248 My sister can't move.

 Mr. Ninaev was moving with an expression on his face, as if he had made up his mind and was ready to move on.
 I was relieved to hear that.

 Ninaef-sama's move on behalf of her fiancé would mean that I myself would be more likely to be in danger. As my guardian, Ninaev's actions would come back to haunt me as well.
 In the past, before I realized that I wasn't special, I wouldn't have wanted to go through this kind of hardship for someone else.

 --I don't know what's going on with Mr. Ninaev and his fiancée, nor do I know what's going on with the Kingdom of Fairytlov and the Kingdom of Migga. I may be so full of myself that I can't see what's going on around me.

 ...... The reason I'm not informed of these circumstances is probably because I'm still a child.

 Mr. Ninaev is trying to reach out to the people around him and work for his fiancée. But because of Ninaev's royal status, he can't go to the neighboring countries by himself.
 I thought it's hard when you have a fence like that. I also have a fence as a person who pretended to be a divine child, and I still have the fact that I existed as a divine child under a misunderstanding and ran the country out of selfishness.

 It would be difficult for me to act on behalf of Lord Ninaef. If I were to make a big show of it, I would be complicating the situation. And I don't have what it takes to move people that far.

 When I was convinced I was special, I thought I could work on anyone, any way I wanted.
 I thought that what I said was absolute and that everyone would listen to me. In fact, that's how it was the whole time I was in the village. I was surprised that they listened to me when I think about it now.
 When I told Ninaev about that time, he said it might have been influenced by Lerunda.

 Unlike Lerunda, I have no power. I look beautiful, but I wonder how I can use it. Some people said that beauty is also strength, but I don't know how to use that.

 Some people said that beauty is also strength, but I don't know how to use it. They said it's something to be used when you're older. If you don't use them well, you'll get in trouble. She said that if I don't use it well, I could get in trouble. She said that something like what happened to me before, when I was almost kidnapped, could happen.
 Well, when I told him I'd heard about this, he said he'd warn the person who taught me.

 ...... Is there nothing I can do? For Mr. Ninaev's sake. Is there nothing I can do for Mr. Ninaev?

 I have always felt frustrated.
 Even if I wanted to do something for Mr. Ninaef, he would say, "Alice should spend her time freely.

 So I was free to spend my time. If I just spent my time cheerfully and smiled at everyone, they would laugh at me. Then I wanted to spend my time cheerfully, even though it was frustrating and I was worried. Of course, while trying not to bother Mr. Ninaev.

 While doing so, I look at Mr. Ninaev. If Ninaev seemed a little troubled, I would talk to him, hoping that he would smile a little.

 And then Ninaev said to me.

I'm going to try not to do anything rash in helping Master Hiccup. I'm going to try to keep myself from going under. But if I do go under, Alice will go elsewhere. You said that I could do whatever I wanted and that it didn't matter what happened to me, but ......, I'll try not to let it affect anyone but me.
...... I want to do whatever you want me to do, Ninaef. I'll help you a lot, even if we end up ruined together.
"Thank you, Alice. I'm glad you said that. Still, it's selfish of me to want to lose Hiccup. So, if something happens to me, I want you to live. No, it's not just Alice. I'm sure the rest of the team will do their best to stay out of it.

 Surely, helping her fiancé was that dangerous. That's why Master Ninaev told me so determinedly.

 Helping my fiancé in such a difficult situation is like a double-edged sword, and if I make a mistake, I will be in serious trouble.

 I think I would be willing to do something dangerous if I could do it for Mr. Ninaev myself. But Ninaef-sama won't let me do that.
 I want to know and move properly for Ninaev. But Ninaev won't tell me everything. He won't let me move.

 --I want to move, but I can't.
 I want to move but I can't. There's nothing I can realistically do.

 So all I could do was nod yes to Mr. Ninaef's words.

 --My sister can't move.
 She wants to move, but she can't. The princess is working for the prince. She can only watch and wait.