347-That he was once a devil






 In the church at night, in the eerie silence of the church, me and Dr. Feer face each other.
 And after a few moments of silence, Dr. Fea slowly opens his mouth.

''........Miyama-kun. You've been wondering about this ever since you saw me and Hikari at lunch today, haven't you? I don't know why these people are so upset...
...did you notice that?
Yeah. Miyama-kun is the type of person who can't lie. It's easy to see that it shows on your face, so it's really easy to tell.
....

 Why is that? Maybe it's because I was told something similar before........I felt Black's smile overlap with Fea-sensei's face, which had a gentle, bitter smile on it, for a moment.
 I had felt that sensation vaguely before. It felt strangely easy to talk to him, but that was probably because...............................because Dr. Fea was like Kuro.

 It's not so much his figure as the atmosphere he wears. Maybe that's why I couldn't help but agree with the word "sin" that Fea-sensei was talking about.

I'm sure you'll find it difficult to hide it after seeing Miyama-kun's reaction to it...no, I thought it would be hard to keep it hidden. I thought it would be hard to continue to deceive Miyama-kun.
...What?
"I haven't been able to say this for a long time, but........thank you, Miyama-kun.
So, I guess........Dr. Fear is Black's family.......?

 The words of thanks that were announced. I had thought that maybe since Noin-san showed up............................I knew that Fea-sensei was like Black's family.
 But then, why did he hide it from me? Did he just not answer because I didn't ask?

...my 'ex' family.
"Ex?
"I haven't seen Master Krom for over a thousand years. And I have no right to call myself Master Krom's family.
What do you... what do you... what do you mean?

 With a pained expression on his face, Dr. Fear tells me that he's Black's former family member.
 When I heard those words, I remembered what Black had said to me when he told me about his past.
 He said that he hurt his family members because he didn't honestly speak up about his wishes. As for the name of that family member, he hadn't told them clearly.......but is that Dr. Fear?

"...Yeah. Well let's.........let's introduce ourselves again.
...Yeah?

Well... what?

 I didn't understand what Dr. Fea was saying. No, I know what the words mean. But that didn't enter my mind at all.
 Is the Demon King, that Demon King? A thousand years ago, he led a large army to invade the human world and was overthrown by the first hero, Noin-san..................and that Demon King's true identity is Fea-sensei?

 I'm so confused that I can't speak, but Dr. Fear doesn't seem to be willing to wait until I'm calm, so he continues to talk.

'I'm a single species of demon with no race name. I was born a newborn, unaware of anything, and was all alone, but Krom-sama picked me up and raised me. I'm sure you'll be able to find a way to make it work.
....
I loved Krom-sama like a real mother.

 Come to think of it, Alice said. She said that the Demon King was like a sister to the Six Kings....
 I don't understand more and more. When I heard the story from Alice, I didn't think too deeply about how the Demon King thought and invaded the human world.

 But if that Demon King's true identity is Fea-sensei.......why would such a gentle......supposedly gentle person do such a thing? And that's the question that comes up strongly.

 I've noticed the occasional shadow on Master Crom's smile.
...that's....
''Yeah. Now that Miyama-kun saved Chrome-sama, I understand why, but I didn't know why he was looking at me like that back then.
....
'But one thing was clear: I didn't want to give Master Chrome a sad face. So I thought a lot.

 The words that were uttered with deep regret, each one seemed to stab me in the heart, and I was surrounded by emotions that I couldn't describe well.
 Pity? Anger? Pity? Worried? They all seem to be right, but I feel like they are all wrong.

''I didn't know the details of how Krom-sama and the others once challenged the God Realm to battle, but that legend is widely known in the Demon World... I thought that Krom-sama's sorrow was because he couldn't overthrow the God Realm,''
"...it's...
'Yeah. Looking back now, I know that gentle Chrome-sama would never think such a thing. But at the time, I didn't have any spare time at all... I think I was just thinking about such things for Chrome-sama and Chrome-sama's sake, and I wasn't able to think properly.

"...I wanted to make Krome-sama the king of the world. You'll find a lot of people who have been in the business for a long time. I truly believed that achieving that was my way of repaying Krom-sama for raising me.
....

 Maybe I should say something. But I still can't say anything.
 This man already understands his mistake. And he's still working on his never-ending atonement.
 So I can't blame ... or comfort Dr. Fea, not knowing what I knew then.

"I was really ... stupid. I've hurt so many people and it's been painful. It was hard ... every time I hurt someone with my own hands, it was so painful that I felt like I was going to start crying. But I fooled myself with such an excuse that this was for Chrome-sama...............................and I continued to do stupid things all the time until Hikari defeated me.
....

 Perhaps remembering those days, large tears spill out of Fea-sensei's eyes.
 Ah, after all, this person........is an impossibly kind and loving person. That's why I've distorted it myself and continue to suffer.

'Even though I lost to Hikari, I still didn't give up.......I tried to stand up with my ragged body to make Chrome-sama the king of the world.......and at that moment, Chrome-sama appeared in front of us. .....
....
"Chrome-sama ... 'cried' ... 'crying' ... looking at me in tatters and crying sadly ... I never wanted him to look at me like that. I wanted to protect Master Krom and I was the one who hurt him the most.
"...Dr. Fear.

 With endless tears streaming down her face, Fea-sensei began to talk about what happened back then, as if she were repenting.
 A precious existence that he wanted to protect until he bent himself... but he made a big mistake and told the story of the one demon tribe that hurt that precious existence more deeply than anyone else....

 Dear Mother, Father-- What Dr. Fear spoke about was something I hadn't expected, and in the end, I don't think I was able to say a loco word, and I don't think I was able to understand a loco word. But one thing is for certain, Dr. Fea was once a demon king.