363-Episode 363: It's Spicy




Chiffon!
Mr. Lane!

 He pulls out his Kamui and cuts it to chiffon.

 The sound of blade and blade intersecting.
 The sound of iron popping.

 Their power is almost even with each other.
 Just barely and the blade is against each other.

'What are you going to do here, immersed in your dreams, running away from reality and all that? You've just been chosen as the new brave, Chiffon!
'It's ... I know that! Now I'm an a**h*le. Instead of fulfilling my assigned role, I'm running away, turning away, pretending I didn't see it ... and throwing it all away! I don't deserve to be a brave man!
'So long! If you understand that!
More!

 Chiffon says, with a face that spits out his soul.
 His face was filled with sadness and pain.

'What I've lost is right in front of me!
Huh!
'I can have that warmth in my hands again that I'll never have again! I can be ... happy ... and I can be!
It was just a dream...
'Yes, but! Maybe so, though!

 Spitting out your soul, looking painful and bitter...
 Chiffon's anguish was evident.

 She understands.
 That the happy reality she could see now was only a dream.
 She knows that it is her role to proceed with the journey without being distracted by it.

 I know it all, I know it all.
 And yet.....
 I guess you can't help but hope for a dream.

 It's a very warm place.

"Chiffon, don't get caught up in your dreams! Sure, it could be warm. Sure, it could be happy. But it's something we've already lost. We have to acknowledge that and move on. It's our duty as the rest of us!

 Once, he gets out of range and uses Narkami's needle to check him.
 However, as expected of the current hero.
 He doesn't intercept with his sword, he just twists lightly to avoid everything.

 This, it's not something that can be seen...
 Even if I could see it, there's no way my body could keep up with the movement.



 Chiffon........looked like a child who was about to cry.


Huh...!
He looked exactly the same as he did then, laughing softly and saying, "Welcome home...
It's...

 I was told the same thing by my mom.
 She said good morning to me with the kindest face I can remember.
 I can understand Chiffon's feelings painfully.

'And ... there was that girl too. My precious sister. My sweet little sister........and the sister who died defending me.......''
Covering up?
My hometown was destroyed in a freak attack. My mother and father then my sister and I managed to escape.

 Chiffon stops fighting and talks about the past.
 He puts his own thoughts into words, as if appealing to me to understand.

"But a demon caught up with me in the middle of the fight...
...and then what?
"She ... she ... my sister, she said she was going to be the bait. She started running in the wrong direction all of a sudden and I tried to stop her, but I couldn't get to her in time.
....
'I'm your sister I had to protect her but she helped me in reverse...'
It's...

 How hard was it for me?
 How much pain did he suffer?
 I could imagine it, but only Chiffon knew what was really going on.

 Now, I couldn't say that I could understand.

'I regretted it. I regretted it over and over again, and not a single day went by that I forgot about my sister. I will never let that tragedy happen again. Because of that thought, I accepted to become a new brave man.
Then....
'We don't have time to stop here. I have to quickly repair the Comet Sword and resume my journey. I shouldn't have to... but I... but I...!

 I can see Chiffon's heart oscillating between her mission and her desire for happiness.

''It's hard...! I've worked so hard to support my mission... but it's still hard for me!
...chiffon...
I've lost my father and mother... my sister, and it's very painful... that wound is still with me. It never healed, I could only cover it up.......but in a sudden moment I remembered it, cried, screamed, and took it out on them.......

 Chiffon was crying.
 She was raggedly shedding tears.

 I can hear her heart screaming.
 I can tell that she is pleading for no more.

 Chiffon is a very strong person but....
 But in a way, he must be very weak.
 For losing his family, for not being able to help his sister.
 It's a burden that weighs on me and binds my heart and keeps me in pain.

'But ... I was able to meet my mom and dad here. I was able to see my sister's smile again.
But that's not...
"I wouldn't mind dreaming as long as I get to see my mom and dad again. I'd like to see my sister again. I don't care if it's a dream I want to live this dream forever. Because ... I'm happy.

 Saying that, Chiffon looked very tired.

 ........Somehow, I understand Chiffon's present.
 She must have been trying her best all along.
 Losing his hometown and regretting not being able to protect his sister...I think he's used that as a springboard to keep on running.

 But you can't keep running forever.
 If we don't take a break somewhere, we'll get crushed on the way.

 I'm sure Chiffon was on the verge of getting crushed.
 He had to stop, but he believed he had to keep running because of his past experience...
 It never stopped him in his tracks.
 That was probably why he could have become an A-ranked adventurer at his age.

 But it was an impossible act...
 He must have been almost on the verge of collapsing.
 That's when I was taken in by Alpha's dream.....................and I accepted it myself.
 It was too comfortable and gentle.

"Hey, Mr. Lane,
What... what?
'I want to be happy I want to stay here and dream a gentle dream is it wrong to want that?
....

 I can't say that it's offensive to understand all of Chiffon's thoughts and feelings.
 But I can understand some of it.

 I've lost my home too.
 And because I was reunited here with my family who were supposed to be gone.
 Because I experienced that joy and happiness at least once.

 And yet.
 I know what I'm going to say.
 It's too late to change.

No one can deny the desire to be happy. It's not a bad thing.
Then....
But you can't dream here.