44-muddled mind...




I realized that the strange point was exposed when I thought about it calmly.

First of all, there are two people. Alina, the gentle one, and Alina, the poisonous one.
It is impossible to determine which of them is the basic personality based on their opinions alone. They both describe the other as the base personality. And then there are the memory lapses. Nothing is certain.
All we know is that the kinder Alina understands the history of the body of Alina Hiba better than the gentler Alina. She has been observing the world since the sixth grade. She claims to have been taught by Arina Toxic, but she herself has no memory of her life before the third grade of junior high school.
I considered the possibility of another personality. Not dual personalities, but multiple personalities. But neither of them seems to recognize the other's existence. But it is a possibility.

Alina walks with me with a smile as big as a sunflower. The students we pass look at her three times and stretch out their noses.
Of course, I'm still performing my duties as a member of the student council.

'That looks like fun!

He pointed to my classroom, Class 2, Year 2.

It's not a cosplay place, by the way. That's a coffee shop.
Heh. You're in second year, second class, so you're in the comet class, right?'
''Well.''
''You don't do cosplay?''
'I guess you don't. I've been exempted because I took this job.'
'Hmm. It's a shame, it looks so interesting.
'Oh, shit, I'm running away.
What?

A horse-faced man with a hatchet approached us with nihilistic eyes.

Who are you, comet?
''It's Makoto Takane.''

Alina flipped through her notebook,

'Oh, was he the one who confessed to me? And it says that you and Comet are best friends. You like strange people, don't you?
'There are plenty of people who have confessed to you, you know.
'Yes. It says seventy-two in total.
'Wow. That's outrageous.'
It says, "I turned them all down.
'Holy shit.'
'Face forward. I'm here.'

When I turned my head back to the front, I saw the tip of the horse's nose right in front of me.

'You're close, Makoto.
'Come with me.
'What did you say?
'Follow me.

He pulls my arm forcefully, opening the distance between me and Alina. His grip is so strong that it shreds my arm. Stop it, it really hurts. Hate is in it.
I was forced to lean my back against the wall.
The horse still pokes me with the tip of its nose. The horse talked while its snout trembled.

'You're just a beautiful girl. ......!
''You mean Ryuka-san?
'Sure, Ryuka is cute, but ......! What's wrong with Hinoha ......! That's just a beautiful girl character. ......!
'Well, it's not the usual Alina, is it?'
'You're a different person now. ......! And that dress ......! Too beautiful ......!'
'You should tell that directly to Alina, not me. You won't get anything from me. I can drop tomato juice, though.
'I'd rather slay a slime, you rotten human'.

It seems that wearing a horse mask makes one's character much more bossy after all.
Judging it to be futile and ineffective, I tried to communicate with Mimori Ryuka with my eyes. Let's let the graceful Ryuka, who looks good in a kimono, deal with this ferocious horse.

"Take care of him for me.

I hope he got the message.
Then Ryuka took a pair of disposable chopsticks and put them in her mouth. Then she tilts her head.

(How did you interpret that? ......?)

Apparently, she's a natural. Ladylike and natural. She must be popular.
Unfortunately, I don't think she got any of that, so this is my last resort. I deliberately raised my voice.

Help me! Somebody pull me off! This horse monster!''

Ryuka huffed and snapped her fingers. Then she approached quickly and took Makoto by the arm, forcing him into her arms.
With her back to Makoto, Ryuka gave the sign of good. I gave a thumbs up for good luck, too. Goodbye Makoto. I wish you happiness.

Released from the psycho horse, I returned to Alina, who was waiting patiently with half her face covered by a notebook.

'I don't know anyone.
'That's understandable. On the contrary, you're quite famous.


It seems so. I've heard it from Dr. Akakusa, and reading his notes, I kind of understand that kind of relationship. So, the poisonous rose has a bad reputation.
''Is it from your notebooks that you say you have a poisonous rose?''
'Yes. I write down what I'm called. Hiba-san, Alina-san, Alina-chan, and Toxic Rose. By the way, she doesn't like to be called 'you' by Comet. That's funny. They like you.
'Yes, yes, I'm honored, honored.
'You really are what your notebook says you are, aren't you?

Alina Hibane hugged my left arm and rubbed it against her own body. My brain froze and my voice leaked out as if my soul had been drained.

'Floaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan......'
'What? What, what, what? I'm crushing! I'm so excited!

This is-- this is a service.
Tertiary industry, service industry. An industry that accounts for 75 percent of Japan's total.
I have never been to a cabaret club, I have no interest in it, and I am too old for it, but if they offer this kind of hospitality, it may be worth the money. It makes me think that I will go there at least once when I grow up.
I feel like I'm going to relax and melt. What a slender body!

'You know, there was a note in my notebook that said, "There are rumors around you that you are dating Comet Sakakiki, so be careful.
I didn't know that.
'Liar. Hmm. I overdid it too.

My left arm is free and very light. It's strange. I wonder if the toxin was drained out. It seems that this Alina does not spit poison, but sucks it out.
Anyway, I feel good. I can fly a cannonball to the moon now.

Let's get back to work, Alina.
Yes, sir.

We started walking again. I can no longer keep up with the gentle Alina. The tension is different. Our wavelengths are too different.

Contrasting personalities.
Stay inside and exclude others.
Spreading outward and taking in.

I wonder what they would say to each other if they existed at the same time. It would be quite an interesting picture.

Hey. What do you want with me, Comet?

I was puzzled by the unexpected question.
Alina was smiling as she said it as if she was talking to herself, and I knew immediately that it was a serious question.

'To be honest, I'm not sure anymore. I started by curing my tongue. Then I found out that you have a dual personality and switched from my original goal, although I had my doubts about getting you back to the way you are now. Next, you insist that it was the poisonous Arina who gave you the family name "Arina Nippa". I really don't know what to do anymore.

Alina sniffed, 'Hmmm.
Then gentle Alina said.

You don't need us anymore, do you?