383-Unworthiness




 Strong enough to pull back the battlefield by myself. I wanted to be a seeker like my mother.


Are you okay?
Ruse.


 Amira, who had been lying on the ground after training with Garum and Amy to the limit of her physical strength in a mock battle, or rather a killing contest, and was lying on the ground, paid off the hand extended to her by Hanna. She then stood up alone with the great sword as support and faced Garum and Amy, who had been restored by Corina.

 After being slain by a blazing old dragon at the Hundredth Level and repatriated to the guild, Amira was awkwardly informed by Amy and the others who had been watching the God's Table that Tsutomu might have abandoned the battle and fled.

 Amy, who is very knowledgeable about the God's Eye, could see that the image on the table had been arbitrarily manipulated, and Garum had also noticed that the expression on the table had changed slightly, as well as the feeling of discomfort that existed before Tsutomu's challenge to the 100th level. And since the two of them were also able to sense his feelings from the less than positive behavior of Tsutomu before he ran away, they eventually came to that conclusion.

 However, the words of Amy and the others were hard to believe, as Amira was informed by Daryl that Tsutomu was dead. But when I saw the photo and illustration in the morning edition of the newspaper the next day, I knew it was true.


(Why?! Why the hell did you run off without me? You're telling me I'm lower than Diniel? (I'm not that much of a, f*ck, f*ck, f*ck!


 To Amira, Tsutomu was now beyond respect and had become an object of admiration just like her mother. The major event that led to this recognition was the rebuilding of the PT by reviving four people alone, which he had charmed at the 90th level.

 Even in that desperate situation where Diniel had abandoned the game, Tsutomu was the only one who didn't give up. I'm sure you'll be pleased to know that I'm not the only one who's been able to do this. The sight of Tsutomu, who usually hides his true intentions, rebuilding the PT with a serious expression on his face was like a thunderbolt to my head, and my whole body went numb.

 I'm not going to be able to get the best out of it. And I strongly wanted to form a PT with Tsutomu like that, and the desire to be as active as he and his mother was bubbling up from the bottom of my heart.

 That's why Amira has been working even harder to become the same as him. As a result of this, even though it was a selection that was not very pleasing to me, I was able to form a PT with Tsutomu. I've been working hard to make sure that I'll be able to play an active role like Tsutomu at the 90th level, and I've been reassured that I'll be able to rely on him.

 The respect for Tsutomu, who would go beyond his own success. I had the expectation that he would support me and I would be able to rise to a higher level.

 However, Tsutomu betrays such expectations and reassurances, and abandons them and retreats to the old castle with a wind of cowardice. The fact that this was the case made Amira angry, but she was silenced by Diniel's argument. Her expectations of Tsutomu had become life-size, and she was supposed to support him as a PT member.

 But even that has been dashed by Tsutomu. Amira no longer knew what had happened, but she was certain that Tsutomu had returned from the Hundredth Level without dying. That too, with the possibility of victory left intact.

 Before he was about to change his perceptions after hearing the voices of those around him, although his expectations had been greatly disappointed, the event once again betrayed his expectations. Amira couldn't understand the emotions caused by that.

 The only thing that is certain is that the emotions were so great that they made her want to lash out at any moment, so she asked Garum and Amy for a mock battle, which she repeated for half a day. And just now, when he was so exhausted that he couldn't even do a mock battle, Garum, who was facing him, threw in a few words.


'Are you done with it?'
I don't know.
Your body won't be moving. You might as well get some rest.


 Garum, who had been accompanying Amira in the mock battle in case she turned undead, said that and took off his own equipment and began the inspection process. Then Korina came running in worriedly and started using her recovery skills.


''Have you calmed down a bit? Utterly, I can't believe you'd be so reckless outside the dungeon.
Tsk.
I can't fix you if you're going to stick your tongue out.
I don't mind if you do.
'How can you say that after being so injured? If this were Mr. Tutom, you'd really be left out and sick, wouldn't you?


 It's a good idea to be able to have a good time with them. Then she taps Corina's thigh with a powerless fist.


''........what the hell is that guy? I still don't know what that means. So does that mean that Tsutomu could have won by himself?
'I can't say anything about that without asking him. Even Garum and the others didn't seem to be able to understand what he said at the time.


 When Tsutomu returned from the Hundredth Level, his eyes were empty like a drug addict's, and he was rattling off a list of words that didn't make any sense. From the context of the words, he knew to some extent that he was explaining what he had done at the Hundredth Level, but even Amy and the others who had known him the longest didn't understand even half of what he was saying. Therefore, it was almost incomprehensible to Amira and Corina.


''I........''
"...What? Hey, are you crying?
Shut up and don't cry.
'No, well I'm fine. Anyway, let's just recover and get back to the Clan House! So let's ask Mr. Tsutomu a lot of questions!


 Amira didn't know why she was crying here. She couldn't think about anything else in her head, which had already been shaken off due to her emotions being too excited.

 And Corrina, who was flustered by the fact that Amira had started crying, quickly finished recovering and put her on her back and tried not to show her face to the people around her.


''Well can you go home first and check on Tsutomu as well?''
I get it!


 Corina, who answered Garum's witty words as best she could, quickly left the scene.