Disgusting ... disgusting ... disgusting ... disgusting ....
It really pisses me off.
Am I spoiled by the fact that I am a half-elf?

I've never once resented being a half-elf, but I've never been spoiled.
What do you know about that guy from another world who just got a powerful power from the goddess, a drifter?

He didn't need any talents anyway.
With the powerful skills the goddess gave me, I guess I've been living without any hardship whatsoever.
That's why you can look down on me and say that I'm going to make others happy.......

My happiness is my decision.
Such a blessed man doesn't know anything about me.
I crawled into bed and kept thinking about what had happened today.
Even this bed must be something I got because of that guy's skills.
Even this fine texture I've never experienced before makes me hate it.

''........Misela. I'm going in.

The door is opened without permission and White enters the room.
I'd like to tell you not to come in, but it's not like this room belongs to me either.

"Sleeping...?　Rice. It's gone cold, so I heated it up.
I don't want it.
Hm. I can't run tomorrow if I don't eat.
....
...Have you had a fight with the Lord?
.........
"Lord, he was above the food. He seemed to be thinking and regretting things...

Hearing those words made me even angrier.
Regret?　Don't be silly, don't do that.
You threw a good argument at me and now you're going to regret it.
Yeah, I'm aware of that. I know that guy was right.

As long as Wendy is here, the man is a good person.
He must be a good man if Wendy has put her trust in him overwhelmingly.
No, I know that even if Wendy-sama wasn't there.......

I heard that you forced yourself to make medicine for me when I collapsed.
She welcomed me with hot food and warmth.
Above all, he treated me as a person.

Gentleness alone is not enough for me to suspect a betrayal.
If he is not strict enough, I reject him.
He has both, and I'm sure he's really thinking about me.
I know that for sure.....

But that doesn't mean I've been in a dark world all this time, does it?
You know how I keep thinking this world should go to hell?
There's no way I can decide if it's suddenly turned into something bright and dazzling, as if the world has changed....

It's a lie that I don't want to bother you.
I wouldn't want to leave such a comfortable place.
I know that if I left, I would either die in the wild or go back to being a slave.

But, you know, once you've tasted happiness, you're afraid to let it go... then you'd think it would be much easier not to have it.
Still, to get it, I don't know how to stay.......I know how to get it.

''Ugh, ugh........''
Mizera?　Are you crying?
I'm not crying!

Tears well up in my eyes at my naivety, at my weakness to take the first step, even though I know it's obvious.
I'm afraid that when I'm set up this far, I'll be expected to and disappointed.
I'm afraid I'll be dismissed, pissed off, and discarded, and I don't have the confidence to keep trying because I know I'm not talented enough.

''...Misela doesn't like the Lord?''
I hate you.......... You don't know what you're going through....
The Lord's in a lot of trouble. White and the others are causing him a lot of trouble. But the Lord is laughing. He's laughing and making an effort.
'Effort?　A man who is talented enough to get this kind of mansion to work hard?　Don't make me laugh....
Come here.
It's just...

Arguably, White pulls me by the hand and we walk down the hallway.
Despite being a small cat person tribe, I was being pulled forcefully.
But my wrist was pulled with exquisite force that didn't hurt.

It was a dark living room where they were brought in.
Then White opened the glass door to the terrace and beckoned me to come in.
I put a finger to my mouth, urging me to be quiet.

What in the world is this all about?" but when I stepped outside, White beckoned me to the railing as she lowered her body.

''Hmm........''

White urged me to look outside the railing.
In the pitch blackness, I turn my head toward the garden and the gate, and I see what appears to be someone else's presence, two shadows.

*

But, Freed, are you sure this is the right way?
''We don't know how much destruction there will be........ We can't damage Hayato-sama's house, so.......
I'm not sure if this is the right way to go...
It's your house, not the Lord's.

With that, Freed takes a stance.
I giggled and took out my manaiter and confronted him.

"So, let's go, shall we?
'Soooo ... hah ... yeah. Anytime.

One deep breath.
With a huff of breath, Freed enters my pause with one foot.
With a speed that is unbelievably large, the approaching pressure and the large fist thrust into my torso without being able to prevent it with the manaiter.


'Don't let them get in the way easily in a fight. That's the main premise.

I spit out the contents of my belly and rolled around, rolling around, but still whipping at my aching belly and standing up.
Instead of throbbing, he confronted it once more, contorting his face into a cancerous, aching belly.

''So is it the second one?''
'Oh...'

As Freed comes straight once more, I swing my sword in a horizontal cleave.
However, Freed stops just before the sword's interval, and after avoiding my sword, he enters the interval.

I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to get a better idea of what I'm talking about.

'Let's think about our next move when we attack. Wielding it without deciding what to do if it's blocked, avoided or hit is just suicide.
Giggles.......... Ah, d*mn.........

I can't get my arm up.
I take out the quicksilver recovery potion, drink it, and stand in front of Freed again.
Now for the third one.

''Huh!''

He swings again at Yokonagi, but again Fried stops just before the interval.
But this time he swings to keep his swing compact so he can prepare for his next response, so he could quickly regain his stance, but Freed disappears.

At that moment, I felt a jolt in my legs and my body floated.
And then the floating body was blown away by Freed's shoulder.

'Combat is how you can force your opponent to take advantage of you. The advantage of a leg sweep or a feint is that you can break your opponent's condition and create a favorable situation for yourself.
Well this one can only be done over here...

If the big-bodied Freed stepped in, of course the garden would be dented.
The leg duster was just beaten by a wrenga today, but I'm not making any progress at all.......

''Do you still want to continue?''
Yeah. More to come.

I can't experience this kind of pain with Renge and the others....
Today was another short stop.
I don't think we should get hurt in an actual battle and become confused by it and lose our composure.
That's why I decided to ask Freed to practice it for me.

''Shall I use spatial magic next? You should also learn some tactics to use with your skills.''
All right. Defensive focus, right?
Yes, sir. But from now on, I'm going to put my best foot forward. If you're not careful, you won't die, but you will be seriously injured, won't you?
Okay.

Drink up both the recovery potion and the magic recovery potion and take on the challenge fully prepared.

First, I put an invisible prison (Invisible Jail) around myself.
Of course, I put a lot of magic power into it.

Then, let's get going. Please hold it for at least 10 seconds.
Yeah. I'll try.

I'm not sure if it's too early to say, but Freed's figure disappears.
Maybe it's because it's night, but my kinetic vision hasn't quite caught up with me.
And when I thought he appeared in front of me, I heard a goggin and a dull sound from in front of me.

''It's hard as a stone.''

He realised that it was the sound of an invisible prison being punched, and he jumped backwards to get Fried away from the weight of his fist, pulling slightly from the weight of his fist, and stretched a new invisible prison in between.

'Yes. It's also useful to use it to keep your opponent at a distance.''

It's a good thing that you're not the only one who has a lot of experience in this field.

I can't see that skill of yours. But even if you touch it, it's not very effective. I believe that demons without magic power can hunt it, but it's too poorly done in front of someone who is skilled in handling magic power.
Yeah. To be honest, it's not very efficient for your magic to be destroyed so easily.
The best thing to do would normally be to use that power to deal with a sudden attack while using magic. But.....
If it's not working, it doesn't matter.
Yes. So I think it's still better for you to be a support person. It's a good idea to float in the sky and use your skills to protect your surroundings, except in dungeons and caves, as before. But...
''Yeah. Because when I have to go to that dungeon or cave, I don't want to say I can't go...

With that, Freed takes a stance.

'Do you still want to perform?'
Yeah. It's more of a start. How's Freed doing?
Yes, that's quite all right. I'll do my best to match your courage.

Fried laughs softly and I laugh too.
But what follows is as intense and harsh as I imagined.



"...what?　Huh...?

My whole body shivered as I watched.
Goosebumps ran through my body as I looked at the scene in front of me.

''Freed. The Falconer's House Steward.''
'Not that!　Why are you ... beaten up like that?　You don't have to help me!
Hm. We can't let the Lord's discipline get in the way of that.
'Training...?　That one?　Don't be silly, it's not just a one-sided beating!　You'll die if you don't stop it!
I can't stop. I can't stop...
How could you...

White lowers his eyebrows and says with a very sad look on his face.

'I can't tell White that he doesn't have to work hard when the Lord is working so hard.

'None..... But I work out and work every day, after I read something and do some research, even after everyone goes to bed. I don't have any talent, but I know that no matter how hard I work, I can't stop the Lord from trying to keep up with White and the others.

White's eyes welled up with tears, but he still managed to keep them from flowing.

Why would you.....................
'It's what the Lord wants to do. If the Lord wants it, White will watch over the Lord. It's my role as White's bodyguard to guard the Lord's heart as well.
''Why do you... why do you want to be so... strong?　I have the talent of alchemy, and three of the city's most adventurous people around me, even you. Even as it is.... it's not enough.

Red Front (Red Line). An A-ranked adventurer who is the highest rank in this city.
I've heard that she's so strong that it's no problem to take on those three at the same time.
The fact that an individual has that much strength is astonishing in itself, but if that's the case, there's no need to train yourself even more.

It's a good idea to have a good idea of what you want to do. He doesn't like not being able to do anything. The truth is, I'm not very good at pain and fear, but...
I can't do anything...

With me.....
But the big difference is that he's taking a step forward.
He goes out of his way to challenge something he is not good at, and he is moving forward despite the pain he is going through.
I couldn't help but feel how dwarfed I was when I saw that man confronting the situation in front of me time and time again.

''I wonder if........that person is going to continue?''
'Hmmm.... If it's something else, I don't think the Lord will stop for this one. Even if I said I could stop, I probably wouldn't.
Well..... I'm so miserable. I didn't know anything about him and all I did was complain about him. Aaaaaaah........you don't even have an excuse anymore.......
Hm. It's the Lord, so there's no way around it. Even if he's not a drifter, I don't think the Lord will change. Together, we can move forward. It's fun. That's why White follows the Lord. White can work harder so that he can keep up with the Lord all the time.
...Yeah. I'm a little bit jealous of that...
Hmm..... Well, then, Mizella, why don't you and White work together?
Well ... ... can you do it?
You can do this. White is going to help you. We're all going to help you.
Yes.

I don't know if what's bubbling up now is because of White's kindness or the sadness of knowing that I had given up on me the most.
But the little light that dwelt in my heart was warm and did not seem so bad.
After this, I couldn't stop the tears from flowing, and with White's support, I went back to my room to enjoy the evening meal that had cooled down.