I returned from my walk with Frené and Raymar and headed straight for Mr. Lan.
When I called out to Mr. Lan, he was with Ms. Dong and Ms. Silva. All three of their eyes turned to me.
"Well, Lern Da. What's the matter?
Mr. Ran smiled kindly at me.
I like her gentle smile every time I see her smile.
I'm not sure what to do, but I'm going to do it.
I'm sure you'll be able to understand that I'm not the only one. It seems that they did not expect me to say something like this.
"Lelunda. That priest is a follower of Lelanda. You never know what he'll do because of his faith. That's why you decided to let him stay in the village on condition, right?
Yes. ...... But when I saw Fito and the others, I knew I wanted to face them properly.
You saw Phyto and the others?
Yeah. ...... Phyto-chan is in charge of the people. She said she wouldn't let it get out of control.
Phyto-chan is facing it. I'm not sure what to make of it, but I think it's a good idea. But I'm just running away.
I'm just running away. I'm just turning away from the problem, thinking that it might get out of control.
I'm running away from ....... I've decided to live as a godson. I've decided to use this power. I'm not sure what to do, but I'll do my best to make sure you don't have any problems.
"...... Lern Da. In the worst case scenario, if things don't work out, we may have to take their lives.
Yeah. It's okay. I know exactly what I'm doing.
The only reason I'm keeping Mr. Ilum and Mr. Sheehan in the house right now and not letting them out is because they might get into trouble. If we don't let them out, they won't cause any problems at all. But if we let them out and show them the state of this village, there is a high possibility that some problems will arise. --If they do something detrimental to the village, we may have to take their lives.
I am aware of this fact.
I understand that fact, and I want to step forward.
I will do everything in my power to make sure that ...... does not happen. If it does, I'll be ...... ready.
I decided to accept being a godson and live as a godson.
It's still just you, Illume, but it could happen to many more people in the future. If I can't take care of one person, I can't do anything about it.
Ran and the others were thinking of me and showed me a way to avoid facing the pain. They showed me the worst possibilities so that I wouldn't be sad. If I don't face Mr. Illume properly, I might be happy for a while. But I don't know how long that will last.
Right now, this village is doing well, but I don't know how long it will last. If I don't face it, when something happens, the fact that I didn't face it may reveal itself in the worst possible way.
That's how I feel. So.
...... Thanks for worrying about me. But I'm fine. I know exactly what you mean. I just want to face it. And that might get me in trouble. And I need your help when things go wrong. But ...... I want to face it.
Maybe my choice to face you will cause trouble for everyone. It might not work out. I don't even know how this idea of faith exists in you, Illume. And I've been so naive as to ask for help if it doesn't work out.
But I wanted to face it.
As I said these words, my voice slowly became quieter. I looked down at her.
I wondered if I could stop it, and then I saw a big hand patting my head. I looked up to see Ms. Dong gently patting my head, and Ms. Sireva looking like she had no choice. Then Mr. Lan said to me.
I'm not opposed to it. If Lerunda has made the right decision, I will support him in his actions. If you're so determined, I'll help you make it work. And if it doesn't, of course I'll help you. But still, ......
Ms. Lan looked at me, smiled and continued.
"Lelanda has grown up, hasn't she? I'm happy to be able to feel Lernda's growth beside me.
With a gentle smile, Ms. Lan said she was happy to be able to feel my growth. I'm sure you'll be glad to know that I'm not the only one who's happy to see you grow.
--The Girl and Faith 1
(The child-like girl tells the women of her decision.)