53 51. dream






No need.

The other person's face became weak as he said these stubborn words.

It's my son's fault, I should be the one to pay. I'm really sorry.

"No, the insurance will cover it. Please look up at ......!

Unable to bear the sight of my father's adamant refusal to accept the money, my lawyer intervened and persuaded him to accept the money in order to put his mind at rest. My father and the other party reluctantly agreed to receive the money, and finally proceeded to negotiate the amount.
I just watched the scene.
After the arrangements were made, my family saw the other party and the lawyer off.

"Stupid son of a .......

My father muttered in an angry voice at the door after the other party left. My father's shoulders, arms, and fists were shaking in anger, and his back looked very painful. There was nowhere else to vent his anger.
At that time, my mother, who usually warned me against saying too much, was silent, so I couldn't say anything either. I was left with the feeling that there was no need to be so angry.
I'll never forget my father's angry back.
I wonder if that's why I'm having this dream now.

I lifted my eyelids. The sun was just beginning to rise and the light was shining through the window.
Still dreaming, I stared at my palms, unconcerned that I had woken up earlier than usual.

I wonder if I would have understood my father better if I had this power then. ......

I wonder if he was really just angry at me. Wasn't he just sad, like me and Mom? My father was stubborn, and I never got to ask him about his true intentions. Even if I had, he probably wouldn't have told me.
The family I saw in my dream is from a previous life. I am now Philine Erna von Rosenhain, the third princess of Arbentroth. I am a princess in a world of magic.
Grasping my hands tightly, I get out of bed and stand in front of the mirror. Her reflection is a girl with long, golden hair, jewel-blue eyes, and skin as white as the sun. She is a far cry from her previous life, when she used to scream when she got a pimple. When I gently laid my hands on myself in the mirror, I thought I saw the image of a Japanese girl named Yuka Tanaka for a moment.
Whether it was my imagination or my own light magic, I didn't care which.

Family is the hardest thing to understand.

I smiled bitterly at myself from my previous life. Although the scale of the problem is different, what I am troubled about in my past life and now is my family. My family is the closest thing to me, the person I feel I understand the most, and the person I understand the least.
My appearance has changed a lot, but I have not changed much, I thought to myself.


That day, I had breakfast with my mother and brother Roy.

"Phil, what's wrong?

What's wrong?

You look a little pale.

Both mother and brother Roy looked at me with concern. I checked when I was getting ready that I didn't have any dark circles, but it was amazing that they could tell. I felt a sense of relief at their kindness, but also a sense of apology for worrying them.

"Well, ......, I woke up at a weird time, and I'm just a little sleep deprived.

"Did you have a bad dream?

It's not surprising that he was worried, since every time he had a scary dream, he cried out to his brother Roy. I don't have such dreams anymore, so I guess I've grown up a bit.

"I just had a lonely ...... dream.

"A lonely ......?

Yes. Oh, but I'm okay now. I have my mother and brother Roy!

It wasn't a big deal, but I wanted to dispel the gloomy atmosphere, so I made a fist and said it forcefully. Then your mother clears her throat in a funny way.

Phil is really healthy. But if you ever get lonely, I'll always lend you my heart.

I'll hold you until you're no longer lonely, your mother says with a loving smile.

I'll hold Phil's hand for as long as it takes for him to sleep peacefully.

Then even Brother Roy will tell you how to spoil me. I can't help but peel myself away from both of them.

"You're both treating me too much like a child.

I know that I'm not an adult, but I wonder if I should be so spoiled at the age of nine. He has been able to sleep by himself for several years now. It's natural for him to feel frustrated at being treated so young.

Phil's always been cute.

Yes, he is. He'll always be my little boy.

I puffed up my cheeks more and more, because Roy and his mother had assured me of course. I can say with certainty that I am no match for the two of you. This is definitely something that will continue to spoil me.
Mom smiles at my unconvinced look.

That's all you need to know.

"Why?

Because Mr. Traugott is not very good at spoiling children.

Not very good, is he?

Your mother mentioned your father's name and Brother Roy nodded his head. I couldn't help but frown at the mention of my father. I only remember biting the King's father. Not physically, of course, but verbally.


Because I have two attributes, light and wind, and strong magic power, I'm said to be quite valuable to the country. Originally, I was royalty and a princess, but now I have so much added value that even letting me out of the castle is a threat. That's why it was difficult to get permission to go out, and I can't tell you how many times I went to my father to ask for permission.
And I always fail miserably because he always opposes me with convincing arguments.
I've been able to have meals with the whole family after persistent efforts, but I've always lost in terms of permission to go out. In the past, when I followed Brother Roy on his inspection tour of the city without permission, my father gave me a scathing lecture. That was really scary.
Thanks to their support, I was able to accompany Brother Roy when he went to see his fiancée's sister, and to accompany Mother to the tea party she was invited to.
Because of this situation, my father is a difficult person for me to deal with. I can sympathize with Brother Klaus, the second prince, more than Brother Roy and the others in this area, and we complain about it together.
However, I can't nod my head in agreement with the theory that mothers are justified in indulging me to the point of offsetting father's harshness.

I don't know what Father is thinking.

"Oh, Mr. Traugott is just a worrier. It's his daughter he cares about.

Oh, yes.

I can understand your concern, though.

I couldn't believe my mother's words, and I nodded my head in agreement with Brother Roy.

"Phil might get sick in a crowded place.

Brother Roy's point to the core made me shut up. I knew he was referring to my magic. I knew he was referring to my magic, the troubling quality that had first manifested itself.

It's all right, .......

The memory of being kept away from others and avoiding others from myself when I was barely able to remember came back to me. The crying and frightened me of that time is gone. I can even control my magic.

I understand.

The mothers tilted their heads, wondering what I understood.

So your father is treating me like a child, too!

They all treat me as if I'm younger than my age. This fact is frustrating. I'm doing my best to acquire the necessary education for royalty, and I'm sure I'll grow into a woman in a little while. Well, I don't have as much hope of growing up as you do.
When I made up my mind to protest to my father, my mothers looked at each other and laughed.


My frustration did not subside until nighttime, when the eyes of the white teddy bear lit up and I vented my frustration on the other side.

"Listen to me, Isak!

"What, out of the blue?

I got an annoyed reply from the bear phone. That was enough to diminish the cuteness of the teddy bear I had made for him. He had yellow and green odd eyes, pure white fur, and a rose-colored hooded cape.
Sometimes I wonder if I made a mistake by adding a cell phone function to my favorite stuffed animal.

"You're all treating me like a child!

"No, you're a kid.

What are you talking about? I was flabbergasted by the lack of agreement.

"I'm a lady now! I'm not a debutante yet, but I'm a lady.

"Oh, yes, yes.

The only response to my assertions was a curt "aizuchi". The person on the other end of the phone is really rude.
I've been working hard on my manners and my dance training, and I've been receiving uncomplimentary praise at tea ceremonies. I think it's about time I was treated like a lady.
After a certain amount of complaining, I try to somehow make them understand that I am a lady.

"Next time I go to your sister's place, I'll show you how great I am.

"No, I have work to do.

I have work to do. Oh, you can practice dancing with your sisters. Then you can summon Isak since you're short one.

"Yeah.

I thought of an excuse to show them the fruits of my labor. But the voice on the other end of the bear phone sounded really uncomfortable. I know that you can dance well enough to be able to dance with your sister, having been her understudy for a while.

I'm sure you'll be happy to hear that.

I don't want to dance with Isak.

Yes, I agree with the reason why Isak does not want to dance with you. Brother Roy and sister are engaged to be married, so of course they will be paired. Then, inevitably, my practice partner would be Isak, who was just a number.
The image of dancing with my brother from my previous life gives me chills just thinking about it.
Isak was my older brother, Taichi Tanaka, in my previous life.
Since we both had memories of our previous lives, we realized rather quickly that we had met again. The only thing I don't understand is that I don't know who Isak is.
This world is the world of Dein einziger Sternchen, an otome game I played in my previous life. I noticed it right away because I, my brothers, and my sister all appeared in the game. That's why it was puzzling to me that my brother from my previous life was reincarnated as someone who didn't appear in the game, not even as a mobster.
But it didn't seem to matter to Isak whether this was the game world or not. Maybe that's why I don't care so much about it anymore. I've met other characters from the game, but it's inevitable that I'll meet them because of our positions.
It's not that I've completely stopped worrying about what might happen if things turn out the way they do in the game. But as far as the older brothers are concerned, most of the underlying issues have already been resolved, so it's hard to say what will happen in the future. I'm not good at thinking about difficult things, so I've decided to wait until something actually happens before I think about it.


For now, the question on my mind is who to dance with.

I'll dance with Brother Roy, you dance with Sister Isak.

"Is that a good idea?

"I'm an unmarried princess, so if you say no men outside my family, ......

"So you want to show off?

"Because you treat even Isak like a child.

I've been asked why I'm so obsessed with dancing in the first place, and I get angry. I'm not just a spoiled child either. I'm going to work hard and become a woman that my brothers can rely on.
When everyone is so kind and indulgent to me, I feel depressed that I'm not a reliable person.
If I don't get at least one person to acknowledge my efforts, I'll lose my confidence. So I thought that Isak, who usually forgets to treat me like a princess, might take a second look at my dancing.

"You know what, Erna?

On the other end of the bear phone, a voice that sounded like it had no choice but to sigh spilled out. It may be a stupid thing for Isak to say, but it's important for me.

I called you a kid because I'm a kid too.

"Yeah, .......

"How can you be more mature than me when I'm older than you and I'm a kid?

If you bring up the subject of age, all I can say is that yes, I am. It's true that I'm now nine years old and Isak is about to turn twelve, but both of us are children.

I'm not sure if it's a good idea, but I'm sure it's a good idea.

"My sister?

I'm not sure if it's a good thing or not. You'll be able to find a lot more than just a few of them. I'm not sure if you've ever heard of her or not.

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'Sister .......'

I was so happy that she had seen something that I hadn't noticed, and all I could do was call her sister. I was so moved that I involuntarily folded my hands in front of my chest in a prayerful pose.
I could tell that Isak was also appreciative of my work. It's true that in my previous life, I was only interested in the parts of history related to my favorite characters in anime and games, so my scores varied greatly depending on the era. Now that I'm learning about the history of the royal family, I'm trying my best to think that my love for Brother Roy is being tested.

"Don't be too hasty.

"Don't talk as if you understand.

I'm not sure what to do, but I'm not sure what to do.

You can't tell. I don't know, I just figured since I sometimes get impatient too.

I turned to the bear phone in surprise as I revealed something uncool to him. In a previous life, you never said such a weak thing to me, your sister. Even when I pointed it out to her, she was absolutely stubborn.
I think this is what has changed.
I tighten my lips once. It's not because he's changed, but I felt it would be strange if he didn't talk, so I made up my mind and opened my mouth.

"............, you know...

"What?

There's something I haven't told you.

It's the first time I've said anything to a stranger from that point on. Even though it was Isak, I wasn't sure how he would react, and my heart thumped, making me more nervous.
I took a deep, slow, deep breath.

I can hear what people are thinking.

Before the other person's response, I fearfully added an explanation.

"You see, my aptitude is for light and wind, right? It seems that the neurons and synapses are like light signals, and the wind attribute converts them into sound, so it's like I can hear what I think on the surface of my mind as a voice. I can control it, so I don't listen to it without permission.

Perhaps it was because of the strength of my magic, but I seem to have developed magic within a few months of my birth. I was a baby who cried a lot because I could hear the voices of people within about ten meters. It was before I could remember, so I only remember that I could hear a lot of sounds and that it was annoying.
Around the time I started to remember, people around me gradually started to feel uncomfortable and kept me away. I was also afraid of people and cried sometimes.
Brother Roy was the first one to notice my ability.
Brother Roy, who has the light attribute, also noticed it because he could see people's emotions in their auras, although he could not hear them as voices. According to Brother Roy, light magic is the power to heal people, so he must be able to feel their pain.
Most of the servants avoided me, except for Mother, Brother Roy, and Therese, the maidservant, whose words and thoughts were the same as mine. My father, for some reason, had a hard time hearing my heart, so he was fine with it.
I was afraid of the second queen because her feelings were disgusting. But as I grew older, I became more afraid of people whose thoughts and feelings differed from those on the surface, and on the contrary, I became less afraid of the Second Queen because she was not a contrarian.
My father made sure that my power was kept secret from the rest of the world because it was too dangerous to be used. That's why almost no one has known about it since Brother Roy helped me to control my ability. I only told Brother Klaus. He was a little embarrassed to let me know what he was thinking.
There was enough silence to allow me to reminisce in circles. The fact that there was no response was rather frightening.

"Did you use ......?

"Hmm, I don't think I'd enjoy using it.

"Is that all ...... is?

"Is that all there is to ?" "It looks inconvenient," is the only response, which is disappointing. I wish I could have my time back when I was nervous that people would be offended by my ability, which has always made me feel uncomfortable. But isn't that too light a response?

But isn't that too light of a response? "I mean, why would I be turned off by that?

"Because, because.

"You came into my room without permission, you were relaxing in my room before I left. There's no need for privacy now.



"Because it's tidier than my room, so it's easier for me to lie around.

"Clean up your room.

"You cleaned up your room, sometimes!

I'm aware of the fact that I took advantage of the fact that Taichi's room was sliding doors, and I was rather intrusive. After reading a long series of comics in one sitting, it was hard for me to settle down in my room, so I would barge in without permission. One of the reasons for this was that the shared LCD for console games was in Taichi's room.

But ......, I see, it's too late now.

I was relieved to see Isak's only response was, "So what? I'm not related to him anymore, but it's pretty hard to be treated like a monster by your family. I'm really glad they didn't think I was creepy.

If anything, I'm more attracted to your bracky nature.

Why? It's not the world's reason that Brother Roy is so cool!

I'm not sure what to do, but I'm sure you can do it. I'm sure you'll be able to find something that works for you.

Do you mind? He's been a legitimate hero since he was on your planet and he's cool, but now he's upgraded. He has overcome his own two attributes of darkness, and he has a cute smile that is appropriate for his age, and he is the best! I'm not sure what to make of it, but I'm sure it will be better than the game.

"Why are you so sure?

"Because I asked you not to grow your hair long!

The one thing I've always regretted is the length of Roy's hair. I prefer short hair to long hair, so I thought it would definitely look better if it was short. When I asked, Roy-sama agreed, so I can see him without a tail even when he grows up. This would be the most visually appealing of all.
When I said this, I heard a shocked voice on the other end of the bear phone.

'What, it's important.

"No, it doesn't matter.

I don't understand why you can't see the value of Brother Roy.
After that, no matter how much I tried, I couldn't make Isak understand how wonderful Brother Roy was, and the night went on.
Before I fell asleep, I thought to myself in the evening song, "This is the last time.

Dad, you're still stupid and rude, but you're a little better now.

No more lonely dreams.