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"......"

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"......"

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　We didn't speak to each other for a while. I didn't know how to break the ice. Gaius made a gesture as if he was thinking about something. We were sitting side by side on the ground, and Frenet was just watching over us, out of sight of Gaius.

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Gaius, you know.

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Lelunda, you know."

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　And then they open their mouths at the same time. And for a moment, we both freeze.

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I tell him, "...... Gaius, okay."

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　Gaius opened his mouth.

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'I ...... can't split it, you know. I can't get over the knights of the Kingdom of Migga.

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...... yeah."

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'The prince who saved the people of Nilsi's village was the reason my father died and the reason we had to flee. I'm not sure how I can forgive him now, even if he wasn't my enemy.

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Yes."

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　Gaius doesn't look at me. The most important thing to remember is that you can't just take a look at the world around you. I feel sad when Gaius is in pain. I love Gaius and I always want him not to suffer. But I think that suffering like this is a sign that he is alive.

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　When I was in the village where I was born and raised, I didn't feel any of the pain that Gaius feels. I was just breathing. That's why I feel that way even more.

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I'm sad that my father is gone. I can't understand why he had to die the way he did. I can't understand why he had to die the way he did. I can still manage to make peace with the other humans. The knight of the Migga Kingdom is the one who killed my father. I think about it, and I wonder why my father is dead.

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　Sad and bitter, Gaius says.

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　The other humans can still be divided. But the knights of the Kingdom of Migga can't. "In my head, I know," Gaius said.

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My head knows it," Gaius says, "but my heart doesn't. But my heart still doesn't understand. Now they saved the slaves and brought the beasts here, so you could say they are our allies. But still, I can't break it off. I have such a dark feeling that I want to kill him.

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　Because Mr. Athos was killed. Gaius can no longer be just gentle. The first time I met Gaius, he was a boy who didn't have any feelings of wanting to kill anyone.

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He said, "...... such and such, I shouldn't want to kill him. Lelunda wouldn't like me saying this, would she?"

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　Gaius finally turned to me.

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　His brown eyes were shaking with anxiety.

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　I reached out to touch his cheek. Then I looked him straight in the eye.

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Gaius, no."

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　I opened my mouth, a little worried.

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'...... I don't know about hate, or wanting to kill. But I don't think it's wrong."

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　I don't know about feelings of hate or wanting to kill. I don't have those feelings. But - just because I don't feel them, I didn't want to deny them.

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I think it's okay to want to kill. But to actually do it, I don't know. I think it's okay to want to kill, to hate, and to hold on to those feelings inside of you. I can't say that the thought of killing doesn't scare me. But I don't think I have to lose it, or that I shouldn't feel that way.

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　I am only eleven years old, so I don't know what the right thing to say is. No, I don't think there is a right answer for this kind of thing. I don't know what kind of answer is right for the recipient. I want to understand Gaius, but in the end I think it is difficult to understand everything.

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　So, I don't know if it is the right answer, but I will say what I think.

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I don't know if it's the right thing to do, but I'm going to say what I'm thinking. But it's painful to hold on to too much. I want you to let it all out. I think it's better to speak it out than to hold it in your heart for a long time, a lot.

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　I touched Gaius' cheeks with both hands and told him while staring at him. Gaius remains surprised at my words.

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He looks surprised at my words, but I tell him, "Just let it all out. I can listen. I don't know if you hate me or not, but I don't want Gaius to be in pain. I'll listen to you as much as I can. So don't hold on to the pain."

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　I don't know if my heart would feel lighter if I just let it out. But I thought it might make me feel a little better, so I said it.

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　I don't know about hatred, but I don't want Gaius to suffer. I want to ease Gaius' mind as much as possible.

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'Thank you for ......, Lelunda.

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Yes."

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"...... let go of me for a minute. I'm embarrassed when you stare at me.

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Yeah.

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Can I ask you something?　I know it's a lot to process.

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Yeah. Tell me everything.

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　When I said this, Gaius opened his mouth.

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　--The girl and the boy's conflict 2

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　(The god-girl talks with the beastman boy. The godchild does not deny the feeling of wanting to kill.)

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