I was born from one half of Shalovanar, the God of Creation and one half of White.
　I am White and not White, but there is something I have always wanted since the day I was born.
　It's nothing special, it's just something very simple, and I knew I would get it right away.

　When I met Ayn, Liliwood, Magnawell, Isis, Megiddo, and Chartier, I knew I was getting it. I was so happy I was so happy... but I felt like it wasn't what I was really looking for somehow.
　Maybe I'm asking for too much, maybe I need to compromise... but the little thorn in my side is getting bigger and bigger.

　I've been living in this world for a long time, and I really love it.
　I love the life in this world, the scenery it presents to me, the way it grows and changes over time, and I can't help but love it.

　When did it start?　In the demon world, we started being called the Sixth King without really realizing it, and before I knew it, people started calling me the Dark Lord.
　........and I couldn't help it, I hated it.
　It was as if they were telling me that I was a superior being, and every time they called me that, I felt a little pain in my chest.

　And then I realized....what I really wanted....

　I loved the world. I never thought of myself as lesser, as an equal, and I always thought I was.
　But I'm not equal to anyone. I've never had anyone standing next to me.

　I have a family to love but they treat me like I'm on top of the world.
　I have a baby bird but she's the one who will bow down to me in the end.

　Why?　Why?　I just want someone to be next to me and I don't want you to have the same power as me, just don't look at me like I'm better than you, just laugh with me next to me and that's all I want. And yet....
　

　.........White is.......not. White is Boku, and I'm White, so I couldn't see him as that kind of partner.
　The first person to notice such a small problem was Chartier.

''........Black-san, I can vaguely imagine your troubles.
Chartier would.....
'I'm sorry I'm sure that's not possible. I can't be what you want me to be.
How do you....

　Chartier was a strange child. She was from another world, and despite her mature spirit, she was a bit of a mess who couldn't handle her power properly, and I taught her a lot about how to use her power and we became a family.

''........probably because I have a decent amount of power. Once I recognized you as a clear superior in my mind I don't think I can compete with you.
But I'm not going to...
Even if you think so, the perception that you are lower in rank than Black-san will not go away in my mind... that's right, you can make up as much as you want on the surface, right?　But if you do that it will probably hurt you even more than you already are.
....

　The words pierced my heart so coldly.
　Chartier didn't mean to say that. I know that she meant it out of concern for me, but it's not as if there's no one who can truly treat you as an equal.
　It's not as if there's no one who can treat you as an equal without regard to your powerful power... I felt like I was being told that.

　But still........it's okay, isn't it?　I have a great family and I've always been very happy.
　But you don't have to want more than this to make it all worthwhile. But if you're happy with the present you'll be able to...















　After a long, really long time, there are more children around me than ever before.
　My dear family, my baby bird, that should be enough for me, but I still can't stop wishing.
　Whenever I see a baby bird that looks like my old self, I can't help but think "this time" in the back of my mind.
　I thought that if I raise a baby bird that looks like my old self, it will stand beside me... but that never happened.

　I was supposed to be happy while more and more of my darlings were around me, but for some reason I suddenly felt a cold, painful sensation, as if no one could be near me.
　The more beloved children I had, the more I tried to be happy, the colder and colder it got, freezing my heart out.

　And now there was a baby bird standing in front of me, spreading its dark wings.
　I've seen the look of sadness on her face that I've seen on mine from time to time, and I've misinterpreted it...

'Master Krom, you are the one who should be on top of the world!　Not the gods of the god world, but you!
"....Fear..." ...I'm...
'The one who should truly be on top of the world, not Shallow Vernal, is you!　I will, I am sure we will make you the champion of the world!
No I don't want that I don't want that!
Huh?

　The words were the farthest thing from what I could have hoped for.
　The champion of the world?　I knew I couldn't really get what I wanted if I became such a thing.
　So what's the point?　It's a good idea to have a good idea of what you're looking for when you're ready to buy.


'I'm sorry, Fea but you can't. You don't want to bother the other kids....do you?　You don't have to do that....
"...but I'm not going to let your disability, your disability be the cause of your expression of disgust. .....
'I'm sorry, but it's really nothing... it's not something Fear would care about...'

　I still regret that moment.
　If I had been honest and told her what I wanted, and told her that this is not what I wanted, she wouldn't have called herself the Demon King and invaded the human world.

　After the Fea incident, I've decided to give up on my wish.
　If I kept my face in a gloomy mood, some of the kids might misunderstand it, just like Fea. I was forced to keep laughing, even if it meant forcing myself to do so.

　Yes, I love this world....and I'm not going to pretend to like it.
　

　That's what I thought........that I had given up......that I was ready to accept it.











　 (laughs)
　The kids who played the heroic heroes but I like the otherworldly characters because they don't know me and that's why I'm here.

　When I approached them and hid my true identity, they spoke to me in a way that made me feel like an equal in my heart.
　I was so happy in that moment... but once they got used to the world and saw who I was and what I could do... then they would see what I could do. We all fell to our knees together.
　It was impossibly painful when that happened because the time before was happy.

　The happy times and the painful thoughts... as I repeated them over and over again, my wish had grown to the point where I couldn't control it.
　I want to talk longer with the otherworldly kids, to hear more equal words from them... but the kids who play the heroes are so busy that they can only talk a little while hiding their identities.

　In the end, the thought that I hadn't given up even a little bit of my life pushed me to do.......that.
　I tweaked the magic circle for summoning heroes so that more than one otherworldly person could be summoned... I thought that if I did that, I could talk for longer with everyone except the kid who played the hero....

　 I thought I would throw away my unbeatable wish once and for all.......I put the wish that remained in the depths of my heart into my magic and let the summoning magic circle run amok.

　And then I met... you.

　I'm sure it's not because of any particular desire to do so at first. It was really a gift to you that I wanted to raise you.
　But you were an unusual child.
　Until now, every time I've played the heroic role, whenever I've shown you my power, you've been scared of me, little by little, really little.

　But you've always been the same, and you've always welcomed me with the same attitude.
　And you've easily surpassed my expectations.
　Because until now, the only people I've ever been interested in were Chartier and Hikari.

　I thought that if you'd won White's interest, if you weren't afraid to confront him, then maybe you might be able to tell him who you are.
　I pretended to be fine with it, but I was actually scared shitless.

　I was afraid that if you found out who I was, you'd leave me, and we'd lose our happy, joyful days together.
　When I went to Lilia-chan's house, my heart was torn up until you spoke to me. My body shuddered at the thought of you speaking to me in a respectful manner, saying something that would make me apologize for my previous rudeness.

'Black was the Dark Lord...'

　I was so happy to hear such a slightly dumbfounded voice that I almost cried.
　Even though you knew who I was you still spoke to me as an equal. I was so happy, I couldn't stop myself from being happy.
　I mean, you're the only one who's ever done that. No one has ever...

I don't know, something doesn't seem to fit the bill.

　When I first met you, there wasn't a single girl who would talk to me like that.

　After that, I became more aware of you, and I began to enjoy talking to you more than ever, and seeing you smile made me happy.

　I fell in love with you... for the first time in my life.

　But as my feelings for you grew, a heavy weight was placed on my heart.
　When the Festival of the Brave is over you will return to your world and disappear from my sight.

　I know!　I also heard that you have important people back in the world you have an aunt and uncle who took care of you.
　If you care about you you must let go of these feelings. You have to go back to your world so..........

　Over the years, I've gotten so used to lying to myself that I'm afraid of it.
　The truth is, I was just afraid of letting my feelings for you grow and once I let them come out, I could never go back.
　I was afraid that I would be unable to live without you anymore, and that I would be unable to live without you.

　I wish I could have walked away from you when I realized that, but I was too happy to spend time with you, so I couldn't even do that.
　And with every step you took, you were definitely getting closer to me.

　When you held out the golden fruit to me, my heart trembled greatly.
　I was so happy, so happy, so happy... but once I took it, I was just...

　That's why I rejected you.
　I rejected you with all my might, with all my heart and with all my mind I can't get away from you, so I'm going to ask you to get away from me.
　Of course I didn't really want to kill you, nor did I want to hurt you.
　I had a firm grasp on your sensory magic, so little by little, little by little, I let the fear linger in your mind as I increased my desire to kill you.

　But ... but ... but ... you ...

Black ... thank you ... for ... ever.

　And yet, you haven't let me go and you haven't let me out of your sight.
　And I've been beaten for the first time in my life.
　You're the one I've been searching for all these years... and you're the one I've been looking for.









　I thank Kite again for listening to me for so long.
　Since it's late, Kaito-kun starts getting ready for bed, and I pretend to go home and hide.

　After Kaito-kun goes to bed, I come back to his room and slip into the futon where he sleeps.
　I close my eyes as I snuggle up and feel the warmth of Kite's body with my whole body.

　Feeling happy and comfortable warmth... I bury my face in my beloved Kaito-kun's chest, feeling the happiness that envelops my whole body.

　I love you, Kite........I love you so much.

　I'm not going to ask you what you're going to do after the Festival of the Brave, because I'm not going to ask you what you're going to do after the Festival of the Brave. I'm not going to ask you what you're going to do after the heroic festival, because either way, it doesn't matter anymore.
　I'm glad you're here, but if we go back to where we came from I'm going to go with you.
　And if I have to leave the world I've loved so much, I'll still walk beside you.