73-72 ◇ The reality is tough, the dream is far




 


 On the way home from the day I met with Leme, my brother said he would give me a chance to listen to him after his sticky little talk.
 I remembered Rame said that he seemed to be worried about me.

 That's when I misunderstood.
 I thought that my brother might be able to help me.
 There was no way in hell he was going to do that.

 The next night. The next night, that is, before I went to see Reme.
 I was in my brother's room. My brother's room.
 Everyone was there except me.

"Oh....everyone else is here too.

It's all about everyone, isn't it?

 My brother could see what was bothering me. Well, it's not like I've been hiding it from him.

  If intelligence that leads to the results you want is called wise, then your brother is definitely wise. You can put a cunning on his head, but he's certainly smart.

 Leila, the [Thief], Marc, the [Clear White Knight], and Luli, the [Wizard] and fairy.
 And my brother and me.

'I know you're in trouble. Tell me about it.

 I was a fool for expecting even a little bit of my brother, I was stupid.
 Reme-san.........................It's true that he's not a bad person, but his character is still bad.
 Everyone's eyes are focused on me. It's hard to say it, but I don't want to be silent here.

'As you know Leila and her brother, I originally...I like to fight in a different way. And this is, as we all know, my true personality is like this.

 After leaving the nurturing agency, Boku and Leila had formed a party with three different people.
 But after the first year, the party didn't become popular at all, and the three of us moved on to other parties.

 Then my brother, who had broken up the party at the same time, appeared in front of us with Luli, the only one left.
 I knew that it wasn't enough to be strong. We both knew that being strong wasn't enough.

 I wanted to do things the way I wanted to do them, but my brother convinced me to do them.
 He told me, "You can do what you want after you become popular. First, I had to get the public to recognize me.

 As a result, the fivesome of "The Silver Prince", "The Bandit Princess", "The Prince's Protective Brother", "The Prince's Protective Knight" and "The Fairy who likes the Prince's Brother and acts with him" became popular.
 My content is the same, but just by changing the way I'm presented, my reputation has changed dramatically.

As my brother said. My brother told me that I should do whatever I wanted to do after I became popular. We made it into the top 100. I guess you could call it a popularity party.

So? What's the point of changing characters at this point? Not a wise choice.

 I knew he would say it. So I kept quiet. I was silent and distressed.

'Aren't we all supposed to want other people to like us? Why would you want to throw it away when you've got an attractive mask? It would be a lot easier to live with compared to the airy times when no one would recognize you.

 Luli, on her brother's shoulder, says curiously.

 -- It may be easy to live, but it's hard to breathe.

 I want to be recognized, to be liked, to be respected. I don't think those motivations are impure, and I think it's okay for some people to have that as their goal.
 It's just that some of us aim to be who we want to be, not who we want to be.

'Hmm, I'm on Nicola's side, but......... I know the old days, after all.

 Leila, once she's experienced the frustration of not being able to sell, probably doesn't want to go back to that period. I know that feeling.

 She is stable now. No, it's not stable for the better. I can see that her popularity is increasing rapidly. The number of views on their videos is increasing and their popularity has gone up. Being in the top 100 is a big deal.

 For example, magazines that feature adventurers often feature at least the top 100 adventurers.
 If they didn't have the opportunity to be seen, they wouldn't even be able to make their abilities known.

I will abide by everyone's decision.

 Marc is neutral.

 Because 【Pleasant Knight】 has an unpopular magic called White Magic and is inferior to 【Holy Knight】 in terms of endurance [position(job)], its popularity inevitably falls a rank.
 Many people would think that it would be better to put in a [Holy Knight] honestly.

 So he seems to be grateful to Philip for picking him up. But he still doesn't clearly take his brother's side, is it something he thinks, or is it his personality?

'I'm considering changing the way I market it, too. But not now. The audience is just starting to follow you as a prince character.

"...when is it, then? No, you don't have to tell me. 'When you're old enough to sell it as a prince character,' right? Late twenties? I'll have to wear the mask of a prince for another ten years, won't I? Your brother is going to make you do it.

No. You have the final say. But the flower of the party is the brave one. In this party especially, it's you. What do you think the guests would think if the brave man who was selling them with the beauty of a rose suddenly turned into a wild flower one day? How many of them do you think would love you the same way? And it's not just you who has to take the consequences, it's all of us.

 Yes, that's why I was hoarding it inside. I couldn't tell you.
 I was brave enough to come to you when you said you would listen to me.
 I've called this man to give up on me and to control me from now on.

Oh, I don't, I don't if it's in Nicola's best interest.

 Leila is on my side, but it's for my friend, not because I want it to be.

'Don't spoil it, Leila. 'Nico, you haven't given up your childlike innocence. This is a job, it's a business. We're the product. You know it's all about the way you sell it, you know that. What do you love about being a brave man who never gives up and fights back in the mud against all odds? That kind of thing isn't in vogue anymore. It's not with the times. What's popular now is smart, cool strategies. Isn't that what the number one young, popular fenix party is all about?

 Until recently, Fenix had been taking out floor bosses in a single blow. His consistent style had earned him a great deal of popularity.

'What ended up happening to that lemme you admire so much? I would have been kicked out. Quietly going about your business? Are you hot-eyed at all times? That's ridiculous. You ended up getting banned for being unpopular. It doesn't matter how hard you try, it doesn't matter how hard you try. How eye-catching it is, how many people you can capture. That's what's important.

Don't take him for a fool.

That man? You talk about it like I know you. Anyway. It's time to grow up. You won't make any money if you're the kind of brave person you want to be.

 Those words made me very sad, somehow.
 I realized that an inexplicable gap had been created between my brother and myself.

"Money ... I didn't become an adventurer because I wanted money ...

But I couldn't live without money. You chose this as your job. It's working. Don't be childishly selfish.

Hey, stupid Phil! You're exaggerating--

 I can't stop the buzzing, buzzing overflow.

''Don't ... don't cry,''

I'm done.

 I ran out of the room.
 I didn't want to have to go back to my room since we have the same lodging. I don't want to get caught up.

 My brother is good at finding me.
 Where you can never find me.

 The first thing that popped into my head was Leme's inn.