117-Episode 117 Kanade's Thoughts, Part 2




 Rain was asleep on the bed.
 At times, she looked like she was in pain.

''Nyah........Rain.......''

 As I sit in the chair next to the bed, I gently reach out and wipe Rain's sweat away.
 That's the least I can do.
 I'm pathetic like that.

'Maybe Rain would tell me not to worry about it, but I can't. I'd worry about it. Rain, you did your best for me, but I can't do anything about it...

 My mother came to me and said she was going to take me back to the village.
 So a lot of things happened and we had to fight.
 Thanks to Rain, I managed to get my mom to approve of me, but...

 But Lane is suffering the repercussions of his recklessness.
 It's my fault.
 I feel so sorry.

 I'd like to apologize to you, if only to say I'm sorry.
 And I just wanted to say thank you so much
 I offered to take care of her.

'Nyaa ... Rain, are you in pain? Are you okay?

 I call out to her, but there is no response from Rain.
 She just groans in pain.

 Of course........

 I've never heard of such a reckless thing as casting multiple layers of ability-enhancing magic on oneself.....
 If it's done poorly, it's possible that your body might be broken.
 The fact that you're going to do that much recklessness....

'No, no, no...'

 There was a knock on the door with a bang.
 The door opened and Tania appeared.

'How's it going?'
He's not going to wake up.
Okay.

 Tania lined up next to me and looked at Rain's face.
 Tania had a look on her face that said, "Well, it can't be helped.

''You can't blame your master for being so reckless and causing us to worry.
It's true...
Don't worry too much about Kanade.
What?
You think it's your fault or something, don't you?
Nyah but you're right and...
No, you're not.
Unnnnnn!

 I was decapitated with a bang.
 Ouch ... what are you doing?
 Tania laughs as she gives him a resentful look.

'I don't think about those trivial things,'
Trivial things...
'It's not Kanade's fault. Of course it's not Rain's fault it's no one's fault.
'But since I caused it...'
'You're going to blame yourself for being like that, for looking so gloomy... are you going to show Rain that?
Huh.
Well, I mean, you look better with a smile on your face, so go ahead and laugh your brains out like you always do.

 Tania says, sounding vaguely embarrassed.
 I guess she's encouraging me.
 I know it's a bit clumsy but I'm so glad.

'....Thanks.
I don't mean to be a jerk and when Kanade isn't well, I'm out of shape.
Neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
She's not a typical teenage girl.
Meow.
Well, then, you'll be in charge.

 After saying that, Tania left the room.

 Like a lie, the gloomy mood from earlier was gone.
 That's right.
 I can't let Rain see how depressed I am.
 If I did that, I would put more and more of a burden on Rain.
 I should be smiling brightly and cheerfully!

'But you can't help but worry...'

 It had been two days since she had fought her mother.
 During that time, Rain had been sleeping all the time and not waking up.
 Sora and Luna had cast a recovery spell on her and her mother had seen her, so I don't think there's anything to worry about...

I hope you're feeling better soon.

 I'd love for you to pat me on the head.
 I want you to hold my hand.
 I want you to smile.

"...Rain....

 Gently, I take Rain's hand in mine.
 But it's not enough...
 He gently rested his forehead against Rain's sleeping chest.

'Nyah.'

 My heart is pounding as I do this...

 I think back to Rain.
 That she wanted to be with me.
 That's why he took care of his mother.

 Every time I think back to that time, my heart beats harder in my chest.
 Not only that, a warmth spreads through me...
 I feel vaguely satisfied.

Hmm....Rain.

 Naturally, I said the name of my significant other.

 Then I step away for a moment and look at Rain's face.
 Sweat is running down her face, so I gently wipe it off.

'.........nyah.

 Why?
 I was so nervous, my heart was pounding, my chest felt painful, I was fluffy...
 It's weird.
 I've never felt like this before.

...maybe...maybe not...is that what it is?

 Gently, I stroked my own chest.
 I was so nervous that I thought I was going to hear the sound.

 This feeling, this thought........
 Maybe it's love, right?

...nyahhhh.

 Instantly I feel embarrassed and my face gets hot.
 It's like a vague fire has been lit.
 Maybe I'm turning bright red now.

''Ugh, wow...............................Unyaahh.

 I like Rain.
 As a girl, I like Rain.

 Finally, I should say.
 I've become aware of that.
 I was clearly aware of that.

 Because, you know, I can't help it, right?
 You always give me a kind smile and warmth....
 You worked so hard for me until I collapsed....
 You'd be crazy not to like it after what they did to you. Yeah.

 So, it's normal for me to like Rain. It's only natural.
 Decision!



 My head is messed up.
 Have I gone crazy...?

'This ... what am I going to do about it?'

 You want to tell Rayne how I feel?
 Imagine what that would be like...

Awww!

 My tail goes beeping.
 I don't think so! Because you can never do that!
 I'm too embarrassed to do anything about it!

'Huh ... and for now ... yeah. It's fine the way it is. .....

 
 Embarrassing.........

I mean, it doesn't work like that.

 You've got to take care of him!
 Yeah, I've changed my mind!

...but I'll tell you what.

 Once again, I put my forehead on Rain's chest.
 It's as if I could feel Rain's warmth, and my heart felt really fuzzy.
 Ehehe........I'm happy....

Rain I like it.

 He murmured softly and stroked Rain's cheek.