I won't let you see me, Fea-sensei.

''What...?''
Please. Please, Kaijin-san, please don't get involved in this matter anymore.

　Mr. Noin, who is still in a kneeling posture, asks me to stay out of it with a voice that even feels sad.
　Of course, that doesn't convince me to say, "Yes, I see," but I couldn't come up with any locutions before the way she pleads with her head rubbing against the ground.

''........Can I ask you why?''
I'm afraid that if you talk to Fea she will be deeply hurt.
What do you mean by that?
You saved Master Chromium and for that I am truly grateful. But at the same time, you are the one who has done what Fear couldn't,

　I can't think of any words to refute that. I wasn't trying to save Black to the extent that I saved her. Still, in terms of results, I was able to free her from a long spell.
　I'm rather proud of that, but.......I see.......so, to Dr. Fea, my existence......is something that makes her feel helpless.... ....

"....Fea has been suffering for hundreds of years ... for a long, long time now. She has been apologizing to her now deceased victims with tears in her eyes, and she has been pushing herself all the way to redemption.
....
'Fea should be forgiven now. And yet, she will not quit redeeming herself. Fea will not forgive herself forever. She will continue to suffer forever so please don't push Fia any further. Please, please leave her alone........please.
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　I left the street where the church is located and proceeded to walk without an ate.
　The exchange with Noin-san just now keeps popping into my head, and I can't get it out of my head.
　.........maybe I didn't see it all that clearly.

　I thought that if I could successfully persuade Fea-sensei to meet with Kuro that would solve the problem.
　But it would certainly hurt Dr. Fea a lot. It could cause him to fall into even deeper pain than he is now.
　I wanted to get it over with as peacefully as possible. But Mr. Noin stood in my way. Any attempt to contact Ms. Fea would inevitably result in a clash with Ms. Noin, and there was no way I was going to get this done in peace.

　Isn't that enough?　I'm an outsider anyway, and I think it's just selfish and selfish of me to want Dr. Fea to meet Black.
　

　I should just give it up........but d*mn it.......why am I so hell-bent on doing it?
　I really don't know what to do anymore....

'Yes!　Every time there's a 'super spicy cookie'
... hmmm.

　I heard such a voice as I was tobogganing over, and I reflexively looked up.
　
　

''........Shea-san.
Tsk.

　It is this unrelenting tongue lashing.
　Shea-san continues to stare at me with a jittery stare and opens her mouth in an irritated tone.

''.........What is that slack-jawed face of yours.......it's irritating to watch. If you have a reason, tell me..........I'll just listen to what you have to say anyway.
....

　He sounded full of rage, but........what?　Could this be, "You don't look happy, what's wrong with you?　Can I help you with that if you want? You mean?
　Ah, still the same incomprehensible kindness........

''Uh, well, then, can I talk to you for a moment?''
Tsk.
"...what?　Oh, no, I didn't mean to impose...
What are you doing? There's a bench in the square and I don't have time for this. I'll make this quick.

　Uh-huh. I knew that even if I was complaining about something, they'd still listen to me.

　Shea-san took me to a bench in the nearby plaza, and after sitting side by side with Shea-san, we started talking about this case.
　I wasn't sure how much Shea-san knew, so I started off by mumbling something about a doctor named Dr. Fea. He replied, "Oh, you mean the former Demon King," so Shea-san recognized that he knew what was going on and decided to tell him everything.









　
　

''..........Are you an idiot, you?　The first brave man was also a dumbfounded great idiot, but you're even worse.
'Ugh ... no, no, I don't think I'm thinking about stupid things either ...'
I'm not. I'm just saying, how far do you want to go with your humanity?
What?

　Shea-san gives me a stern blackmail as she glares at me with cold eyes.

''You think you can save the person you wanted to save ... all of them?　Don't get high. You are a diminutive. You can't do a d*mn thing on your own.
Well that's what I'm going to do...
If you think you know, why are you here 'alone'?
What?
''You are diminutive. But you should have the power to even change the very foundation of this world if you wanted to. Why don't you use it?
Well that's not...

　Mr. Shea seems to be saying, in other words. Why don't we rely on the power of the Six Kings and the Supreme God.......why don't we ask for help from the people around us....
　Honestly, as for this matter.......the Six Kings are all involved in this case.......and they are all family members with Dr. Fea.......so I didn't want them to be involved in this matter.
　Why is that?　Ah, yes........because I knew that no matter what, I would end up hurting Fea-sensei, and I didn't need Noin-san to tell me that.

　

''........Don't be spoiled. You're an outsider from the beginning, and on top of that, the matter is quite delicate there's no gentle solution.
What?
Then what do you do?　Do you want to play the hypocritical face of a peaceful resolution - and a peaceful solution - while keeping it small and neat?　Or will you be covered in mud and still have your fangs in the mud to push your own self through?　Think for yourself!
Mr. Shea.
'Are you a pure and peaceful saint?　Or are you a selfish, ugly beast?

　With that announcement, Shea-san removes her hand from my chest and stands up from the bench.
　As I watched the scene absentmindedly.......I felt my hazy feelings of anguish clear up in my head.

　That's right. You are right, Mr. Shea, I was an outsider from the beginning, and it all started with my own selfishness, my desire to make up with Black and Mr. Fea, and I don't want to see Black's sad face. It's all very selfish of me.
　So, what are you going to do about it?　This is my selfishness and there are obstacles to follow through on it I have a definite answer.

''Well you've talked too long, the rest is up to you to worry about.
Mr. Shea!
Yeah?　What's more?

　I called out loudly to Shea, who was about to leave.
　And when Shea-san turned around, I immediately stood up and bowed my head.

''Thank you very much!
...Hmmm, so that's what you're saying?
'....Yes. Apparently, I was the selfish and ugly beast one.
So you want the help of the Sixth King?
''........No, I decided at the outset not to ask for the Sixth King's help. As for the Supreme God, as long as I don't know how far he is involved with Dr. Fear, I won't ask for his help.
''That's, well, very selfish of you.......then how do you get past the first brave man?

　Although the tone was testing, there was a tenderness in his words.
　It's as if he already knows what I'm about to say....

'I won't be able to scratch through Noin-san and reach Fea-sensei on my own.......so, please!　I need your help!

　I look up once and then bow deeply once more and tell Shea-san that I want her to help me.
　I heard earlier that Shea-san doesn't have a direct acquaintance with Fea-sensei, she only knows him, and her ability is perfect.
　After hearing my request, Shea-san was silent for a bit.......................and opened her mouth somewhat happily.

''..............................Hmmm, it's better than before.
Okay.

　I looked up when I heard Shea's voice, and she held out her hand towards me after a faint smile appeared on her mouth.

''Alright, 'Kite. I'm a benevolent goddess....If you bow your head to me for strength, I'll respond!

　Then, for the first time, he called my name and Mr. Shea readily agreed to help me.

　Dear Mom, Dad - apparently I'm not a pure and righteous saint, nor am I a worldly person who is willing to give up. I'll stick to my selfishness and drag Dr. Fear in front of Black.....so the story is simple. If Mr. Noin-san is standing in the way, I'll--I'll push my way through from the front.