358-『WHITE JOKER』






 Even though he was staring at me and Noin-san, I couldn't see an ounce of impatience in Fea-sensei's expression.
 From the way I even felt that I could sense something like Fea-sensei's will that his reply would not change.

 After looking at me and Noin-san in turn, such Fea-sensei opens his mouth with a gentle smile on his face.

''........You're dressed like you used to, Hikari. Yeah, after all, Hikari looks better with short hair.
Thank you. In terms of nostalgia, I feel the same way.......seeing you like this reminds me of the time when I used to be here.
'Yeah. Well what do we do? Do you want to fight like you used to this time?
No, I'm not here to defeat you as a brave man. I'm here to persuade you as a friend.

 It felt like a calm conversation at first glance. However, both Noin-san and Fear looked at each other with serious expressions and never looked away from each other.
 In a different way than when the hero and the demon king once faced each other, it might be a different format, but.......I had the feeling that the battle between the two of them had already begun.

 I continue to watch the scene without interrupting it. There's no way I'm going to interrupt them right now.
 It's a good thing that you're not the only one who's talking to each other right now, and even if I, an outsider, joined in, it would only disrupt the conversation... If Noin-san is able to persuade Dr. Fea, that's the best outcome.
 However, if that doesn't happen........because we are both involved in this, because we know the pain of the other party, and if Noin-san can't push through.......I'm going to join the conversation too.

 So for now, I continue to stare at the two of them so as not to miss their conversation.

''I'm glad. For me too, Hikari is a very important friend........but what on earth do you want to convince her of?
'I'll be blunt. You must see Master Chrome.
'Then I'll answer briefly, too. I can't do that.
But you yourself are willing to see Master Krom. Isn't that right?
'No different I'm not going to hide that. I want to see Master Krom, I want to see him again and talk to him but I can't do that.

 

''........Fea, how long do you plan to continue to suffer like that, how long do you plan to continue to suffer like that? I've had enough of this I know how much you've suffered and how much you've been redeemed for the last thousand years and I'm painfully aware of it.
....
Whenever there is an outbreak of dangerous monsters, he finds time to exterminate them and donates most of the money he earns as a doctor to charity. Whenever there was an outbreak of a dangerous demon, he would exterminate it in his spare time and donate most of the money he earned as a doctor to charity. You don't appreciate the accolades, and you keep blaming yourself... How long do you plan to do that?
"There's no end to it. The atonement I'm making is just self-satisfaction it's never going to end.
You should be forgiven for what you've done. What in the world did you do? When you were called the Demon King, you did not hurt anyone who did not have the strength to fight, and you did not kill anyone, not even those who fought you.
....

 I'm sure that's what Mr. Noin has always thought.
 Fea-sensei didn't kill anyone. But the demons that Sensei Fea had under his command were not.
 As Alice said, I'm sure Dr. Fear is responsible for not being able to finish the job. But just as Noin-san insisted, it's true that she's not a Demon King without blood and tears.
 

''................And yet, why are you not allowed to do so? Why, you can't even smile happily...
I think that's obvious. No matter who else forgives me I cannot forgive myself I cannot be forgiven. I have committed a foolish sin and hurt someone dear to me I don't deserve to be happy.

 To Noin-san's words, which she tells bitterly, Dr. Fear replies with a buzzing answer, but.......what is it? I'm starting to get a little angry.

''Why do you say that........You have the right to make your wish come true, too! If you want to see Chrome-sama.......then why don't you just meet him!
'I'm telling you I can't see you! I can't face Krom-sama anymore I don't deserve that!
You don't know what you are-- "Screw you! -- Heh? Kite?
...Miyama-kun?

 I found myself shouting at the top of my lungs.
 I wasn't going to join the conversation. I sat on the sidelines, thinking it would be best if the parties involved talked to each other... but when Black's name came up, I couldn't hold back the feeling of 'anger' in my heart.

 I stared at Fea-sensei, who turned to me with a surprised look.

''.........What is that.......Why are you saying something incomprehensible, like those who have committed sins in the past shouldn't be happy!
'What? What are you doing...?
"I'm not going to tell you anything about Dr. Fia atoning for his past sins. You can atone for your sins until you're satisfied, and you can continue to do so until you're satisfied. I'm not going to have anything to say about it, as I'm not a party to it, but.......but! You don't need any qualifications to make "you now" happy!
Miyama-kun... and that's why I'm...
".........you're just 'afraid to meet Black'....
What?

 Hearing my words as my respect for her collapsed due to my excitement, Fea-sensei has a clearly upset expression on her face for the first time today.

'What if I see Black again, and yet, Black doesn't forgive me... you! That's what's scaring me, and I'm running away from it with all these excuses about not having a face to match Black!
No, no, I'm not...
If you really think Black is important to you and you feel like you've caused him trouble why don't you try to apologize in person?
Huh?

 From what I've heard so far, I've heard that Dr. Fear left Black without seeing him.
 I heard he said he couldn't forgive himself for being forgiven by Black, but I believe the real reason is different.
 I'm sure the same thing happened to Mr. Feuer, when he told me that he wanted to see me, but that I was afraid he didn't want to see me.

'Maybe Black doesn't like me. With that thought in your head, you've been unable to see him after all until now, haven't you?
That's...
Are you........using Black, who you said you loved and was your mother.......as an excuse to escape yourself?
....

 Apparently my idea is not off the mark, and Fea-sensei backs away with an upset expression on his face.
 Maybe it's a hit........this guy wants to see Black. While I want to properly apologize to Black and ask him to forgive me, I can't step forward because of the thought of what would happen if he rejected me.
 If I wasn't at least more or less aware of it, I wouldn't be so upset.

''.........I knew it, right? It's not that you can't see Black you're afraid to see him. But at the same time, you want to meet Black and get his forgiveness, right?
"...No...no...no...I'm not...

 Fea-sensei shakes her head in denial, but her voice is very weak.
 But thank God........it's not that Fea-sensei doesn't want to be happy, or that she doesn't want to be saved.
 It's just that he's the same as I was once, wishing to be saved, wishing to reach out to me, but refusing to do so himself.

''........Dr. Fea. Please meet with Black.
No, no no! I will not ... meet ... with Master Krom!
"...Fear.
No! I don't want to see you because if Master Chrom rejects me I'm not going to be able to....

 Fea-sensei's margin that existed earlier is completely broken, and he shakes his head like a spoiled child in response to me and Noin-san's call.
 It's probably already like a willpower thing to get to this point. I want to see you, but you don't want to see me........

''........I'm sorry, Fea-sensei. I've already made up my mind. I don't care how you do it. I don't care what you do or don't do. You can hate me, you can despise me I'll take you before Black by force.
I'm not going! I'm........

 Dr. Fear screams that he doesn't want to see me, but it doesn't matter to me anymore.
 Black said to me, "I want to see Fea".......then I'll grant Black's wish. No, maybe that's just an excuse, too.

'Shh, but what are you going to do, Kite? When it comes to that, they won't move easily. And even though it's forceful................................Fear is pretty strong, right? If they really resist....
Mr. Noin, I just said I'm a man of all trades and I'm going to use my "trump card".
What's that 'feather' ... the trump card...?

 While quietly answering Noin-san's words, I take out a single pure white feather from my pocket.

''........I want to reunite Fea-sensei and Black. Black's wish ... no, I can't convince myself of that. Yes, this is my selfishness.......so I'm going to make it happen.......

 Muttering to myself, I toss the feather in my hand.
 I stare at the fluttering, gravity-following falling feather and say the key words.

'Lend me your strength, 'Eden-san!

 Instantly, a silvery white wind blew inside the church, and ten pairs of twenty wings in the shape of a giant sphere appeared.
 And one by one, the wings were opened, and while releasing an overwhelming amount of magical power, the god of the other world descended.

''........Commission, yes.