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Why? Why? Why?

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Get me out of here!

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Who do you think you are?

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　Why am I being treated like this? I am special. I raised my voice over and over again from that thought. I am special, I am loved by the world, and someone will help me soon. I thought so.

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　And yet, here I was, sitting on the cold ground. I had never been in a place like this before. I could have anything I wanted. I was the first to be given good things by everyone. I was born a commoner, but everyone said I was special, that I was a princess.

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　They told me that because I was special, it was only natural for everyone to be kind to me.

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　---And yet, everyone looked at me coldly. No matter how hungry I was, all they would give me was leftovers.

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　I am special. --No, maybe I am not special.

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　I deserve to be loved. ---No, maybe I don't deserve to be loved?

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　I became anxious as possibilities that I had never thought about before began to pop up. The things I had taken for granted might not be "natural"---that thought made me afraid. Because I was afraid, I did not want to believe what I had thought, so I spoke up. As if to myself, I said, "I am a godchild! And.

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　But the more I raised my voice, the more they looked at me coldly, as if they had never looked at me before.

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　I was afraid of those eyes. There had never been such coldness in the eyes directed at me before. I was special, and it was normal for everyone to be kind to me. But...that norm is about to be overturned.

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　Why am I being treated like this?

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　---I wonder if I am going to end up here for the rest of my life.

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　My body trembles.

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　I haven't been allowed to change my clothes for a long time, so the mysterious clothes that were given to me as a "god child" are completely stained.

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　I had always thought that I was different from other human beings. I was the only one, the only me, and the others were just like everyone else, or it was natural for them to serve me. Because that's what they all said!　But no matter how much I ranted and raved because I didn't want to admit it, I was now in the same position as the others who thought I was the others---no, I was taken, and I was in a lower position than that when I thought I might die like this. I don't want to believe it, but maybe it means I've become one.

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I'm no different. ......"

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　No, I realized that I was just like the rest of the people I thought were just like the rest of the people in the world.

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　At that moment, I suddenly felt a rush of energy. I stopped ranting.

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　I sat down and thought about myself.

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　I was special, so I thought I could say whatever I wanted.

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　---But I am not special.

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　No one else around me was allowed to behave the way I did. I was tolerated when others were not. I was never offended by anyone. People around me were angry. If I didn't like it, the people who were trying to force me to do what I didn't like were gone from around me. To me, that was natural. I thought I was allowed to do it because I was special.

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　But I was not as special as I thought I was.

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　I realized that. It wasn't until I was in a situation where I might die from being perceived this way that I realized that I had always been affirmed.

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　All my life, I had lived under affirmation. Everything I did was affirmed.

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　But for the first time, I am being denied. No, if I think about it, it is not the first time. I feel that the people who denied me were somehow managed by the people who affirmed me. ---Now, there is no one here who affirms me. There is no one who can deal with those who deny me.

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I was blessed."

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　I realized for the first time that the environment I took for granted was a blessing. I had led a life where being affirmed was the norm. But I didn't realize how shocking it would be to be denied. ---I was reminded, for the first time, of something that had always been denied to me in the village where I was born and raised.

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　My parents had never let me near that thing. My friends around me didn't want me to have any contact with her. So I didn't know her well. I had almost zero contact with her. But I do know that he lived in my parents' house with me, and that he was always in denial. I don't know his name. I may have heard it from my parents, but I can't remember. I think my parents often referred to me as "that one" or "that girl.

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　I wondered where he had gone when I realized he was gone. I wondered where she had gone.

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　I wondered about the people who had disappeared from my side because I didn't like them. I am thinking about things I have never thought about before.

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　---I could only keep thinking like that, as I was being held captive.

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　A few days later, I was released from captivity.

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　---- sister-awareness.

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　(Perhaps, the sister of the girl who is a godchild finally becomes aware. (What will happen to her once she becomes aware?)

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