210 The conflict between a girl and a boy 3

 I wait for Gaius to speak.
 Gaius opened his mouth.

"I still can't come to terms with the fact that my father had to be killed. If you're on the side of the beastmen now, I can't help but wonder why you didn't make that decision before you killed my father.

 If the prince had made the decision earlier... Maybe Mr. Athos wouldn't have died. I know it's something you can't help but think about, but you can't help but think about what might have been.

I'm sure my father didn't have to die. ...... Even the beasts in Nilsi's village are going through a lot. All I can think about is the fact that my father was killed. I can't forgive them or anything like that.
I don't think I should tell anyone about these feelings. ....... I felt like they would hate me, so I couldn't tell ...... anyone. I didn't want to tell anyone, but I kept thinking about it, and it started to get stuck in my head, and I didn't know what to do, so I tried not to think about it.
...... But no matter how much I try not to think about it, even if I move my body and don't think about it for a moment, I'll think about it again soon. The more I suppress these thoughts, the more I feel like I don't know why, and the more I don't know what to do. Maybe one day I'll attack those knights. ......
It's okay. ...... I'm sure I, Lan, and everyone else are watching. Gaius wants to kill you, but you don't really want to kill him.

 If you really want to kill, you wouldn't be struggling like this. If it would have been easier to kill him, he wouldn't have vented to me like this or suffered alone, he would have taken action.

 Gaius seems to have been worried that I might hate him, but I don't think I will ever hate him. But I don't think I will ever hate Gaius, because people change, but Gaius is still the Gaius I love.
 I believe that Gaius is a kind Gaius, and that's why I'm struggling with him like this.

 That's why I decided to see to it that Gaius doesn't get caught up in his hatred. I don't think anyone else would hate Gaius even if they knew what he was going through. We're all friends with the same goal.

"Gaius, it's okay to hold on to those feelings. If you can't control it, I'm always here to listen. I'm not the only one. Mr. Lan, Mr. Dong, Ilkesai and the others will all listen to you. I'll even help you with your distractions. I love you and I care about Gaius.

 When I said this, Gaius had tears in his eyes. I was surprised.

"Ga, Gaius, what's wrong?
"I just thought I was blessed. That made me happy. Thank you, Lern Da.

 Gaius smiles and wipes away a tear.

"Don't worry about it. Gaius has helped me a lot too. It's mutual. Gaius, if you're feeling confused, why don't you try running around and screaming? Maybe it'll help if you do it in wolf form. It might be dangerous for Gaius and I to go alone, so the gryphons would have to go with us. ......

 I'll make a suggestion to Gaius.
 I'm hoping this will help Gaius feel a little better.
 I thought it might help if he shouted out as loud as he could and let out what he was holding in. It might make him feel a little better. Not that it would make me feel better, but I thought it would help Gaius.

 Besides, if I speak up as a wolf, people won't have a problem hearing me.
 Gaius laughed at my words and said, "Oh. I'm glad you're feeling a little better now that you've told me.

I'll talk to Mr. Dong and the others about it.

 I was relieved to see that Gaius looked refreshed when he said he was going to talk to Dong and the others about it.
 I can't understand everything that Gaius is thinking, but I'm glad that I was able to help him in this way.

 Right next to me, Fresne was muttering, "It's hard being human.

 When Frené pointed his finger at me, I saw Ran, Nilshi, Sifo, Raymer and the others looking at me with concern.

 Gaius is well-liked by everyone, after all. Everyone loves Gaius, that's why they're worried about him.
 Gaius is loved by everyone. No matter how he feels, they don't hate him. I wondered if that's how Gaius felt after I used sacred magic and fell for the first time.
 Gaius was angry with me for not caring about him.
 I told Gaius that it was okay that he might not like me now.
 I was happy that I could help Gaius in this way, as I was happy with his words at that time.

"Gaius, Ran and the others are here.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
"We're all worried about you, Gaius. We'll take care of you, okay?
"...... Oh.

 I'm going to live with the people I love by supporting each other.

 --The Girl and the Boy's Struggle 3
 The girl is happy to have been able to help the beastman boy. The girl is happy that she was able to help the boy, and they live together.