarch Lucarius, His Highness Titus, Lord Edmund, and the other bureaucrats, eunuchs, and the people want you to ascend to the throne?

　If you think about it, Hadrian IV is a very dangerous political opponent for a twelve year old.
　He must have thought that it would be dangerous ...... if any of his potential advisors were willing to take Hadrian IV's place.

　After that, he would periodically say he wanted to quit, or ask Titus if he wanted to be emperor.　He was not just playing around, he must have been watching him.

　If His Highness Titus had shown even the slightest ambition for the throne, he would have been sentenced to death the next day. ......
　If my father, Sir Christos, or Sir Lucanos were to make any move to ignore His Majesty and arrange politics on their own because His Majesty was 'unwilling' to do so, ...... whether it be my fiancé's father, my uncle, or my mentor, I would have them moved to the left or He would have been ...... sentenced to death.

　His Majesty is ...... capable of doing that.


　Now, ......
　I don't want to write this if I can help it. ......


　If I'm right, His Majesty would definitely do such a thing, so I'll write it down.



　Your Majesty.
　Snooping in a lady's diary is indeed bad manners.
　It's naughty.

　I'll show you my underwear any time.


































　...... You gave me a fright!　Carolina's got a bad temper, too. ......
　No, Master. I'm sure you don't want me to tell you that. And Carolina.