209-Episode 209: Tania's Thoughts, Part 2




 I didn't feel like going back to the party, so...
 I wanted to be alone for a while longer, so I moved to the hill behind the house on the other side where Rain and my mom were.

 The view here is beautiful.
 You can see the whole city and....
 I looked up and saw the stars shining.

 I sat down on the ground and looked up at the sky.
 Then I reached out gently.
 I could almost reach the starry sky.

"Phew.

 Somehow I thought back to the conversation between Lane and my mom and...
 I can't help but grin.

 I feel bad for eavesdropping, but....
 But I got to know what Lane thinks about on a daily basis.
 Glad to hear it.

 Speaking of happy, there's one more thing to be happy about.

I know I said don't want to do it, but that was a pretty cool moment for me.

 I thought back to the time when you saved me.

 Seeing me in a bad way, Rain was angry.
 He had the scariest look on his face that I've ever seen.

 I'm sorry that I made you look like that, but....
 But at the same time, I'm happy about it.

 It's a selfish thought, but....
 It makes me happy to know that you're so angry with me.
 The fact that he was angry at me means that he cares about me.
 I don't mean to tell you this, but it made me happy.
 I'm contradicting myself, but I can't help it.
 A girl's heart is a complicated thing.

Rain......

 Once I think about it, I keep thinking about Rain.

 Rayne's angry face.
 Rayne's smiling face.
 Rayne's troubled face.
 Rayne's.....

 I don't know why, but I can't stop thinking about Rain.
 I've had similar things happen to me before but....
 I've never seen anything as intense as this one.

 What the hell is going on here?

Well, I don't have to think about it.

 I got up on my knees.
 And I bury my face in between them.

 I know that no one is watching me, but....
 Still, I didn't want anyone to see this flaming face.

 I hid my face between my knees...
 Then she murmurs in a small voice that only she can hear.



 As I put it into words, the realization hit me all at once.
 My chest was filled with warm thoughts and the fire in my face grew stronger and stronger.
 With a thump, my heart jumped noisily.

''Oh my god... I never thought it would come to this...''

 When I first met him, I just thought he was a bit of a strange person.
 I thought it would be interesting to be with him, so I decided to follow him.

 Then, as we traveled together, my interest in Rain grew.
 The next thing you know, you're spending more and more time thinking about Rain...
 I found myself following it with my gaze...

 And then there's this one.

 If I had to see you working that hard for me, I would just love it, don't you think?
 I don't blame you for being a bit of a heartbreaker, do you?

"Hmm.

 I was thinking about Rain, and I was smiling unintentionally.
 Maybe I'm smiling a sly and slack smile right now.
 It's a face I would never show to anyone else.
 But maybe it's good for Rain....

I mean.........I'm embarrassed to admit it, I......I really don't know how much I love Lane.

 I chuckle to myself at my own thoughts.

 But I can't help it.
 Because that's how much I love Rayne.

"What does Rain........think of me?

 Since you're so angry at me, you care about me... right?
 But I doubt it's a favor or not.

'Hmmm ... she's not there yet, is she? I don't get that vibe, and that seems to be a definite thing. As for the guy you like... what do you think?

 The girls who have the most contact with Rain are us.
 Kanade, Sora, Luna, Nina and Tina.

 Nina's still too young to have any, but........
 Thora and Luna are of a slightly questionable age, aren't they?
 I don't think I'm good enough to see them as such.

 Then the rivals are Kanade and Tina, I guess.
 But Tina is the youngest person I've ever known, so it feels like it's a bit of a rush to like her.
 And Kanade has the vibe of being more of a best friend than a lover.
 There's no sweet vibe to it.

 Then I'm the one with the most potential....

''Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!

 At that moment, my face burned even more strongly.
 I felt vexingly embarrassed and held my face with both hands.

 
 I was smiling at the thought of that moment and....

Oh my God!

 He wriggled and flailed about in place.
 Had there been someone nearby, I'm sure he would have tilted his head to see what was going on.

'Love is such a tricky thing...'

 It's like I'm not being me anymore.
 But it's so nice and fluffy.

 And now I'm in love.

"Rayne I love you...

 Say the thoughts that you can't tell me right now...
 Under the starry sky.
 I thought about Rain for a while longer.