180 Each intertwined speculation (Ito)





 ...... Sometimes life happens in unexpected ways. Thinking back on yesterday, Deanna felt this way deeply.
 The next thing she knew, she was aware of the romantic feelings (romantic feelings!) that she had kept locked away inside her. It's a great way to make sure you're getting the most out of your vacation. ...... Well, yes, it was a confession, but when you think about it, neither of them used "I love you" or "I love you", which are standard lines in romance novels, so romance novel enthusiasts might argue that the scene yesterday was not a confession. But...

(......, but I felt like if I used words that were easy to understand, I wouldn't be able to stop myself.

It would have been impossible for me to say "I want Kai" or even to say the word "love" without being so confused, losing my cool, and completely losing myself. --Seeking someone with her own selfish desires is such a high hurdle for Deanna.

(I don't usually even think about it, but when I do, I realize that I'm a nobleman and a "Crester". ......)

 For example, if Diana was a commoner. I'm not sure if I'd be able to do this if I were a commoner. ...... And if Kai hadn't been so kind and respectful of Deanna's situation, and not so much of an afterthought himself. The way he handles these feelings might have been a little different.
 Even though things have gotten better in recent years, there is still a stark difference in status between nobles and commoners in the Kingdom of Ergeland. If you have a lot of money, it is a different story, but basically, commoners cannot refuse the requests of nobles. That's why successive Counts of Clester never asked for help from the people or made requests to the people unless there was a great need.
He said, "No matter how much we descend to the people's point of view, since we can only see the same thing by 'descending,' there will always be a difference in position. Don't take advantage of the ease with which the people treat you. If you are a commoner, it may be just a request, but if we say it, it becomes an order that you can never disobey. --It was a lesson that Dualis had been teaching him since he was a child.
 Even if Kai didn't think anything of Deanna. Even if Kai didn't have any feelings for Deanna, he couldn't ignore her feelings because of his status. If he was so kind, he would put Deanna before his own feelings, which is why he subconsciously thought that the only way to protect his own heart and freedom was to keep love out of it.

(...... Well, Kai and Rita laughed at me when I told them about my mistaken identity.

"No, no, no, Dee, how much do you think I'm beautiful?
I'm sure this guy would never take the chance of getting feelings for a girl he doesn't care about, and if he did, he'd get out of there before she did something stupid. I'm sure she wouldn't choose to behave in such an auspicious and gentle manner as to go out with a young lady she doesn't like because she can't say no to her because of her status.
That's right. In the first place, I don't think of myself as a regular Elgrandian, so I don't have the respect, discretion, or discernment for the nobility or royalty of that country. I'm free to decide who to respect, honor, and prioritize, all by looking at the person from the beginning.

 It was hard not to blush when he told her that he wasn't being nice to Deanna because of her status, but because Deanna herself was someone that Kai wanted to be nice to. In the event that you have any questions concerning where and how to use the internet, you can call us at the web site.
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I'm sure you'll be pleased to know that I'm not the only one.
...... Rita doesn't object or surprise, does she?
I'm sure you'll be able to see from my side that the two of you are attracted to each other. If Kai were a man who would be harmful to you, I would object, but it is clear that he is not. I have no reason to be opposed to a surprising turn of events.
"...... I think my feelings were all over the place, Dee?
I'm sure you've been leaking your feelings, Dee? It's not that I'm insensitive, it's just that I never thought I'd have the happiness of having someone I liked return the same feelings I had for them.
"Yeah, I can see that. It's not that I don't like it, it's just that I don't like it.
...... I don't want Dee to be the only one to say that. It's the same with Dee when she puts off her own happiness.
I'm just putting it off. I want to be happy someday, you know?
If that's the case, so am I. ...... To be honest, until I met Dee, I didn't think there was anyone I cared about more than my dad. It's a good idea to have a good idea of what you're going to be doing and how you're going to do it.
You're usually so reserved and unforgiving, but you're very modest in the most important areas. ......
Yeah. I've heard the same thing from Sirius. --I'm not going to ask for it, but the desire for it comes up quite often. I don't know what you mean when you say you have endless desires when you don't intend to ask for them.
I don't know. ...... I get it, finally.

 I'm not sure what to make of this. Sometimes we act impulsively against our reason, sometimes we behave in a way that in hindsight makes us ashamed of why we did what we did, and these contradictory feelings are "love.

 --As I was lazing on my bed, thinking back to yesterday, when I spent a peaceful time with Kai and Rita, I heard Rita's voice coming from outside my bedroom.

"Dear Diana. I'm sorry to bother you while you're sleeping.
"....... It's okay, I'm awake.

 The usual wake-up time was long past. It was rather irregular that I had not been woken up before.
 I got up and adjusted my clothes so as not to be unseemly, and Rita, who had apparently been watching for the right moment, entered the room.

"Good morning, Miss Diana.
Good morning, Deanna. ...... I overslept, I'm sorry.
It's not that I have anything in particular to do, it's just that sometimes it's nice. ...... You were home very late last night.
No, it wasn't that late. ...... Maybe.
Well, whether you came home early or late, it doesn't matter if you don't sleep well.
............ Do you understand?
You look good, but I can tell you're not sleeping well. --Yesterday was a turbulent day for you, Diana, so it's understandable.

 ...... In situations like this, it's apparently more embarrassing to be taken seriously than to be ridiculed. In the event that you've got a lot of money, you'll be able to use it to make a lot of money. After putting on the robe over the costume and taking a break (as an Elgrandian, Deanna felt uncomfortable wearing only the stanza costume, even though Rita was the only one in the room), Rita brought her morning tea.

I know it's not polite to drink tea in the bedroom, but I thought you might feel more comfortable if you could relax a little.
"Thank you, ....... Thank you.

 This herbal tea is slightly sweet and soft to the palate. It's more commonly served as a night tea than a morning tea.



...... So, did you enjoy your date with Kai last night?
"Huh.

 In the event that you've got a lot of time, you may want to take a look at the following tips. Taking a deep, conscious breath, Deanna gently placed the cup back on the plate.

It's not a ...... date. I was just wondering if you'd like to go to Healy Meadow with me. It's not a date, it's not a play date.
But isn't the Healy Meadow one of the most beautiful places in the Stanza Empire? But the Healy Meadow is one of the most beautiful places in the Stanza Empire, isn't it enough for a romantic date to go there alone at night?
Even if it does, it's not a date because we were out on a serious business. The reason why we went out at night was because it was difficult to move around without being seen after the sun went down, not because we were looking for a romantic atmosphere.
I see. So, you didn't get into that kind of romantic atmosphere?
I can't say that it didn't. ............

 ...... If I'm being honest, Kai was like honey from start to finish last night, or as he put it, "stopped holding back," to the point where I almost forgot the purpose of going out. It was a romantic atmosphere. According to him, "Dee is the first person I've ever felt this way about," which goes without saying for Deanna, but I'd like to ask him seriously why he's so calm and relaxed. Since yesterday, Deanna has been swept away by Kai's every move.

I'm sure you'll be able to understand why I'm so excited about this.
"...... I knew it?
If you feel uncomfortable or uneasy about the discrepancy in your feelings, it's better to tell him as soon as possible.
No, it's not. ...... It's not that I'm uncomfortable or insecure or anything like that. It just bothers me.
What do you mean, "embarrassed"?
A lot of things. ...... I'm feeling heavy, and I don't know what I'm going to do if it gets any heavier.
It's only Deanna who's in trouble, and I'm sure she'll end up happy as can be.
That's also a problem. ...... Kai is really too lenient with me.

 I'm not sure what to do, but I'm going to try my best not to get carried away by the atmosphere that Kai creates, and confirm what I've been wondering. However, I didn't know all the details, so Kai agreed to go there and check it out for me. After the meeting, Kai walked me to the villa and saw me to my bedroom, despite Deanna's words that she could go home alone. The last thing I wanted was to be hugged softly and kissed on the top of my head with the words "good night". I barely had the presence of mind to change into my nightgown, but there was no way I would be able to sleep peacefully once I changed and slipped into my bed.

(When you're treated like that, like you're treating a treasure, like you're taking care of it...) (To be treated with such care and respect, as if I were a treasure.) (To be gazed at at all times with such kind, yet no longer feverish eyes. It makes you feel as if you've become something very good and wonderful. (The illusion of ...... makes you drown in Kai more and more.

 There was a time when I was so desperate for Kai's warmth that I couldn't bear to be without him, and I was quite selfish. I don't understand the state of mind that allowed me to fall into a deep sleep with peace of mind when Kai touched and cared for me like that. ...... Now that I've realized the true nature of these feelings I have for Kai, it's absolutely impossible. I'm not sure what to do, but I'm going to do it.

"Isn't it good?

 As if seeing through Deanna's confusion, Rita laughs lightly.

I'm sure you'll be able to figure out what's going on. If you think that Deanna-sama is being too hard on herself and Kai is being too hard on her, then I guess the balance is even. --If that's the case, why don't you indulge Kai as much as you indulge Deanna?
"Pamper Kai. ......? What kind of spoilage?
You don't have to think too hard, just do what you want for Kai and what you think you can do for him.
Is that what you want?
Yes. I'm willing to bet that Kai isn't intentionally spoiling Diana-sama, he's just treating her the way he wants to be treated.
"Oh, you mean unconscious? I'm not sure what to make of that. I'm not sure what to make of that, but I'm sure it's a good idea.
I'm not sure if it's the latter or the former. I personally think it's the latter.
How do you know?
"...... Diana-sama, naturals are scary because they are naturals.

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 Because of Deanna's position as the Red Rose, she can't use the word "lover" by mistake, but she can tell ...... her trusted friends that she's the one who promised to be with her until the end of her life. If something happens to Deanna, I want to make sure that she is in a position where she won't be easily cut off by the government, even if unofficially.
 And more importantly, I have a simpler feeling.

I don't want to lie to Kai or to anyone else. (I don't want to lie to Kai or to anyone else.) If this feeling is unfair as a side wife, I want to be sincere about that unfairness. -- (It is wrong for me to deny myself the love of a side chamberlain, especially if I bring back the "subordinate gift system.

 ...... Strictly speaking, what I want to do for Kai may be a bit different from what I want to do for myself, but that doesn't stop me from doing what I think Diana wants to do and should do. I want to tell my feelings to my family, to the people I believe in.

 --Rita quietly watches as Deanna sips from her cup in silence. As a gentle silence filled the room, a voice called out from the front door, "Excuse me. Rita, who seemed to have sensed the presence a little while ago, immediately moved to respond.

Good morning. What can I do for you?
Good morning. I'm sorry to have disturbed you this morning. --I've been entrusted with the Prince's personal belongings. I have something to give you. May I have permission to enter?
Please wait a moment. I'll check with the Lord.

 I don't need to check, I can hear you just fine. ...... To be honest, I had a rather awkward breakup with Exiga in the Healy Meadow, so it's very difficult to deal with any kind of commission. You'll be able to get a lot more than just a few of them.


 She nodded silently to Rita, who came in, and Rita seemed to have learned her lesson and said, "The Lord has given me permission. Please come in.

Thank you, Your Highness. This is a letter of consolation and a gift from His Highness the Prince.
...... Thank you for your kindness.
Thank you. I'm sorry to bother you so early in the morning.

 He really didn't want to stay long. I told him what I wanted, gave him what he wanted, and left the room. After confirming that the presence of the other person had gone away, Deanna quietly left the bedroom.

What was that about ......?
I'll read from the ...... text.
I'll read from the ...... text.

 You can't avoid it, no matter how embarrassing it is for you personally, because Deanna is the ambassador and Exiga is the bridge to the Stanza Empire. I have no choice but to disregard my feelings as feelings and continue our business relationship calmly.
 I made up my mind to do so, and opened the sentence...

"......?
"Can I help you?
It's kind of like a ...... business call?
"What?

What is it? "From sundown today, we will be inviting the members of the most prominent families living nearby to this palace for a small banquet. As the ambassador of the Kingdom of Elgrand, I would like to invite you to attend. Since you are the ambassador, it would be a good souvenir for King Ergeland if you return home with connections not only to the people of Iftane but also to those who have some say in the Imperial Palace.

 This was all the sentence said. It was very simple, with no hint of yesterday's incident. ...... Thinking about it, the other side was also uncomfortable, so both sides decided that it would be safer to avoid mentioning yesterday's incident and carry out their work quietly.
 I'm not sure what to make of it, but I think it's a good idea.

It's a good thing that you're not the only one who has a problem with this.
I'm sure you're right. I think you should be honestly happy about that.
And that means that this box is... oh, yes.

 In the flat box sat a beautifully ornamented robe, woven with vegetable threads. It was red overall, with the hem and hood decorated with embroidery and colored stones. It looked like a simple stanza-style robe made into a gorgeous Elgrand dress. The hood also has a cover to hide the face, and when it is fully worn, only the eyes are visible, just like the women walking outside in Iftane.
 Deanna looked at the robe closely and nodded.

She nodded and said, "A robe without ornaments is out of place at a glamorous banquet. On the other hand, I cannot expose myself to the male guests without the king's permission, as I am the wife of King Elgrand. If that's the case, I can make my robe fit for a banquet... yes, that's very reasonable.
"Are you going to attend? Would you like to wear this?
Rita, this robe costs a lot of money, you know. It must have been a lot of work to have it tailored after I arrived in the stanzas. I'm sure it was a lot of work. ...... I can't ignore the thoughtfulness of His Highness.
The position of the minister of state is also troublesome. ......

 It's a good idea to take a look at the actual information on the web. --In a moment, a sweet scent rose from the box.

Is this ...... perfume?
Well, ...... wait a minute.

 Touch the robe and search for the source of the scent. If it's a plant, it's easy to identify.
 Besides, this scent is from somewhere else.

"The flower of seduction, Lanra.
...... What is this scent?
It's a scent that the women of the harem loved to wear. ...... Their perfume was more subdued and subdued than this.
This one is unscented?
Yes. It looks like they extracted the scent from fresh flowers and infused it into the robe. Lanterns are originally very fragrant flowers. It only blooms in oases, and its scent attracts creatures to help pollinate it. It is said that when a woman wears the scent of ranula, she becomes more attractive and attracts men.
You know a lot. Where did you get that knowledge?
"I once visited the botany building at the University of Iftarne. I was simply curious about the plants that bloom only in the Stanza Empire. Even if I knew about them, if I hadn't seen them in person, I wouldn't have been able to identify them from their appearance.
"I see. ......

 I'm not sure what to make of it.

It's a good idea to have a good idea of what you're looking for.
I'm not sure what to make of it, but I think it's a good idea. In the stanzas, it is normal to wear perfume on your robes and clothes, and the scent of ranula itself is very common in the harem. It's probably just a custom.
But isn't it the scent that women wear to seduce men? A robe with such a scent on it would be like trying to get a guest to attack Master Diana. I don't think so. ......
It's possible, but the scent is so strong that it won't come off with just one wash. The robe's embellishments are so delicate that if you wash it in a way that removes the scent, it will become unwearable.
That's true, but ......
Don't worry. The party is at night, right? The party is at night, and if you hang it out to dry in a well-ventilated place before then, you can get rid of a lot of the scent. --And the fact that the scent of ranula can be used for seduction is only because of its ability to attract creatures, but there is nothing in the medicinal properties of ranula that can increase attraction or seduce a person.



(Not that I have any ...... concerns at all, mind you.

 On its own, ranula is nothing more than a fragrant flower.
 However, when the fragrant component of ranula is combined with two other factors, ...... it has the potential to turn into a deadly drug that is worse than any poison.
 I'm not sure how well known that "potion" is in the stanzas, but...

(Just in case...)

 Close your eyes and listen to the green voice.
 --Deanna opens her eyes, quietly.

"Rita. Go to the kitchen and ask for breakfast. When you're done eating, we'll go out for a bit.
Yes, ma'am. So, where to?
"On the way from the villa to Healy Meadow, there's a thicket of trees surrounding a small spring. You can find it at .......
"...... Diana?
...... It's so frustrating. You can make a potion like this in no time at all if you go back to the harem and mix the herbs you brought with you from Ergeland. If I leave for Iftane now, I won't be back before nightfall.
What are you doing at ......?
I'm sorry, it's okay. It's just a precaution, there's no need to make it so perfect. It would be disrespectful to Prince Exiga to be too prepared.

 That's right. You don't know what's going to happen, so you just have to be prepared "just in case." The possibility of Lanra turning into a "cure" is currently extremely low.
 Shaking her head to get rid of the bad feeling, Diana smiled at Rita.

"Come on, Rita. Let's have breakfast first.
"...... Yes, sir. Dear Deanna, please tell me your thoughts on the way.
"Okay.

 Deanna nodded and looked up at the stanza sky, hoping nothing would happen.