I'm naive, I realize that. I can't go on like this, I agonize over such thoughts. Mr. Dong and the others are discussing what to do with them. In the meantime, I was spending time with the gryphons, Sipho, and Fresne.
How did Mr. Roma end up dying this time? It all started when I reached out to them. Maybe I should have abandoned them. All the things I can't stop thinking about are going through my head.
They're not all bad people. No, everyone I've ever met has been like that. It's a combination of factors that made them do it. If I hadn't been able to talk to her and convince her, she would have sacrificed us. In the end, I, the beastmen, and the elves walked together, but if anything had been different, we would not have been able to walk together.
To be honest with you, I don't understand the idea of accepting Roma-san, but then eliminating her because she didn't meet our expectations. But I thought that there are people in the world who can do such things. There are many people in the world who can do things that I cannot even imagine. I have to think about the future with that in mind.
I'm sad that Roma is gone. I can't see him anymore. The fact that he's dead means that we can't talk to him anymore. That makes me sad. There's a sense of loss in my heart. I feel like there's a hole in my heart.
Mr. Ran said that there is a difference between having me and not having me. I need to ...... understand my power properly. There is certainly a part of me that is different from others---I have to know it properly. And it's not that I don't know it, it's that I have to use my power properly. If I had known what made me different from others, and if I had been able to demonstrate and use that power correctly, I could have gotten better results.
I lean on Lulmar's back and think about these things. For example, if I had used the power of my family members around me, it would have been ---- much easier.
"Hey ......, I don't want to threaten you. I don't want to ...... threaten you, but maybe you should ...... do it.
"I don't know how to do it, but you should do what Lelanda did.
Yeah, ...... I don't know which one is the right one. ...... But I feel like it would work better.
I thought, "If we're going to end up talking about it, I'd rather talk about it. I hadn't thought about what would happen if the discussion didn't work. I need to think about what I can do about it. There are things that can't be dealt with through discussion alone. So let's use the parts of me that are different from others. I'll use it properly and make it work.
When I use my power properly, I may be told many things, but even if I am told something, the result is more important than that.
I'll do my best.
It's sad, but you can't stay sad and depressed all the time. Instead, we must move forward. I need to think. There is no point in standing still. Let's just keep in mind the people who have died. I don't want to lose anyone, but I think it's difficult to live without losing them while protecting everything. I want to be able to protect and not lose anyone as much as possible, but I know I can't do it all.
I'll understand my power better, use it better, and use it to protect.
I'm determined to do that. And I stood up to tell everyone that.
And when I got to Mr. Dong, I knew what I was going to do with those people.
In the end, Dong-gu and the others didn't have a choice but to kick them out of the area or get rid of them. But they decided to take hostages from their side because they could not continue to be lenient. The word "hostage" makes me shy away from ......, but I guess they made that choice because they know that if they don't, it will only end badly again. The hostage thing seems to have come from their side. They were bowing deeply.
They said that they were willing to give their lives to save the children, and as a result, the hostages were offered to them.
---The Girl and the Tribe 8
(The girl, who is probably a child of the gods, decides that she must understand her power and use it properly. And the relationship between the beastmen and the tribe changes.