364-Episode 364 Looking Forward




How could you...?

 Upon receiving my answer, Chiffon glares at me.
 He even showed anger at not being understood.

 Chiffon holds his sword.
 He seems to be in a state of extreme excitement, and his breath is heavy.
 If I make a mistake in answering him, he will slash at me again.

 But.

 I lowered my hand holding up my Kamui.
 On top of that, I open my mouth.

''Because........''

 I came to this city, and for a time, I was trapped in a dream.
 Then there's something I've been thinking about.
 Something I've been thinking about.

 I was actually going to talk to Mr. Alpha about it, but....
 But now I have to convince Chiffon that I'm not going to be happy.

'Dreaming about it won't make you happy. You're simply postponing your sorrow.
It's not...
'That's right. Even if the dead are brought back to life they might have another accident, or they might get sick. There's also old age. You will always have to say goodbye again.
It's a...
After all, it's only for a short time. Each time you have experienced happiness, you will experience sadness in equal measure. What's the point in repeating the same thing over and over again?
'But... but still, I get to see the people I loved again...'
'Yeah, yeah. I'm glad to hear it.

 In fact, I was happy too.
 I was so happy to see my mom and dad, I was almost in tears.

But that's not the same thing.
What is...?
No matter how hard it was, that past is what made me the person I am today.

 My hometown was attacked by a monster, and my father and mother and everyone in the village died....
 I was so sad, and I cried all the time.
 I can't tell you how many times I wished I could bring him back to life if it were possible.

 But.

 I overcame that past to become the person I am today.
 All the painful and sad things I've gone through are a part of me.

When I dream here, I forget all those things. To dream here is to pretend that the past never existed, to deny yourself...it's just too lonely.
'That's ... but ... but ...'
'The death of a loved one is, in a way, an important part of what makes up who we are. You could say it's a memory that's engraved in your soul. If you forget that and become immersed in your dreams the dead person's true soul will not be rewarded.
....
Above all else,

 There are words that I want to say, most of all, to those who wish for their dreams.
 I have words that I want to touch the hearts of Alpha and Chiffon.

 I'm going to say it now.

You can't let your loved ones see you dwell on your dreams and run away from reality all the time, can you?
H..........?
'We may see him again in our dreams, but his soul is not there. I'm sure he's with God, and he's watching over us. And yet, you're soaked in dreams and false happiness...don't you think Chiffon doesn't think anything of it, showing you that? For me, it's an embarrassment.
I...am...
'My dad and mom are very sweet people. If I'm immersed in my dreams, they may look annoyed, but I don't think they'd ever get mad at me. But ... you want to show your significant other how cool you are anyway, don't you? I don't want to show them that I'm an escape from reality, I want to show them that I'm strong enough to face up to the reality of their difficulties. By doing so, I want to truly reassure my mom and dad. Isn't that so, Chiffon!
....

 The sword Chiffon held at the ready slowly descends.
 He turned his head and looked down.

 What does he look like now?
 What are they thinking about?

 I don't know.
 I don't know.......but I believe the words will reach me and I will spin my thoughts.

'The truth is, Chiffon understands, doesn't he? He said, "I can't keep going like this. I need to look forward, I need to walk away.
It's not.........
'If we continue to run away from our dreams, we will only become decadent. I understand that kind of logic, and I also understand the emotional story of not having a face to match the soul of someone who really matters. Chiffon is a smart man. If I didn't say this or that, he probably would have realized it in a haze.
I don't think so... I want to dream...!

 Chiffon looked up and looked at me.
 He had a desperate look on his face, and....

Then why do you look like you're in pain?
H..........?

 Chiffon's face contorts widely.
 It makes me want to cry, to be angry, to run away...
 You have a face with a complex combination of emotions.

''Even Chiffon must know, I can't go on like this........ You're chosen by the brave men, so you can't be this weak at heart. I was just holding my feet up, just for a moment.
I'm....
So ... it's time for you to wake up. The reality may be hard and sad and heartless enough to make you want to cry, but...
I'm...!
'But there's more to it than that. There's a proper warmth to it. There's something tender. So.....
I am...!

 Chiffon shouted with a blood-curdling force.

''Huh!!!''

 He stared at me with tears in his eyes, full of tears in his eyes.
 One last game.
 Just like that, he kicked the ground and closed the distance between us all at once.

 That's fine.
 If you say you can't control your emotions, I'll make it right.
 I will cut off Chiffon's unrequited love, sadness, and everything else.

 So.........don't cry anymore.

''Uhhhh!

 The evil eye... activate!

What?

 Bikung, Chiffon's body trembles and his movements stop.

 When it turned out that I got the magic eye in the contract with Rifa.......Chiffon and the others were asleep, so they didn't know about it.
 Partly because I was worried about control........
 I kept it as a trump card in case of an emergency.

 That decision was the right one.
 I was able to use it at the perfect time and...
 At the optimal time, he was able to block Chiffon's movements.

'Sleep now.'

 I ran next to Chiffon and hit him with a Kamui blow as we passed each other.
 Of course, he hit her with the belly of the blade and avoided the slash.

''Ah.........''

 A definite response.
 Chiffon's strength slipped from his legs....

I'm sorry, you know Mr. Lane...

 Finally, he apologized and passed out.